I do not want to mean to say I'm mad at certain people, things that seem not like them in some ways. Some of the things that made me mad were an offensive situation.
I feel that I am being tricked to get to know people in "ways" I don't wanna. You all want me to be like everyone else who messed up their life cuz you think that'll fix it rather than you owning up to that ya'll adults don't care for them.
I'm just mad in general at what happened. I did m*********. So, maybe "that ruined it for me." I did use all caps, but I don't mean anything terrifying exactly. I was concerned for some reason cuz it was being repeated to me. I guess they want to change places and think in such a way I'm a kid to be fascinated by something they say isn't even there..
About me not getting close to men, I dunno, maybe that's how it is, but I guess some men are more alluring. That's a problem. I didn't know that. Some guys know what not to do and what to do. The kind of guy my dad and his family is it just isn't so. The men are quiet, and the women are noisy. My dad probably wants to get close, but I don't think he matured to that, yet. I dunno, I don't want him to just copy other males.