Tuesday, May 31, 2016
Ellen DeGeneres
She is mad at me in ways that don't make sense. I was testing her validity and truthfulness.
I just had to post about this.
I found 2 people I liked in Europe, both female and older. One was not as much older than the other, both could be my mom. Because of Ellen DeGeneres, everyone has Bella Thorne as the hot potato to steal me getting attention the right way. The younger person was like, "Oh, no, you did not just do that!" All I said was Bella Thorne was more supported in her relationship than me, like the people around who know. Now, the other person from Europe has to do everything the 1st person did to "stay cool." Well, Bella Thorne is still here stealing my esteem and pleasure I earned in life. Ellen DeGeneres is waiting to fight me. I know she has tricks and gets more of what she wants in ways.
Also, I'm on ignore to a degree when I come home by someone who lives here, also old enough to be my parent. Apparently, people were scared I thought I was something. They made everyone be as nasty to me as possible like that's okay. Well, no, it turned into a trick even more.
Also, I'm on ignore to a degree when I come home by someone who lives here, also old enough to be my parent. Apparently, people were scared I thought I was something. They made everyone be as nasty to me as possible like that's okay. Well, no, it turned into a trick even more.
Twitter / New Audio of Me Singing
@TheLauraBretan Here is my audition + Nessun Dorma like Laura!..https://t.co/a9y1PAhoca— Christina Barrett (@Chris1986USA) June 1, 2016
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"Concert Classique - FREIBURGER BAROCKORCHESTER - FESTIVAL D https://t.co/i7lM2JsTog via @parisiensortie" Simply best - Bach + Handel. 💒 💧— Christina Barrett (@Chris1986USA) May 26, 2016
Certain Floridians are Formulated
They are casual people but eye me with a stern look if I indicate some joke about being moved along regarding "work."
Ya'll (Not Indicating Names)
If you don't have it, don't worry, you don't get that certain prize, anyway.
Open the Floodgates to Heaven! Ehehe!
I see other people getting something I could have been happy with. What's wrong now? I'm drained and unimpressive? I get things, and some things get taken away, too. It's funny what people get. I know cuz I was considered worthy as a person to try. Hell, Orlando!
Sad to say, but for me it's..
..summer break!
In the fall and spring, I plan to be in the orchestra at Rollins College, which ranked #1 in the South as a college. I don't have to pay nor enroll.
In the fall and spring, I plan to be in the orchestra at Rollins College, which ranked #1 in the South as a college. I don't have to pay nor enroll.
Well, it's official. I'm allowed to be in the Rollins College (was ranked #1 in the South) of Central Florida orchestra. I don't have to pay anything to be in it.
I also bought Rosetta Stone online access in German levels 1-5 for $180 as opposed to $500, on sale Memorial Day. It's on sale at BN as a CD it so happens until like June 10th. I am getting a new Windows laptop so I can do Rosetta Stone on it and access iTunes, etc. I already own a working Google Chromebook, which has worked very well. My old Windows tablet laptop touch screen slowed down, tho, or something like that.
The best experience I had I know in music was my college Loyola University New Orleans's University Band. I played bells, as I had in 12th grade. As a pianist, I don't get around as easily, but I have accompanied and played with others for awhile. I've kept up my music skills by going back to singing after wanting to be an movie actress/model. I did Broadway singing on my own. I've wanted to be a singer since age 5. I wanted to play flute when I was about 6 or 7. I wanted to play piano just for fun. My parents/dad got me in lessons at age 9 1/2. I started choir at age 8 mostly until college for church. I got to take organ when I was 16. It was hard with school. I should have known to focus on my career rather than just random subjects if it was too much for me. I wish I chose a major instrument after my 1st semester, but I guess I did not know. The added history intro course in music requiring library visits was too much, tho I got an A easily. I actually did not memorize my major instrument jury, piano, because of that class. I was taking 3 private lessons instruments, like the 1st semester. I know a lotta people do actually take 2 private instruments. All the theory teachers were organists, but the college added organ special. I don't know how much money I can make as a violinist. I've been encouraged it will happen someday, several years ballpark. I think this orchestra will really help. It happens in the fall and spring, I think. I think most people who do music have some outlet of performing. I tried to make singing CDs and perform and tour, but no luck. I could learn some folk songs on the piano and sing and sell it, tho.
I also bought Rosetta Stone online access in German levels 1-5 for $180 as opposed to $500, on sale Memorial Day. It's on sale at BN as a CD it so happens until like June 10th. I am getting a new Windows laptop so I can do Rosetta Stone on it and access iTunes, etc. I already own a working Google Chromebook, which has worked very well. My old Windows tablet laptop touch screen slowed down, tho, or something like that.
The best experience I had I know in music was my college Loyola University New Orleans's University Band. I played bells, as I had in 12th grade. As a pianist, I don't get around as easily, but I have accompanied and played with others for awhile. I've kept up my music skills by going back to singing after wanting to be an movie actress/model. I did Broadway singing on my own. I've wanted to be a singer since age 5. I wanted to play flute when I was about 6 or 7. I wanted to play piano just for fun. My parents/dad got me in lessons at age 9 1/2. I started choir at age 8 mostly until college for church. I got to take organ when I was 16. It was hard with school. I should have known to focus on my career rather than just random subjects if it was too much for me. I wish I chose a major instrument after my 1st semester, but I guess I did not know. The added history intro course in music requiring library visits was too much, tho I got an A easily. I actually did not memorize my major instrument jury, piano, because of that class. I was taking 3 private lessons instruments, like the 1st semester. I know a lotta people do actually take 2 private instruments. All the theory teachers were organists, but the college added organ special. I don't know how much money I can make as a violinist. I've been encouraged it will happen someday, several years ballpark. I think this orchestra will really help. It happens in the fall and spring, I think. I think most people who do music have some outlet of performing. I tried to make singing CDs and perform and tour, but no luck. I could learn some folk songs on the piano and sing and sell it, tho.
Monday, May 30, 2016
Sunday, May 29, 2016
The *Predecessors to Us Millenials
Generation X. Their little act or game is that they are nervous but nervous to be as cool as Late Boomers. Their hormones are them thinking this and that don't matter. Then, the blame is fed to us younger generations. If something is marked off from being important, it's the existence of Generation XY. The *predecessors live. They live being *"a nervous wreck." It's always about being someone other than Generation XY. The joke is on us. When does that stop being the answer people give? Obviously, I was right that wasn't right.
*predecessor - a thing that has been followed or replaced by another (link)
*nervous wreck - a person suffering from stress or emotional exhaustion (link)
*predecessor - a thing that has been followed or replaced by another (link)
*nervous wreck - a person suffering from stress or emotional exhaustion (link)
Saturday, May 28, 2016
Alice Thru the Looking Glass (2016)
Great Teamwork
The characters; that's what brings this movie along and how it can be sized down.
Helena Bonham Carter as the Red Queen really sold it. She is so proper and quirky and it's very attractive. She is definitely someone you'd want to talk to.
I liked Anne Hathaway as the White Queen a lot, as well, more than ever before, even. They go well together, some people I like a lot: Anne Hathaway, Helena Bonham Carter, Julia Roberts, Meryl Streep, Jennifer Lawrence..
Johnny Depp was the reason for the season, definitely worth trying to catch.
Mia Wasikowska, the sweet Polish girl from Australia held the whole movie together all the time with her positive attitude!
Sacha Baron Cohen was a good main actor. He seems very good as a person. He is smart and an entertaining actor.
The supporting actors did a very good job, as well. I liked seeing the queens young because it was so cute and with their mother. The English are really nice in this and so is Mia Wasikowska.
I think they put a great deal of positive work into this and were successful as a sequel to the 1st movie. The art in this was fantastic and mesmerizing. It's a good sign and very uplifting! Morally, this movie touched on a lot of things, I felt. It shows actors meditating on kindness and not worrying too much about bad things.
Hi, I'm 30! Some advice for what is hot currently is that you should know what you want to do before you start hi school, I feel, as a musician. I even feel you need to know even before that. Also know that where I went to hi school you can graduate early if you took some courses in junior hi. Most of us didn't, and I actually switched hi schools and took English V, didn't meet some easy core requirements yet to graduate early. I focused too much on pushing myself academically and didn't know I was headed to be a musician cuz growing up is actually a scary thought I'd imagine.
Party Crasher
It seems like the most ticklish joke significantly for some people involved experimenting with me to support Ellen DeGeneres ..when she was the one hurting me telling people spying/experimenting on me to put hurtful, illegal messages in my room via and ticks in my room and how the computer loads! I did curse about it but not at her mainly I think, tho I did at my dad just in case I did at her to prevent it cuz I was in danger of it, tho I did not curse anyone out, like in a hurtful way, just defensive ways. It's funny, I was just a girl born in 1986 who used to get a lot of respect for doing what I was supposed to in school and not being mean to others who had a hard time. Now, I'm being told I am things like "nothing."
Disclaimer: I am not trying to point out nor offend anyone. It's just the way things speak to me in general.
Disclaimer: I am not trying to point out nor offend anyone. It's just the way things speak to me in general.
Prejudices
I know Late Boomers correct children born around 1998, but that's just because they care about them. People mistake it for being something bad, and then they think, "Oh well, at least they aren't being treated too much better than I am treated." The truth is they aren't doing anything bad to them, in this light. They get the added bonus of feeling loved by both Late and Early Boomers and their grandparents. People like me from Generation XY do not feel this. We're always in trouble for no good reason.
I think one of different reasons words like "trash" come up in the vocabulary of the head of a home of Baby Boomers is because of things like people in other countries, primarily in Europe, saying we aren't all that to others because we're too American or something, tho it's in good ways as far as we seem to know. I've encountered innate hostility in trying to connect with people from racially *seclusive ethnicities. They can't make up their minds if they care I am 1/2 Asian or not. Their confidence slips right thru their fingers. The "children," or young people my generation, become somewhat innately explosive and decisive of what they decide to react by. They act like it's really hard and sacrificial, but we don't ask much in these cases of conversing. Europeans in Europe think these things aren't interesting, but that's because they're from Europe and it doesn't matter to them. The English are clear they want to be friends with bad people.. The Germanic side of Europe is very self-worshiping and the one that is more *seclusive. They probably don't mind taking to someone who is all white, who is born around 1998, or who is from Europe.
What I have to offer is that my mom has strong Dutch heritage from Indonesia for 600-700 years maybe. She is racially Chinese/Asian. My dad has a lot of Germanic Anglo-Irish. He is also German, French, and Dutch and possibly Swiss Pennsylvania Dutch and Anglo-Saxon. Our last name is Norwegian-French-Welsh-Irish. His dad is more like a city family and his mom is from a farming family. He also does have real Irish, but I don't know how much, only know of 1 name like that, Donahue. If a name is very Irish, I would guess this one partly in a certain way "takes the cake," so-to-speak. I am guessing it has a forte maybe of being hard-working in some way or very disciplined socially. My nearest relative from Europe is the Donahue family in at least 1865. It's a great great grandfather. The most American is a 4x great grandfather in 1799 at least from the Work family. If I had to identify as having strong Anglo or Germanic roots as a person, I'd say Germanic. I guess you could also classify as being Norse/Nordic. I don't know why, but I don't feel very Irish nor English.
*seclusive - affecting seclusion (link)
I think one of different reasons words like "trash" come up in the vocabulary of the head of a home of Baby Boomers is because of things like people in other countries, primarily in Europe, saying we aren't all that to others because we're too American or something, tho it's in good ways as far as we seem to know. I've encountered innate hostility in trying to connect with people from racially *seclusive ethnicities. They can't make up their minds if they care I am 1/2 Asian or not. Their confidence slips right thru their fingers. The "children," or young people my generation, become somewhat innately explosive and decisive of what they decide to react by. They act like it's really hard and sacrificial, but we don't ask much in these cases of conversing. Europeans in Europe think these things aren't interesting, but that's because they're from Europe and it doesn't matter to them. The English are clear they want to be friends with bad people.. The Germanic side of Europe is very self-worshiping and the one that is more *seclusive. They probably don't mind taking to someone who is all white, who is born around 1998, or who is from Europe.
What I have to offer is that my mom has strong Dutch heritage from Indonesia for 600-700 years maybe. She is racially Chinese/Asian. My dad has a lot of Germanic Anglo-Irish. He is also German, French, and Dutch and possibly Swiss Pennsylvania Dutch and Anglo-Saxon. Our last name is Norwegian-French-Welsh-Irish. His dad is more like a city family and his mom is from a farming family. He also does have real Irish, but I don't know how much, only know of 1 name like that, Donahue. If a name is very Irish, I would guess this one partly in a certain way "takes the cake," so-to-speak. I am guessing it has a forte maybe of being hard-working in some way or very disciplined socially. My nearest relative from Europe is the Donahue family in at least 1865. It's a great great grandfather. The most American is a 4x great grandfather in 1799 at least from the Work family. If I had to identify as having strong Anglo or Germanic roots as a person, I'd say Germanic. I guess you could also classify as being Norse/Nordic. I don't know why, but I don't feel very Irish nor English.
*seclusive - affecting seclusion (link)
Friday, May 27, 2016
Social Networking
I support myself and my own interests as a person, as that's what people have to do. I see that people think that some people should not do anything with others and just can be connected to the cyberworld without many people there. So many popular people of different ages avoid the internet because they have things going for them. I simply forgot or was too busy to figure out what the internet was for, sick of in some ways resorting only to pathetic e-mail and surfing the web some. I'm here every day, like some people are at martial arts, the gym, dance, etc. There's a lotta people with computer access who don't seem to do anything with it that involves being available to talk. I saw some people like flip the world off with suggestive reasons, like to make people beg for their attention and suffer not getting much from anyone. I know how quickly messages can go by on the internet, if only put in the proper form and place. It's like they worship the idea but never use it and no one ever seems to get anywhere just waiting for them.
Chain Reaction
I think because I had a friend with a prominent mole, I got a small one under my eye after talking about something weird that happened to me to do with eyes. I think it was rubbed in. I just saw a girl on TV with a small-medium mole near the side of her eye. It reminded me of me. If it is of your interest, she also has frizzy medium brown hair, blue eyes, and a darker look with her eyebrows for instance. It's "A Haunting" - "Nightmare in the Attic" - 2014. Also, I got myself one when I had started watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show. Other things have happened, too, something important that had happened similarly before watching. The girl on TV is probably born around 1998 with Late Boom parents.
Being a Mother in Personality
It is sweet when someone attempts to reach out to you. It seems people only want to think Baby Boomers have kids born in 1998. However, even older people only see me as being like a sister who someone else has command over who is even older.
I wonder if I can even act like a mother because of all those older people acting immature. It wouldn't make sense to anyone. Too bad that is one of my dreams.
I wonder if I can even act like a mother because of all those older people acting immature. It wouldn't make sense to anyone. Too bad that is one of my dreams.
Not Much of a Texter
You'd imagine people'd be up on Twitter, but the posts disappear all too quickly. I guess I got what I asked for in a blog. Not to mention accessing things on Facebook in mass.
Recognized Appropriate Behavior
I was a good kid. I listened to adults. I had recognized appropriate behavior and at school usually free from marks.
Most of my relatives with kids used to always reprimand them like all the time. I think it's affected my sense of identity and helped totally change and ruin it.
My dad seems to always feel there is something wrong with me, like under it all, and tries to treat me like my relatives, too.
Most of my relatives with kids used to always reprimand them like all the time. I think it's affected my sense of identity and helped totally change and ruin it.
My dad seems to always feel there is something wrong with me, like under it all, and tries to treat me like my relatives, too.
Social Networking
Some people seem to say that's what Hollywood is for.
I'm starting more and more to see it as acting.
I think shows should develop that invite normal, especially attractive people to come on and talk for fun and play games and do other creative ideas. Hopefully, this would happen sooner. People born around 2000 are almost gone in college. When I was in college, George Bush always prayed that we'd "come home" and no one knows what that means.
They would probably make cool websites, too. I remember "coming home" sometimes and looking up the website for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) and finding out about Tim Burton being so cool. Actually, I looked up the movie before when it came out, too. A suggestion for public social companies is not to use too many social platforms as it is too much work. Also, social platforms today do not have all options of mass media as they could, like mass distribution and hi tech organization and design etc. May as well pay to get your own site and blog designed.
I'm starting more and more to see it as acting.
I think shows should develop that invite normal, especially attractive people to come on and talk for fun and play games and do other creative ideas. Hopefully, this would happen sooner. People born around 2000 are almost gone in college. When I was in college, George Bush always prayed that we'd "come home" and no one knows what that means.
They would probably make cool websites, too. I remember "coming home" sometimes and looking up the website for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) and finding out about Tim Burton being so cool. Actually, I looked up the movie before when it came out, too. A suggestion for public social companies is not to use too many social platforms as it is too much work. Also, social platforms today do not have all options of mass media as they could, like mass distribution and hi tech organization and design etc. May as well pay to get your own site and blog designed.
Topic of Urgency - Shooting for the Goal Like a BB!
I find myself over and over getting into trouble socially with others I see concerning my age seeming too old to be the child of a Late Boomer.
My dad is born in July 1950. My mom's age is a secret.
I get beat by people a lot who are born in the late 1950s or early 1960s now, tho I used to get on well.
Some people with parents of that age or the parents act like I'm "not one of them." Many are very nice, tho..
It is hard that my dad is obviously older than my mom because my mom is supported in sin against my mattering to myself.
I run into people of my generation and and above and I feel so bad and they seem so mad because their parents may be more my grandma's time. I think it's a good thing in reality, but still, look at the world.
So, the big thing is I justify it in utmost morality saying, "Why should kids with parents born in the late 1950s and early 1960s and themselves born around 1998 get any special love but not others successfully?"
Okay, okay, I care about younger people being happy, but I was actually happy without them, too, not like I need them to be happy, not that anyone thinks that in general that I know of.
Isn't this a fun topic? It should be solved for Generation X, like today!
My dad is born in July 1950. My mom's age is a secret.
I get beat by people a lot who are born in the late 1950s or early 1960s now, tho I used to get on well.
Some people with parents of that age or the parents act like I'm "not one of them." Many are very nice, tho..
It is hard that my dad is obviously older than my mom because my mom is supported in sin against my mattering to myself.
I run into people of my generation and and above and I feel so bad and they seem so mad because their parents may be more my grandma's time. I think it's a good thing in reality, but still, look at the world.
So, the big thing is I justify it in utmost morality saying, "Why should kids with parents born in the late 1950s and early 1960s and themselves born around 1998 get any special love but not others successfully?"
Okay, okay, I care about younger people being happy, but I was actually happy without them, too, not like I need them to be happy, not that anyone thinks that in general that I know of.
Isn't this a fun topic? It should be solved for Generation X, like today!
Thursday, May 26, 2016
A Trick on the Violin
If you wanna sound good soft, contrast it with adjacent loud parts.
..and sometimes make it more musical then.
..and sometimes make it more musical then.
Classical Music - "Simply the Best"
Bach + Handel are born the same year and a favorite of mine, "hand in hand."
I think their method of being popular is similar to pop music, simply, like, "I smell sex and candy." There are simple ways to sound cute in basic ways, like in pop music to slide the note. You know, I'm from Slidell, partly.
I think their method of being popular is similar to pop music, simply, like, "I smell sex and candy." There are simple ways to sound cute in basic ways, like in pop music to slide the note. You know, I'm from Slidell, partly.
Learning Music vs. Singing
I took String Class for a year in college 3 days a week for about 45 or 50 minutes, I think. I had a trust that it would be okay. I was kinda nervous about the difficulty I anticipated about finding the notes, some. I have a hard time now on my own after 11 years of not touching a violin. I took violin my 1st semester because I had to. I stuck with it cuz I was already on it. I wanted to play viola at times.
I was in choir for 3 years in school and later just at church. I feel that compared to a string player as a singer that I am not as reliable because conducting singers in a choir, we all have different voices, but with string instruments there are only 4 kinds of instruments or "bodies," if you will.
I was in choir for 3 years in school and later just at church. I feel that compared to a string player as a singer that I am not as reliable because conducting singers in a choir, we all have different voices, but with string instruments there are only 4 kinds of instruments or "bodies," if you will.
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
A Musical Experience
I went to an event at Rollins College performed by 2 members of the Bach Festival Society. The conductor there said I could join the orchestra at Rollins College in the fall! I told him I only knew 3 keys. I don't even have to be an enrolled student to join, which I am not.
The event was a performance by 2 violinists who are married, a Chilean man and a Latvian woman. We had tea and scones with chocolate chips or berries. I had iced chai tea.
I talked to the violinist man after and he said 4 or 5 years I can be a good violinist.
I take violin lessons and learn things on my own, too. It's been like a month so far and "so far so good."
The event was a performance by 2 violinists who are married, a Chilean man and a Latvian woman. We had tea and scones with chocolate chips or berries. I had iced chai tea.
I talked to the violinist man after and he said 4 or 5 years I can be a good violinist.
I take violin lessons and learn things on my own, too. It's been like a month so far and "so far so good."
Depressed
I said bye to someone as far as wiring in saying they have to be mean to me goes, but they still made my life miserable and took another step in removing the person from my real life. I didn't mean bye for sure. I didn't write it. I was under pressure too much that I'd lose it anyway, but apparently they believe that I won't.
I just want to feel that my life is in order so I can rest and do things I need to do, like laundry and hopefully schooling..again! Even just laying down to rest or leaving my room. I just feel all I've sacrificed gone to waste. I stopped watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show, maybe not good for me and so I could focus on not getting on the bad side of anything. I mean, my case is pretty legit. I don't go off and get a Disney pass right now so I can be more holistic and buy things I need and pay for violin.
I found someone I look up to, as anyone, gave my parents an agenda on how to be mean to me, bargaining with me with a possible lie that I will never escape this kind of life. Look, my intimidating mom is just waiting around the corner, too.
My parents are supposed to be sending me off to other people! This was not about me getting closer and closer to my family but to others I like a lot. Ever since I was in more trouble for no reason, they made their presence overly clear.
You know, I can't figure this out. I just wanted to feel at peace. Instead, I'm here doing this.
If I move away for college, I'll have General Studies courses to distract me.
I just want to feel that my life is in order so I can rest and do things I need to do, like laundry and hopefully schooling..again! Even just laying down to rest or leaving my room. I just feel all I've sacrificed gone to waste. I stopped watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show, maybe not good for me and so I could focus on not getting on the bad side of anything. I mean, my case is pretty legit. I don't go off and get a Disney pass right now so I can be more holistic and buy things I need and pay for violin.
I found someone I look up to, as anyone, gave my parents an agenda on how to be mean to me, bargaining with me with a possible lie that I will never escape this kind of life. Look, my intimidating mom is just waiting around the corner, too.
My parents are supposed to be sending me off to other people! This was not about me getting closer and closer to my family but to others I like a lot. Ever since I was in more trouble for no reason, they made their presence overly clear.
You know, I can't figure this out. I just wanted to feel at peace. Instead, I'm here doing this.
If I move away for college, I'll have General Studies courses to distract me.
Tuesday, May 24, 2016
I'm the one who made it.
My parents may have trashed me as a baby, but I'm a person as much as anyone.
Monday, May 23, 2016
Central Florida Garbage
I'm not garbage to Central Florida, they are garbage to me.
I feel like garbage to the world cuza them.
I feel like garbage to the world cuza them.
What's funny?
I programmed myself that, like, no matter what happened on this here earth, I would not be mean to a certain someone I had a shot at a clean record with. Instead, I didn't win some inner fight and now this person is supposedly/seemingly being acutely hurtful to me thru others, constantly actually, but also doing something bad big if I feel upset on the inside. This is not good for anyone.
"What's with all the hate?"
I'm not a bad, disgusting person!
Am I so acutely targeted off?
What if we did this to you? Do you think I was the one who ruined my life??
Am I so acutely targeted off?
What if we did this to you? Do you think I was the one who ruined my life??
Like, What!
Is something seriously getting in the way in my life? People who like me have been stifled.
YouTube Comment
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It would be fun to accompany. I pretty much know the whole musical. I listened to the CD while I did homework in junior hi, too. I know one comment asked about the "score." I guess opera is more like a refined version of regular music like musical theater. I just don't understand why they never sing in a speaking range because that probably makes music like musical theater and church music what it is.
It would be fun to accompany. I pretty much know the whole musical. I listened to the CD while I did homework in junior hi, too. I know one comment asked about the "score." I guess opera is more like a refined version of regular music like musical theater. I just don't understand why they never sing in a speaking range because that probably makes music like musical theater and church music what it is.
Modalities in Music
Children learn in different ways, like kinesthetic (doing,) visual, auditory, and tactual (building ideas/things maybe..)
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Opportunity
I just e-mailed the church to ask if I could play violin.
I played a year in a group class in college 3 days a week. I have been taking lessons for about a month. College was 11 years ago.
I played a year in a group class in college 3 days a week. I have been taking lessons for about a month. College was 11 years ago.
My Supposed Place
I'm pretty sure I was ambushed from the womb that I was to be a certain somebody because my dad is the oldest and has 2 cute younger sisters.
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
"Getting Down"
Maybe, I will listen to adults, but I'm not someone who's badder than the rest all of a sudden. I find I have rules by people experimenting and spying on me and manipulating my life and people in it that no one else does.
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Well
I wonder about people thinking they admire me and look up to me but by finding out what I like and saying they want every one of those things for themselves but not for me too.. not for me too? What about the saying that there's "nothing in it" to relate to me like a normal person but to take advantage of me because I don't want to sin and be mean to them. Jesus Christ? I'm sorry, but this is creating problems and not just involving myself, if that matters to you even.. You gotta try, try, try. It's work.
Nah, Nah (Now, Now)
I was in Ohio and NY and I heard voices and seen a ghost! I can totally connect to these stories on TV.
Idea
Just like voice, I was thinking of quitting and learning violin on my own rather than a 30 minute session every Saturday morning and with early bussing over 6 hours total. I want to work at a daycare and just learn violin from the books and when I can to play in a local amateur group and maybe accompany musicals. It would be a dream to play classical professionally but not necessarily a soloist. I wish I could be a 1st violinist cuz I loved singing in groups, choirs, and feel like I should be given some honors because I did it so much when young.
Not Dealing With It / Forgiving / Trusting
How can I deal with, like, all these people I meet who are good being so weirdly bad to me? They're just human but "by a large margin?"
Remember when we were told some people are good and some are not? I think it's just a fad, but you can single some people out as especially good possibly for some reason or another. Maybe, they are attractive.
Remember when we were told some people are good and some are not? I think it's just a fad, but you can single some people out as especially good possibly for some reason or another. Maybe, they are attractive.
Not Making It??
Do you all think you'll make it in life listening to my dad like he's popular more than me and I'm not?
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