Violating My Rights to Alienate Me Totally

I don't see in such a civilized manner I executed my posts that you just dig in and make up your mind it ain't gonna fly, so just whoever did it.  I fear I know who that is now.  Still, I am saying I was trying to be nice when I explained my problem, which seems to be all you can think of until I rot.  Why be mad, tho?  I feel something holding me back, otherwise, a well, and I think I know who it is, though I don't want anyone hurt.  Why is this in my life?  I have to post a lot so no one gets mad, to explain.  I think my point is I was just talking about my problems.  That's really all I did.  I found out it was what you believed in, so I can't really care about it but am sad I didn't know of things like this in advance, which a lotta folks seem to harbour.  I didn't "have" to do it.  If I didn't have to do it and I wasn't adamant about that point in the end, then it shows it's just a trick.  I'm talking about life, not poking at anyone.  I think this is a true philosophy, I mean.  I have to talk to someone, so I have been blogging about life.  I didn't know it was "the button."  Why does my dad's hatred keep getting in my way, too?  We sometimes have a good time.  He acted like he's the big thing to live for, when it's probably more for popularity and a multitude of individuals outside of one's own family, especially if one is trapped in a mixed race relationship and they themselves are well off.  I just feel around every corner one thing will tick one off and it'll be over, for me.