You keep saying I said things I didn't.

I think I was just upset at the rubbing in and what was to come I didn't really mention.  Well, I'll be honest.  I don't wanna seem picky about like me not looking good with others, but I know this was done as a punishment which I mean the punishment itself I wanted to say bothered me.. I don't deserve to be punished.  I already said it's nice for different people to interact.  Now, I have you all going crazy sending me mean coded messages.  Like, you think maybe you can get away with it.  You think nothing will naturally backfire.  I'm not doing it, it just tends to catch up with you.  You all are always nasty to me.  This has nothing to do with someone else, at least, I hope.  Just think, I will get bothersome messages.. and every day.  Which leads me to another thing.. I forget.  But anyway it's messages meant to hurt me using bait to get me in trouble if I react in the negative, which I do at least kinda.  Like, oh, I said you can't have this person and this person is better and can.. it's not the person that I'm even arguing.  About getting attention, I don't really care, I like others to get it.  About not giving me any, I guess I'd ask why and who.  I just have to accept it.  If it's just to avoid me, I'd be upset.  If it's because of the punishment thing, I'd be even more upset.  I did say I wish I didn't say all this, but none of it is to be taken back, all is carefully crafted and stated, originally.