It looks like you're seeking just to destroy my most special, earned and in some form generally needed types of relationships and give them all to other people who aren't a big part of my life but some of whom could have been. They are people like Bella Thorne, my younger girl cousin who is the daughter of my dad's youngest sibling and sister, who I hardly see and who doesn't talk to me much, and old best friends who made me look like I was the bad guy unsuccessfully.