Sunday, October 11, 2015
cont.
You think it's all genius and creative, like I need this when you don't have anything to offer.
I turn on the TV and see movies I like in the theater with people..
..but I don't seem to have enough knowledge of what's popular.
People All Deserve
So, on another topic, we don't have to meet anyone, but how do we make more "people" who deserve as much respect as popular people today?
I dunno, I was a rising star.
Does Ellen DeGeneres have to meet anyone?
I dunno, I was a rising star.
Does Ellen DeGeneres have to meet anyone?
Moreover
They are disposing of popular people to Bella Thorne. Better hurry! Not that you'd have to dispose of them to make anyone happy, but ya are. ..Hurry!
Freedom of Speech
You can't monitor my blog. This is getting silly. I didn't break a law. You'd end up in jail.
Competition
It seems like I'm competing with Bella Thorne. She is an example of being used for parasiting and in my life in ways too much. You people can't do whatever you want to me.
What happened when my life was about me? You would find what you people do rude before I cursed about the hurtful, illegal noises Ellen DeGeneres supposedly said to put in my room to the people experimenting on me.
No wonder Bella Thorne would like hanging around so much, get 2 lives, like witches sucking out children's souls. When are more and other interesting people coming into my life? Other people deserve a turn at being popular.
What happened when my life was about me? You would find what you people do rude before I cursed about the hurtful, illegal noises Ellen DeGeneres supposedly said to put in my room to the people experimenting on me.
No wonder Bella Thorne would like hanging around so much, get 2 lives, like witches sucking out children's souls. When are more and other interesting people coming into my life? Other people deserve a turn at being popular.
Living in This House
It's not being at peace. When you go places, it's like my dad wants to be there to "check" every time we walk by. No wonder I can't sleep at night. It's probably the pills I don't need.
People hate that I get some things, like..
..like I'm Helena Bonham Carter "stealing" Tim Burton from the world or the people who deserve his "creative" presence.
I didn't do anything bad. People just give me attention being in an experiment. I didn't wanna waste my life on that.
As for things like getting attention from famous and popular people, I was considered a good person before moving to Central Florida. No one would say to me, "Who do you think you are?"
Disclaimer: No threat nor offense to anyone. I am not being sarcastic. I'm also not pointing fingers. I'm also not trying to have a condescending tone coupled with any of what I said. Also, I do like Helena Bonham Carter. I was just saying how people/we felt in some ways, tho I don't really say that I say this exactly like this/completely.
I didn't do anything bad. People just give me attention being in an experiment. I didn't wanna waste my life on that.
As for things like getting attention from famous and popular people, I was considered a good person before moving to Central Florida. No one would say to me, "Who do you think you are?"
Disclaimer: No threat nor offense to anyone. I am not being sarcastic. I'm also not pointing fingers. I'm also not trying to have a condescending tone coupled with any of what I said. Also, I do like Helena Bonham Carter. I was just saying how people/we felt in some ways, tho I don't really say that I say this exactly like this/completely.
They don't think I do anything wrong but am a bad person..
..they are rubbing in something and saying I can't have things I once had and are giving it to Bella Thorne, after pretending I couldn't have it cuz it was bad. Not that I need some of those things or of some in certain ways.
Strangeness
I don't understand the pressure on me when I am a normal person.
It's like all these people know about my lame life in private, but I can't freely wonder about people without being told off by the people experimenting on me and those involved.
People act like no one was ever mean to me in some ways, too, and, like, they can keep tabs on my behavior like it doesn't matter if so many people are mean to me and I'm an adult and mean no harm, unlike others.
It's like all these people know about my lame life in private, but I can't freely wonder about people without being told off by the people experimenting on me and those involved.
People act like no one was ever mean to me in some ways, too, and, like, they can keep tabs on my behavior like it doesn't matter if so many people are mean to me and I'm an adult and mean no harm, unlike others.
Following Burton
I would be sneaky like he could be and lash out in a withheld manner, but I'm not for this all out lets's just go all out and act open about anything and that's what Christina Barrett says tackily, that's all she is.
Testy
Why are you testing me by me getting attention? You know, like posting online cuz I don't work and have time.
Question
Why do some people think they have a say and think I'm trash if I get popular or someone likes me who's older? That's just a secret formula I uncovered. I am looking for more people to talk to, actually. I do talk to some, but the flame burns out and my friends are gone.
I wonder if others don't like it cuz they're jealous. Also, I don't push people to talk to me too much. They decide if they want to talk to me.
I don't think you should say some people are better than others.. I used to be considered as prestigious as you could get, in some way, but thanks to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005,) I lost what I had and everyone is listening only to famous people. I was sorta pulled away from singing and music, myself, and now it's like I'm left blind poking around with a stick looking for someone to be agreeable with me. I am the one who posts on a blog, and I'm "available."
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone, but I admit there are some people who are offensive. They're involved in my life being an experiment now and I can't seem to get cool people to like me, anymore, like before.
I wonder if others don't like it cuz they're jealous. Also, I don't push people to talk to me too much. They decide if they want to talk to me.
I don't think you should say some people are better than others.. I used to be considered as prestigious as you could get, in some way, but thanks to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005,) I lost what I had and everyone is listening only to famous people. I was sorta pulled away from singing and music, myself, and now it's like I'm left blind poking around with a stick looking for someone to be agreeable with me. I am the one who posts on a blog, and I'm "available."
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone, but I admit there are some people who are offensive. They're involved in my life being an experiment now and I can't seem to get cool people to like me, anymore, like before.
It's funny
how hatred for me has spread around the world. I think I was already out of the game, so-to-speak.
It's too bad, all this weird stuff because of how possessive people are about things like Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.) People are telling me abnormal stuff and getting mad like I did something.
I look pretty good, for what it's worth. A little fat cuz I don't do much but not that obese. Also on pills I don't need cuz my mom said so. If I don't take them, I cannot live with my family.
It's too bad, all this weird stuff because of how possessive people are about things like Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.) People are telling me abnormal stuff and getting mad like I did something.
I look pretty good, for what it's worth. A little fat cuz I don't do much but not that obese. Also on pills I don't need cuz my mom said so. If I don't take them, I cannot live with my family.
At Disney
there was a nice lady in front of me, kinda cool, thin, kinda manly.. maybe she was Finnish, Space Mountain
Test Track, another lady who seemed Finnish who was obese but not too big, singles line, we were in the same car.
Test Track, another lady who seemed Finnish who was obese but not too big, singles line, we were in the same car.
Saturday, October 10, 2015
Upset
Why do the Irish in America feel so dissed by the English, like Ireland is nothing and all n*****s? A lot of what makes America who we are is the Irish and Germans. I have a prestigious line of German, I think, but who doesn't? I mean, it wasn't as long ago from Ireland and seems like a famous family name. People don't know who they are!
The Very South
The South hangs onto the fact that New Orleans is how it is culturally and with the fog, swamp too, etc., and the beaches of Southeastern Florida and Key West or the Keys
"DQ"
I just had Dairy Queen today, and their chocolate doesn't exactly come from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.
Problem
I don't know what you expect of me if I am on medicine I don't need and people are mean to me all the time.
Did you all ever learn..
..people who didn't do what they were supposed to, like homework and not disrupting at school.., look cuter? Other people are called intellectual or something, "smart." Me saying intellectuals are smart does not magnet me into pointing fingers at real people. It's just a way of saying everyone is worth it, even if they are not "simply a beauty queen." Like, those young girls on TV or in the movies in the early 1990s.. they might have a lotta makeup and fair hair, but other than that I mean it's not like everyone else must be not good enough.
I do understand some people might not be used to doing work as a kid or whenever, a teen or adult. I don't know what it is. You'd believe looking good you'd be pepped for work. If there is a secret of something wrong at school, that could be the excuse someone had it unfairly in things people did. Maybe, people bucked up Late Boomers into not caring about work unless they had to or something.
You know, a lotta Late Boomers seem intellectual as people, like in the movies, but they may not have been good at school or being tutored. They were like cute and smart alec.
Sometimes, you can blame who your parents are as the reason, and sometimes people don't take that. Tho, they don't necessarily care about anything.
I do understand some people might not be used to doing work as a kid or whenever, a teen or adult. I don't know what it is. You'd believe looking good you'd be pepped for work. If there is a secret of something wrong at school, that could be the excuse someone had it unfairly in things people did. Maybe, people bucked up Late Boomers into not caring about work unless they had to or something.
You know, a lotta Late Boomers seem intellectual as people, like in the movies, but they may not have been good at school or being tutored. They were like cute and smart alec.
Sometimes, you can blame who your parents are as the reason, and sometimes people don't take that. Tho, they don't necessarily care about anything.
There May Be Something There That Wasn't There Before
If you had no one born in early Generation X, which is the mid-1960s to the mid-1980s, particularly tho the earlier ones.. you'd have no kids for the rest of us to be jealous of for having such cleaned down slick fathers who are more modern and therefore distribute an overload of kinds of pleasures. That makes their kids get ahead, moreso, if you compare them to late Generation X. It seems Hollywood is at a loss for all the people who made it in Generation Y, as tho they don't exist, too.
Being Beat
Does anyone ever tell you you're nothing during your down time.. and everyone else has energy cuz they were sleeping and everything was supposedly about them when they were awake, in a complimentary fashion?
Misjudgement
I notice people say I'm bad just because they like someone else. Why do they need a foil?
Either/Or
Can you imagine people fighting me about not being good because my hair is either not curly enough or not straight enough, for no apparent reason?
People Pretending to Care Sometimes
Can you imagine to pretend you care by making a face like me and then wanting all I have all for yourself but instead and nothing for me in any way? but for others yes?
Whose Side Is Whose Side
My dad can't keep flipping if he's on my good side or bad side. It's too important.
Who Said What
You have to have my dad to tell you what to do, but I know you also said it, people. You probably also threatened my dad to believe what you think. In the end, you just wanna get at whoever isn't mean to me cuz so many people do it to be safe for whatever reason.
cont.
It's a wonder anyone makes friends unless they were accepted by adults outside of their family as a small child.
Private Lives
People think they have the right to judge me in private or with what my family is like. I always had a good reputation with the public.
cont.
What? Does it make you people feel special to misjudge me for my private life? That I'm not "shy" there?
Waiting to Help Me Out
It's funny people didn't reach me before if they are so mad I was upset supposedly Ellen DeGeneres put hurtful noises in my room.
Instead, they wait and get mad at me for how many times I got upset, usually every day for months. I avoided cursing at her directly other than a few times I blotted out things in a certain way. Who know for sure if I ever slipped from that.
It was something illegal. I end up in the mental hospital and on pills now. (I'm not saying anyone else should.) My mom wants me on them cuz I live at home..
Instead, they wait and get mad at me for how many times I got upset, usually every day for months. I avoided cursing at her directly other than a few times I blotted out things in a certain way. Who know for sure if I ever slipped from that.
It was something illegal. I end up in the mental hospital and on pills now. (I'm not saying anyone else should.) My mom wants me on them cuz I live at home..
Friday, October 9, 2015
Time to Change
If Bella Thorne wants to be like this other look, it would take a lot, as most people can't achieve it. Funny is she had a haistyle cut similarly before. This is a kid, too. Her mom is young, tho, so.
It also would be tricky cuz so much of how she choses to feel for me is extra angry, often, I feel. Ellen DeGeneres sorta wants her to. That's not the way other people are, like me or not.
What Bella Thorne Is Like Sometimes
I like Bella Thorne, but she seems to be a certain way for Ellen DeGeneres to be mean or "annoying" to me. Like, I wanna look like someone, and she can't just keep sacrificing how -she- looks, like, to beat me. She seems to be looking at me in a disciplinary way and upset, expects others to make sure she gets something in this. Some people usually put me down for one reason or another. However, Bella is getting it the opposite. People encourage her to "put it on" against me. She also has this frustrated look. I think since she has been in the business of Hollywood longest, she is like Johnny Depp and expects more. No offense.
Lies
Why do you care?
You're saying I am and always was considered a bad person. I was considered very good until we moved to Orlando or I flunked college. Also, there's no hope for my future.
You're saying I am and always was considered a bad person. I was considered very good until we moved to Orlando or I flunked college. Also, there's no hope for my future.
@bellathorne Well, Bella, I thought of you for your birthday, hope she had a great one! It goes on! 🌹
— Christina Barrett (@ChristinaAnnJB) October 9, 2015The Ellen DeGeneres Show
The 1st guy was really good-looking. He seemed like a page out of the 1800s.
The singer who got a lot of hits on YouTube with the girl there as a surprise he was singing with - that was awesome! I think people should get off their butts and sing on YouTube. I have tried to ask about copyrighting and licensing on YouTube, but they ended up being nonresponsive. I'm not sure if I should take down the videos I have up on the accounts I can still access, but it'd be a laborious, questionable chore. I did submit my singing and said I could sing like Josh Groban and the Phantom, Chris Mann.
Chelsea Clinton! She was brilliant. I loved her straight smooth hair so much. She seems like a very good person and is probably very knowledgeable and is intelligent. She said everyone should have the opportunity to be Ellen or her mom, who is most likely running for President, I think later this year or early next year. Her baby is so beautiful and she had good pictures with her parents. I believe her mom is so admirable because she has Welsh, among other things. I remember when her father was still running. I was 5, and I loved him, as everyone does, because he is so cute, etc. Some people were disrespectful, and I wonder if that's what caused him to say a famous saying about Monica Lewinsky (sp?,) "I did not have *** with that woman." Chelsea also wrote a book, and it sounds really good! Everyone in the audience gets a copy. I loved the gift Ellen had for her, an Elmo wagon to pull for trick-or-treating! Her daughter reads a log, and she apparently watched TV for the 1st time and loves Elmo etc. on Sesame Street. I don't remember those kinds of experiences much.
The singer who got a lot of hits on YouTube with the girl there as a surprise he was singing with - that was awesome! I think people should get off their butts and sing on YouTube. I have tried to ask about copyrighting and licensing on YouTube, but they ended up being nonresponsive. I'm not sure if I should take down the videos I have up on the accounts I can still access, but it'd be a laborious, questionable chore. I did submit my singing and said I could sing like Josh Groban and the Phantom, Chris Mann.
Chelsea Clinton! She was brilliant. I loved her straight smooth hair so much. She seems like a very good person and is probably very knowledgeable and is intelligent. She said everyone should have the opportunity to be Ellen or her mom, who is most likely running for President, I think later this year or early next year. Her baby is so beautiful and she had good pictures with her parents. I believe her mom is so admirable because she has Welsh, among other things. I remember when her father was still running. I was 5, and I loved him, as everyone does, because he is so cute, etc. Some people were disrespectful, and I wonder if that's what caused him to say a famous saying about Monica Lewinsky (sp?,) "I did not have *** with that woman." Chelsea also wrote a book, and it sounds really good! Everyone in the audience gets a copy. I loved the gift Ellen had for her, an Elmo wagon to pull for trick-or-treating! Her daughter reads a log, and she apparently watched TV for the 1st time and loves Elmo etc. on Sesame Street. I don't remember those kinds of experiences much.
Thursday, October 8, 2015
"Looking Good"
Just because someone looks good does not actually mean someone/everyone else must look bad.
Racial Desires
People can be who they want racially, but you can't ruin someone else's, how they want. It gets annoying when people begin to teach you that you have racial flaws, even probably for full blacks who want to learn lots. I just realized it's just as hard for blacks to get by as it is for whites. They just have darker skin and look different ethnically.
White Trash
Do you know/about white people who sit around and exchange laughs on c*** they ended up looking like and ward off some people considering them not white?
Disclaimer: I'm not pointing any fingers nor mean harm to any innocence etc.
Disclaimer: I'm not pointing any fingers nor mean harm to any innocence etc.
Is there a way?
Do you ever find there's some way you wanna be and you didn't do something, but that wouldn't get you were you want, at all?
Money Money Money Money
I spent $150 at Wal-Mart, today. I just got what I needed, like SPF 100 sunblock that lasts all day + a 75. Boots for $25. And I ran outta money. 2 fancy brushes for frizzy hair. You get the picture. Not much extra really. I'm a sad girl.
Next month should not be as much. I'm still paying off TV orders until December. They're all related to getting healthy and losing weight.
Next month should not be as much. I'm still paying off TV orders until December. They're all related to getting healthy and losing weight.
Wednesday, October 7, 2015
Help
Is Ellen DeGeneres.. nah, she's so good I also should not be even thinking about her and that she needs help. Anyway, it's awkward.
Okay
I just said I know what you thought. I said, you think I'm in trouble.
Why do I sound testy to you here?
And, remember, I don't care simply if Ellen DeGeneres wants to/feels suggestive pleasure, if "suggestive" is suggested as something good to like.
Why do I sound testy to you here?
And, remember, I don't care simply if Ellen DeGeneres wants to/feels suggestive pleasure, if "suggestive" is suggested as something good to like.
Small Blog
Mixed Race = Beautiful Girls
This would be a popular suggestion "back in the day," like the 2000s.
I think they are calling any mixed Asian a "Eurasian" or "hapa." "Hapa" is the correct term. Eurasians are considered a type of superrace. It was prestigious around 1990.
link
It says Eurasian:
Looks like me, the best I've seen of Eurasians.
link
Not sure who this is..
half Asian in China and Japan
link
link
must be
link
Wow!
I think this is a full Asian.
"Would you want to look Eurasian? - beauty & fashion"
This would be a popular suggestion "back in the day," like the 2000s.
I think they are calling any mixed Asian a "Eurasian" or "hapa." "Hapa" is the correct term. Eurasians are considered a type of superrace. It was prestigious around 1990.
link
It says Eurasian:
Looks like me, the best I've seen of Eurasians.
link
Not sure who this is..
half Asian in China and Japan
link
link
must be
link
Wow!
I think this is a full Asian.
Let's close this up for the day..
I already said I don't mind if Ellen DeGeneres wants to feel something cuz she was so giving I thought of when I said this. Now, it's like it's suggested people my age are too old to be the age of what age her kids would be, but she kinda thinks people who seem like her kids are cool.
If I don't even care if she feels whatever she feels for herself, why would I be presented as a problem?
I feel like people are telling me I'm doing all these things I'm not/didn't in certain ways. I might just be out with people. They forget how hard it is for me with some people.
I can tell older adults are just mean cuz I know a lot of them are wrong cuz they seem mean to hide insecurities. Like, when I do something I don't know is wrong and someone else does, then they do something wrong back they know. I think we were raised to think whatever, the world raised us that way.
People reserve themselves for certain kinds of people, and I feel they don't see the clock of life ticking for other things to happen to other people.
I notice Tim Burton is more casual than Ellen DeGeneres. I'm more like Ellen DeGeneres in that way but give it to the people, tho I don't say Tim Burton being casual is "better" than Ellen. That sounds dyslexic.
Seems I'm just going thru things and have wrote what I could. I could just sit here and say sorry in different ways, too. I wonder if people like me cuz there's something to criticize.
About Ellen's feelings, I said whatever she wants. I just feel that other people were involved telling me I'm in trouble. I think it was more than Ellen's feelings and doings. She could have been influenced. I mean, she can do whatever she wants, not what I nor others tell her necessarily.
Am I sad? I'm devastated about being cursed. I don't "need" certain things. I don't "deserve" certain things now. I might deserve a shot at life like others procrastinate about. Sad.. just like my record of flawlessness is gone. I used to deserve what I finally don't get.
Did you know they are starting to take away something big from me every time they want to play easy street and say I messed up just to have something to make them look powerful? I don't know if they're mad at something I did in this case. It seems due its cause.
I 1st kinda went crazy when they kicked me out of my college major for being shy or secretly doing bad at something.. or maybe cuz I was in the gym for 1/2 hour, tho I don't know how cuz I didn't see them there. I just felt suggestively hurt. I failed to function in my given environment. They were failures to me. I ended up like this in the end, too, more obese. I can't be young at all in college. I am having a hard time feeling I deserve to be an actress and can't seem to host a show.
I do feel framed and set up for failure. Even what I said yesterday in an emotional crisis was purposely taken the wrong way. Maybe, they don't want me to win and they just go from there but like that just for me. Well, it's over, but life isn't. Sure, I went thru something and could have been nicer. I did freak, like I did when I was dysfunctional over being kicked outta my college major.
It's like I didn't belong anywhere, neither down lo nor up high, suggestive about my intelligence and how I wished to use it. They'd see me a janitor before my college major, no offense to that wonderful position. People here in the end, no offense, see me as okay driving a dump truck. They're delusional. I realize it's okay, but there is a reason that won't happen, probably.
I'm just really sorry if I'm inadequate, but I feel some people are overly picky. Why am I set to say yes I accept that compliment if it's, "Christina you're in trouble." Aren't I supposed to be or possibly later/now get out of thinking about when I was in trouble? Other people are not followed like this to be Mr. or Ms. Perfect. I am taking pills to not feel cute and dainty. They want me not to be "paranoid." The world sure has lost a lot of concerned individuals. I'm not sure what the problem is in a more sane explanation. Don't take this in a bad way cuz that's not what I was thinking. I dunno if I can get any help. I just saw my therapist today. We talked about Disney World for, like, 1/2 hour. She won't talk about these things, I think. She won't believe it.
Why isn't there some thing for me to work on to be a good citizen? I don't belong in prison, literally. I'm staying off the streets.
Well, you must be sick of sorry, I said it once here.
Well.. I do need to figure myself out myself. Hm.. I should think. I cannot change the past but can be sorry for what I did by accident and change the future. Basic things like not cursing in my head are good. Not being mean, etc. I feel I know this stuff, yes. I just forget upset. I feel I'm on overload with this that I need to stop talking about it. Strange. I should do something good for my blog.
Well, okay at that for now as it's time to hit the hay or fall into sleep.
If I don't even care if she feels whatever she feels for herself, why would I be presented as a problem?
I feel like people are telling me I'm doing all these things I'm not/didn't in certain ways. I might just be out with people. They forget how hard it is for me with some people.
I can tell older adults are just mean cuz I know a lot of them are wrong cuz they seem mean to hide insecurities. Like, when I do something I don't know is wrong and someone else does, then they do something wrong back they know. I think we were raised to think whatever, the world raised us that way.
People reserve themselves for certain kinds of people, and I feel they don't see the clock of life ticking for other things to happen to other people.
I notice Tim Burton is more casual than Ellen DeGeneres. I'm more like Ellen DeGeneres in that way but give it to the people, tho I don't say Tim Burton being casual is "better" than Ellen. That sounds dyslexic.
Seems I'm just going thru things and have wrote what I could. I could just sit here and say sorry in different ways, too. I wonder if people like me cuz there's something to criticize.
About Ellen's feelings, I said whatever she wants. I just feel that other people were involved telling me I'm in trouble. I think it was more than Ellen's feelings and doings. She could have been influenced. I mean, she can do whatever she wants, not what I nor others tell her necessarily.
Am I sad? I'm devastated about being cursed. I don't "need" certain things. I don't "deserve" certain things now. I might deserve a shot at life like others procrastinate about. Sad.. just like my record of flawlessness is gone. I used to deserve what I finally don't get.
Did you know they are starting to take away something big from me every time they want to play easy street and say I messed up just to have something to make them look powerful? I don't know if they're mad at something I did in this case. It seems due its cause.
I 1st kinda went crazy when they kicked me out of my college major for being shy or secretly doing bad at something.. or maybe cuz I was in the gym for 1/2 hour, tho I don't know how cuz I didn't see them there. I just felt suggestively hurt. I failed to function in my given environment. They were failures to me. I ended up like this in the end, too, more obese. I can't be young at all in college. I am having a hard time feeling I deserve to be an actress and can't seem to host a show.
I do feel framed and set up for failure. Even what I said yesterday in an emotional crisis was purposely taken the wrong way. Maybe, they don't want me to win and they just go from there but like that just for me. Well, it's over, but life isn't. Sure, I went thru something and could have been nicer. I did freak, like I did when I was dysfunctional over being kicked outta my college major.
It's like I didn't belong anywhere, neither down lo nor up high, suggestive about my intelligence and how I wished to use it. They'd see me a janitor before my college major, no offense to that wonderful position. People here in the end, no offense, see me as okay driving a dump truck. They're delusional. I realize it's okay, but there is a reason that won't happen, probably.
I'm just really sorry if I'm inadequate, but I feel some people are overly picky. Why am I set to say yes I accept that compliment if it's, "Christina you're in trouble." Aren't I supposed to be or possibly later/now get out of thinking about when I was in trouble? Other people are not followed like this to be Mr. or Ms. Perfect. I am taking pills to not feel cute and dainty. They want me not to be "paranoid." The world sure has lost a lot of concerned individuals. I'm not sure what the problem is in a more sane explanation. Don't take this in a bad way cuz that's not what I was thinking. I dunno if I can get any help. I just saw my therapist today. We talked about Disney World for, like, 1/2 hour. She won't talk about these things, I think. She won't believe it.
Why isn't there some thing for me to work on to be a good citizen? I don't belong in prison, literally. I'm staying off the streets.
Well, you must be sick of sorry, I said it once here.
Well.. I do need to figure myself out myself. Hm.. I should think. I cannot change the past but can be sorry for what I did by accident and change the future. Basic things like not cursing in my head are good. Not being mean, etc. I feel I know this stuff, yes. I just forget upset. I feel I'm on overload with this that I need to stop talking about it. Strange. I should do something good for my blog.
Well, okay at that for now as it's time to hit the hay or fall into sleep.
Females of the Day
I see women look me down like I don't have the stuff cuz I wasn't alive in the day. They accept my mom right away, like being alive is doing someone a favor. I am good and fit their description of it, but I must keep these things a secret. There seems to be the love for girls with dads born around the late 1950s. You were lucky to be alive before and are older now. I wonder what these females feel like. Is it their fault if it's ruin? Ruin for all but those born in the late 1990s and after. A way to say it for the kids today, group people who possibly got somethin' in their group.
Ellen DeGeneres in General
I didn't mean she could not feel any suggestive pleasure. I just mean this one proves inappropriate, that Ellen DeGeneres "is not God." I don't mean to suggest that question, but I mean something important if you'll not be the word monster.
What strikes a chord in me is it has to do with when people all make me mad, which = there is no one to turn to and the world knows I'm trapped with people harming me, by tapping into me and me physically like a voodoo doll.
Yes, I can tell myself I am good, God loves me, and a little thing overall does not matter. I know people don't approve of what Ellen DeGeneres did, step down from her title in a certain way. It's sad to see us fighting like this. Why isn't it, "I had to feel something inappropriate, but I know it's just 1 of many little things. You're not in trouble. It will/won't happen to you, too."
What strikes a chord in me is it has to do with when people all make me mad, which = there is no one to turn to and the world knows I'm trapped with people harming me, by tapping into me and me physically like a voodoo doll.
Yes, I can tell myself I am good, God loves me, and a little thing overall does not matter. I know people don't approve of what Ellen DeGeneres did, step down from her title in a certain way. It's sad to see us fighting like this. Why isn't it, "I had to feel something inappropriate, but I know it's just 1 of many little things. You're not in trouble. It will/won't happen to you, too."
Trying to Stay Positive and More Down-to-Earth/Normal
Well, I got one message from Ellen DeGeneres that says she knows what I really do.
I don't know what's wrong, maybe I wrote too little. I don't have any Ellen DeGeneres fans to turn to nor can trust to know something I need to know that I don't. My old friends decided I was worse than them now/at some point.
I don't know what's wrong, maybe I wrote too little. I don't have any Ellen DeGeneres fans to turn to nor can trust to know something I need to know that I don't. My old friends decided I was worse than them now/at some point.
For Ellen
What is for Ellen? My soul being sucked out because lazy older males want an easy way of feeling like they're grown up or independent? Something she has to muse at when she posts on Twitter?
A Little 1-Way Conversation, for Tonight
Let's have a conversation.
I think Ellen's mom raised her very nicely. I think she openly cares immensely about her daughter.
I'm interested in how they have a lightening bolt with "Moments" sketched at the top of Twitter. It has little newsies. Maybe, I seem jealous in some facet. No.. It reminds me of Ellen and things to do with me being in trouble.
Why does it feel like it's making Ellen more withdrawn? Is she famous for the world to be there for her or for her to be there for the world? In what ways is it each? I mean, who stumbles and falls? Or needs a "helping" hand, celebrities or fans? And then there's the rest of the world, the "real" world, that thinks i't psychic and self-sufficient who aren't crazy fans of anything nor anyone.
I think Ellen's mom raised her very nicely. I think she openly cares immensely about her daughter.
I'm interested in how they have a lightening bolt with "Moments" sketched at the top of Twitter. It has little newsies. Maybe, I seem jealous in some facet. No.. It reminds me of Ellen and things to do with me being in trouble.
Why does it feel like it's making Ellen more withdrawn? Is she famous for the world to be there for her or for her to be there for the world? In what ways is it each? I mean, who stumbles and falls? Or needs a "helping" hand, celebrities or fans? And then there's the rest of the world, the "real" world, that thinks i't psychic and self-sufficient who aren't crazy fans of anything nor anyone.
@bellathorne I feel like Ellen DeGeneres cuz she wishes famous people happy birthdays. I stopped and dropped a Happy B-Day! 🌺— Christina Barrett (@ChristinaAnnJB) October 8, 2015
Possible Facts
I believe it was done but that you shouldn't worry about it, like worrying too much.
It was something about being mad to be sad. There's no offense to you, unless you worry about me.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
I guess someone found and supposedly needed another home.
The supposed "inappropriateness" is like the weather.
You should feel a surge/rush of happiness for the sadness not being for some of you.
"Anything's possible." Tho, some things are to never come back.
If you need someone there for you, tho, I don't know why there would be a problem in this case.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
It was something about being mad to be sad. There's no offense to you, unless you worry about me.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
I guess someone found and supposedly needed another home.
The supposed "inappropriateness" is like the weather.
You should feel a surge/rush of happiness for the sadness not being for some of you.
"Anything's possible." Tho, some things are to never come back.
If you need someone there for you, tho, I don't know why there would be a problem in this case.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
Opinions and Concerns
You can be forward with me in your opinion, but.. I forget exactly.. but anyway I find people with all different kinds of opinions on little things..
I feel that I've been taken out of the game of emotions in life. I thought at 1st it has to hurt, but I guess I find other ways of sustenance.
I might have concerns for people who don't have to be concerned about themselves. That's a way of supporting others to give them a feeling of stimulation. Like, some people might be concerned about me, but I may be concerned about others.
Sometimes, I feel all that was just said is to let go, but I let go that things matter that didn't. I still talk about facts/figures and feelings, friendliness and ferocity-no offense to any people.
Did anyone read this and think, "Boy, Christina 'needs help.'" Of course, I mean the joke people always say when they say this meaning mental help, like a psychiatrist and therapist, which both I already have. I don't know why someone would say this. I'd think they'd need help for saying this without any possible explanation.
I feel that I've been taken out of the game of emotions in life. I thought at 1st it has to hurt, but I guess I find other ways of sustenance.
I might have concerns for people who don't have to be concerned about themselves. That's a way of supporting others to give them a feeling of stimulation. Like, some people might be concerned about me, but I may be concerned about others.
Sometimes, I feel all that was just said is to let go, but I let go that things matter that didn't. I still talk about facts/figures and feelings, friendliness and ferocity-no offense to any people.
Did anyone read this and think, "Boy, Christina 'needs help.'" Of course, I mean the joke people always say when they say this meaning mental help, like a psychiatrist and therapist, which both I already have. I don't know why someone would say this. I'd think they'd need help for saying this without any possible explanation.
Have you heard of this-
-my next problem.. It should be something I just wrote down because I see that's my level of problem now?
"'Words can hurt..'"
..Did you get the part where I'm worthless regardless of the things I did wrong or because I've done something wrong before?
Aha ha ha!
I grew up in bad person city!
Aha ha ha!
I grew up in bad person city!
Ghost #2: Talking About Negative Things
Should we be like some people who live in California and just proceed to smile at everything, with the only problem being if someone could die or be physically or mentally, not emotionally, harmed?
E! News
Taylor Swift's fans are turning on her. She seems like an assertive person to talk to, which isn't bad in and of itself to most people. She got to sing with Ellen, at least.
Tuesday, October 6, 2015
Being Bad
My dad wants me to be bad to make others look good, yet thinks I've been too bad. To be "bad" in an uncool way. He didn't used to. It's like I did something to deserve this.
Small Blog
Frozen - Impact on Society
link
"Stores, Targets, Disney stores down in Disney all sell out of Frozen characters, stuffed animals, clothing, toys, etc"
Yup, imagine what it's like in NYC. It's amazing some people like Anna. They probably don't care as much.
link
"Stores, Targets, Disney stores down in Disney all sell out of Frozen characters, stuffed animals, clothing, toys, etc"
Yup, imagine what it's like in NYC. It's amazing some people like Anna. They probably don't care as much.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
The 1st lady was really sweet, Kate Blanchett, from Australia. She had a nice accent and looked sweet.
The boy from New Girl, which stars Zoey Deschanel, was a lotta fun. I hope he had a good experience.
The little boy, who is black, who was on in 2009 who is still a kid was so sweet! I can't believe the audience seemed to laugh at him, just to get it out right, like for being black on Ellen and being open and friendly in a good way. He danced, too, like a disjointed dance. He brought such spirit to the room. People treated him the worst for what it's worth, if you think about it a certain way.
Ellen rocked Andy's almost newborn baby, and he was so cute, responded to her some. He uttered little sounds of being confused, I take it the unnaturalness that exists in LA. Very cute! I was impressed.
The boy from New Girl, which stars Zoey Deschanel, was a lotta fun. I hope he had a good experience.
The little boy, who is black, who was on in 2009 who is still a kid was so sweet! I can't believe the audience seemed to laugh at him, just to get it out right, like for being black on Ellen and being open and friendly in a good way. He danced, too, like a disjointed dance. He brought such spirit to the room. People treated him the worst for what it's worth, if you think about it a certain way.
Ellen rocked Andy's almost newborn baby, and he was so cute, responded to her some. He uttered little sounds of being confused, I take it the unnaturalness that exists in LA. Very cute! I was impressed.
Now, wah.. (Now, why..)
Why would Ellen DeGeneres see something sinfully pleasurable and say it's for her, like that's what's popular etc.?
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