Monday, December 22, 2014

TV

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

The hilite today was Meryl Streep, Anna Kendrick, and a British girl.  Anna Kendrick is a year older than me.  I feel a sense of motherliness that suffices for being from her and a sense I wanna be on top, too.  I love Meryl Streep and am so sorry I said she was racist.  I mean, people should talk about it, but it shouldn't be like that.  I think like everyone is racist, so that's not the best thing to plaque up there.  I'm also worried, hope with Ellen that she got the ultimate experience, which I suppose she's busy looking for.  Other than my mom, who has such a hard life, she is my favorite person, maybe after Dad and not sure how much my brother has anything to do with me.  I dunno about relatives.  They just aren't in my life how I'd like.  I have my own life with the public and friends, too, I mean.  It's nice that Ellen is just a person who goes on TV and has her own life whatever she wants.  The world must really be a hard place to connect in.  I hope she gets to talk to people, too..

I loved seeing Anna Kendrick but also Meryl Streep, whom I must greatly accept and vie for.  Lotta people out there like that you gotta vie for, I know.  Meryl is probably special in ways I do not know enough about.  I think there is more there.  I keep learning more about her and myself seeing people like her, like Julia Roberts! whom I also love!  I saw her in a movie and she was so cute, think it was her..

Ellen seems to be doing well, and I hope she is looking forward to a wonderful Christmas, tho it's none of my business.  Portia is so regal.  I do not know why her head seems so big.  Mine did next to Chris Mann, too.  So, anyway, Portia knows what's right, right?  She'll have a good Christmas with her wife?  I am wondering about the parties Ellen attends.  Guess someone from Australia is appropriate yet seems inhibited.  I'm still a party.  I'm not saying I think about marrying Ellen.  I just am saying I'd be a blast compared to Portia, in that she is all prim and proper and not really that American.  I'm only 1/2 American, so maybe not.  Americans all store up things and wait for their turns, it seems.  I mostly want to sing and I know I can.  I would like to meet or know Ellen but with plenty of others . Maybe, she's quiet, tho.  Then, no.

So, it was also cute seeing the girls win.  They were so happy!  Well, 1 girl, in musical chairs.

I am perfectly happy watching people on TV, but I usually am used to being around people in hi, uptite situations.  They aren't exactly Ellen DeGeneres or like Jimmy Fallon.  I only see my upset dad and now sick mom.  An aunt who looked tired like my mom, aunt-in-law, great, died.  It just makes me so sad.  :(*  I told my mom she was my favorite person, but I mean I get *** outside of my family.  She's the one who doesn't touch me.  My dad is always crawling around me.  Musta done something when I was a baby.  Ellen showed a baby on her show, today..  :)  It was so cute!..  I saw the dad was young.  1 thing I know is I would want 1 of those fake babies.  The thing I know is that you have to be in good shape and good looking yourself if you want a good baby.  So I think.  Something people forget.  So.. I mean, if I were famous and enticed people more myself, maybe people like Meryl Streep would come to me.  Young kids tend to cheer you up if you love them, too.