I find it perverted to say I can't sing for the reasons you'd say it. Like, I don't respect nor submit to some higher power there be. Like I don't mess around thinking about what it is not to be a hard-working "musician." Like just saying I'm not the right person and didn't get all the private training I desired when I was young. That includes college, not just my poor parents where I can only take ballet etc. I mean no harm by the word "perverted." It just fits. I don't mean it about anyone but about doing/thinking this. I don't mean it to any one person.