Submission to Dr. Phil

I made a background page of all my problems that I keep that relate to the show: http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/drphil. Now, my problems, in a way, all started out with online bullying. I explain more on my page. I was hesitent to fall in and sign on Facebook and MySpace back in the earlier 2000s.  2 friends visited me, somewhat strangely, but don't talk to me now, like they managed to get rid of me.  I lost all my friends from real life because of not talking to me online or who knows why.  Some aren't even online.  Anyway, I went on to talk about Johnny Depp and to try to find out about auditions for more Pirates of the Caribbean movies.  I would post a lot and sometimes about how I used to live where he's from when I was 2.  They would fight me and tell me off and I'd be upset back but not very bad and they'd kick me off.  When I was on the MySpace page for the 3rd Pirates of the Caribbena movie, everyone left when I came on.  I was stuck alone for a long time.  When I started posting on IMDb about Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and their movies, I posted normally but sometimes more interesting things about the movies, when they were there to goof off a lot too, and they told me off, to leave, called me an idiot kinda  a lot (like my screen name Fastidious, "Fastidiot,") acted like it was cuza my race, which I think they got worse when they knew I was part Chinese.  It was because I was new, they thought I was a rebel not to have come on earlier.  I started posting on the social board/s of the IMDb Message Boards, and they kept calling me Mongy so many times I found relief in throwing my broken laptop against the wall.  I was crazy.  I had punched a lotta holes in my wall, the 1st which was pure accident.  I hit because I was mad on the Johnny Depp board without much thinking.  My parents heard and since ruined my life by acting differently.  I went to a spa lady's home to get my blackheads removed.  I think she damaged my brain with the suction.  I thought before Tim Burton had gotten "sock accounts" on IMDb and called me not white a lot, like the other people.  I thought that since his daughter was part Jew I caught the message to play around with her and in a fun sorta "fake online fun" way the command to call her the n word.  Then, the whole world seemed to find out and now hates me.  My argument was that I thought they wanted me to do it.  I said to leave me alone with his n***** daughter.  Whoever it was or whoever ordered it seemed to be teasing  me or getting a message out of the way.  I met a boy I liked online, too, and he wanted to marry me but now does not.  He was from England and about 40 years old but looked young and nice.  He hasn't talked to me in awhile, and I'm not sure why.  Maybe, he has other things to do.  He got me very mad, tho, when he wouldn't talk.  I think he didn't marry me cuz I didn't say yes right away.  He stopped talking to me cuz he posted a panda bear and I didn't want to be picked on for being Asian, think it was obvious.  The other thing that happened via the internet was I started watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show.  She put cameras and speakers around my room and had noises that annoyed me all day, including things that happen on my computer, like every time it loads now.  A long time ago, this was done, 2005, except the messages weren't as annoying and weird.  I started cursing about it a lot, and now I think Ellen hates me and tries to frame me with getting everyone I know to hate me. --- I would prefer to get on the show for the fact that everyone I meet is mean to me but cuza these thing that happened online, so I dunno what to say about that cuz I'm also trying to get on the show for this.  I've been contacted for 2 submissions so far but didn't get on the show.