I don't understand the pressure on me when I am a normal person.
It's like all these people know about my lame life in private, but I can't freely wonder about people without being told off by the people experimenting on me and those involved.
People act like no one was ever mean to me in some ways, too, and, like, they can keep tabs on my behavior like it doesn't matter if so many people are mean to me and I'm an adult and mean no harm, unlike others.