It's not because others get what I deserve, not specifically, but I feel watched in weird ways and manipulated and because you're desperate no one cares to fight you.
I can't do anything without feeling restrained from relaxing.
Why are other people getting treated better? It seems like comparable desperation, things that used to not matter..matter. Things that matter to me..don't.
People are so annoying around me, and apparently I'm not saying who here now. It's a collection of parts of what others do.
I don't need to live in a buzzed fence. I keep getting threatened about interests and feeling relaxed myself. I can't relax! I'd use that time to do stuff I wanna think.
Why doesn't anyone care about me sometimes? I see other people getting what they want. They have down time and come out triumphant and maybe special.
I feel I'm being fought still for cursing. Not sure what else I should say. But it's me and my life. My life is so downsized. I'm tired of looking for the hints. I'm getting mad. Anyone can help me? I don't want anything to happen, neither. This is no help.
Well.. you think I might turn bad illegally, but I haven't. You think that's a toy of a guess? Something isn't right. People just are so weird around me. I am in my home in my room, but I feel in a room of trouble. Why are your relationships important and not mine, most of which do not talk to me, not sure why they're so ^private^. Not even sure that they are. They don't want me to get attention from older adults for being nice and saying no one likes me.
Ho hum diddly dum, time for bed soon.