Problem

Lat night, I wa sin a lot of pain with them bringing up messages, so I squirmed to myself.  I didn't know what was going on.  I forgot that I wasn't supposed to like do something physical like that or I'd lose a relationship.  It took me awhile to stop.  I'm still upset, tho.  It looks like it might come up.  It's fine in a way, but this didn't make sense  I don't have freedom to think how I like.  I don't feel well, neither.  Like something's been like nailed into me.  I don't think they "take" excuses.  Oh well, I must think things thru even more and learned to ignore things.  I didn't scream loud enough to be heard much and was just moving in my chair, not hitting the table.  I really don't want to lose a relationship because I was in pain and it hurt a lot.  It's unfair.  I don't wanna go along with these superstitious people.  This was special to me.  They were wrong.  I'm not doing this.  Why are they acting like they have dominion over me now?  You should not have done what you've done.  Don't go lying to me.  What was I to do?  I was afraid I'd ruin my computer, too.  So, I channeled that energy another way.  I don't think they can take away a relationship unless the person decides to.  I don't think that will happen.  I don't like how if I do something physical they think that to be "easy."  No one was even in here.  My mom was doing laundry, but I wasn't that loud.  I can't have little things cause me to lose my favorite relationship.  I don't need to be counseled and mad a spectacle of, neither.  What you did was harmful.  You just wouldn't stop, and now I have to pay for you all.  At the time, I forgot because it'd been awhile that you'd do this.  I don't like doing it myself.  I feel provoked more to do it than that I'd wanna.  Sorry!  I just don't see how I'm not allowed to really do this if I got really bad-feeling.