It does seem my life is all about not being in trouble. I guess it's the adults's faults if they suddenly think my cousin's life is ruined. They are trying to judge us by who my dad is and who her mom is and make it worse because of the fact I'm mixed and she's how she is. They "see the result.." If I seem good, they think it's not true. They think my cousin was framed and that I need top worship her like I'm *beep*. I can't say anything technically about vacations and things without letting known that my aunts and uncle-in-law used to yell a lot at her. Her mom doesn't curse, but the other 2 did. Yes, she curses some or not sure how much really, too, but not at them probably. Most people curse, like, "Oh, shit!" Now, they secretly hated me. I was nice to her and played with her, but I don't think she cared, anymore, with the way everyone cares about her in front of me sometimes all of a sudden. They had to wait until I was old to do it and let me have my own life. They think my cousin's mom is the cutest and therefore any kids of the other 2 siblings must be s***, which means me. Can you help? I know I have an old bf who seems hooked on the idea that she is mean to me but that her parents aren't and that because of that her family is better and so is she for some reason, like my parents aren't that good cuz my mom is Asian.. Can you help? Thanks! Thanks for reading this.
So, disclaimer: Don't let thoughts wander in negative ways that are untrue. I mean no offense. I explained as I wrote. I don't want to be blamed for others's flubbing habits.
I just don't get if I was nice to her until we both fought for reasons I unfortunately forget.. and the adults were mean to her in my extended family, they all prance off and crazily claim it was me. They probably set me up.
I don't like how they slam in my face that I had underlying hatred which caused my existence to be an issue. I've done a lot for the image of this family.