I can't feel that I deserve anything, anymore.
You all are just pretending I did something wrong to compensate for your own life mistakes.
What I mean about how I feel is that people are pretending I don't deserve whatever I used to. They tricked me into believing in things that aren't there, like joy and happiness with a lot of other human beings nor any at all.
You all lived life saying you were misjudged, but you had no right to hand select me and attack me for no real reason.
I know that what people did was wrong, and it was magnified to extremes beyond compare. I have it worse than Jesus other than being crucified and killed. Jesus live a free life. He could preach or chose not to and otherwise be like the rest of us.