I'm kinda worried about what Ellen DeGeneres thinks about what I did. I just don't really want to take it. When I'm mad, I sometimes get confused and just hit my sofa/pillow. I kept looking at her, and she kept making angry expressions in my perception. I started out on a good note recently, but that doesn't matter. I used to curse about her being mean putting illegal hurtful noises in my room a long time ago.
What can I say? I thought I'd been nice. She was upset I was feeling neutral during her last episode or something. I think it was that I wasn't mad at others for what she did.
This is a goofy way of communicating.
It wasn't a nice thing to joke on me with, everyone, like I'm *beep*. What business do you have doing this? This requires an explanation. I just did.
You don't even have to pay attention to me.
I know people I encounter won't stop being mean to me.
I won't accept these other people who are trashing my life in what they say like I'm the one who ultimately did something. If I say someone was being mean, they are just meaner. The world doesn't care when you do this.
Constantly digging in my past telling me I'm worse than you is not something I'm gonna smile about, and I'm not joking around nor being disrespectfully sarcastic, just saying.
Other people wanna feel so triumphant like they're over me. I don't need to listen to that. Like, do it in public so you can get in trouble. I'm making it public right now cuz they all just keep doing that for some random reason. Just because someone is not emotionally perfect does not mean this is something you're gonna get away with. I need to make a Police post and tag as a warning.
I don't just go and hit things for no reason. They kept at me repetitively. Getting physical.
If I'm already mad, chances are I could get even madder.
I didn't mean to look at Ellen badly, but she kept looking to annoy me on TV. I'm the one in my room with the TV on. Can you explain what Ellen does? Let her at it, I didn't say she had to do it. I already want her to stop, but I guess it's up to her.
So, yea, I'm not here to submit to Ellen, but she doesn't have to do that for me.
I just wanna watch the show and post about it online. Other people can talk to her, too. I'm at home and can watch TV as of now.
Like I said, I didn't mean to hit the sofa in synchronization with her like it's at her. I guess it was irritating me or something, but it wasn't like unusually bad.
Sorry! Hate me if you want.