Saturday, October 22, 2016
Male Prowess
Why are they so proud to say how they are going to punish me, like it's my fault I did something else?
Hurt and Sad
People are pursuing me like "there's nothing in it" in me.
They like to say I'm bad to lure anyone into sparing a few moments of their life communicating with me.
They like to say I'm bad to lure anyone into sparing a few moments of their life communicating with me.
Is there anything in it?
If I don't worry about losing relationships now if I have any, can I go around and believe I am a good person again?
As Good As Blonde
I could pass as fair with my skin, which is flushed with some color and from being Floridian from the beach. My hair has highlights but not as seethru anymore. Yes, it has "dark roots." When I straighten it out it's not black at all in the light. I don't, tho, so it doesn't get ruined.
Into the Woods (2014)
It's on TV.
I'm trying to get sleepy. Church again tomorrow! I just used the bus to go this evening, and I will use the bus again tomorrow. You know why? I want to see what the people if any thought of what I posted online from the festival, including 2 girls singing karaoke.
I'm trying to get sleepy. Church again tomorrow! I just used the bus to go this evening, and I will use the bus again tomorrow. You know why? I want to see what the people if any thought of what I posted online from the festival, including 2 girls singing karaoke.
Being "Cute" in a Cool Way
Why does my parish think only the pastor is cute insteada following his good example and giving themselves a good identity?
This Morning
I stretched up to exactly/over 5'3". When I stand I look shorter, tho. I see girls slouched/popped over sometimes. I still feel short. I'm not sure if I've grown or if I was just shorter recently. I just slept a lot.
"Examination of Conscience"
I wonder if I deserve to be killed by the old German Nazis that existed. They look like they're right. What if it's something my dad believes in already, that people have to work and providing jails for criminals to live in is a sin already?
The Civil War
was pointless and not that exciting. Who cares if the hot people in the South need slaves.
No One Talks to Me / I Don't Know People
Why do the bad people in my life hold more significance in it?
I am not talked to by others, and their negativity takes hold on my life.
It's like it's time to gather around. People judge me as not that good because they want to find reasons to like others and not me.
People would rather fight, debate, and hold a conversation with a surprise of people but only certain people, who can't seem to hold a conversation whenever they're with me or messaging me. I have people in my life who have abandoned me, seems to happen quite naturally with those who knew me, when strangers are so respectful and seem to have the opposite feelings about me, like they don't know me cuz they are respectfully shy even.
Also, if you know me, why do you have to know everyone in my life and have good people have to go against me? I'm not asking for attention, but it's clear I don't get any. It's not kinda true or something.
I am not talked to by others, and their negativity takes hold on my life.
It's like it's time to gather around. People judge me as not that good because they want to find reasons to like others and not me.
People would rather fight, debate, and hold a conversation with a surprise of people but only certain people, who can't seem to hold a conversation whenever they're with me or messaging me. I have people in my life who have abandoned me, seems to happen quite naturally with those who knew me, when strangers are so respectful and seem to have the opposite feelings about me, like they don't know me cuz they are respectfully shy even.
Also, if you know me, why do you have to know everyone in my life and have good people have to go against me? I'm not asking for attention, but it's clear I don't get any. It's not kinda true or something.
To Have a Round With Germany?
Why are Germans so uptight about manners and supposedly teach others, in lieu of WWI + WWII? I mean, if I think something that's tiring to think, they can tell I am not on top of it and I'm immediately eradicated. I don't have that kinda racial pride on my tailhide to keep me awake and aroused. Maybe, like my mom raised me as a half Chinese person, my dad influenced me to be nothing but Irish from him. What, are the Irish fresh outta luck compared to Germany, England, France, Spain, whatever? and he feels a debt to them cuz he's part Irish? So, I guess Germans are better racially and that's why we shouldn't be mad at them for WWI + WWII. They weren't going to attack, anyway.
Do you "stop, drop, and roll?"
When you see others are bad, do you take it in stride or do you find it in you to somehow convert them? I mean "when they don't have their act together."
Friday, October 21, 2016
Drama?
It's not exactly a lost cause. Do you like My Fair Lady? It just came on Showtunes, "Why Can't the English?"
Thursday, October 20, 2016
Nothing Wrong Here!
If someone is a certain way, they can be that way, but I didn't do anything wrong to anyone!
Fun Fun Fun Fun Fun
Why make fun of a good program in life? It's not tacky to succeed. I am not unworthy now! It seems life is tricking bowling over.
B4
I didn't have issues that needed to be addressed as tho I'd be ticked off at too many things if like any at all. They try to mark bad things like they'd come up anyway and like they didn't do that.
PO'd
Why attack just me?
Plug it into a situation.
Someone claimed someone else was being mean stealing from me socially. I thought they said I had to listen to their way, "everything" they said in secret message.
Some People
seemed nice, but now they aren't.
Someone is upset of things being about me, the things that are, and they took apart my situation like, if it can be explained in black and white, it's for them and not mine.
Pointless
I feel people are slowly taking from me opportunities in this life, stretching it out so I don't ever get to have them.
Here's the lowdown.
So, some people just "get" to follow what other people say about them feeling pleasure over others, like it suddenly doesn't matter and no one else matters tho they do, at least the people telling them that?
This nonsense sounds like it's from some of the immigrants to L.A.
Why do some people have to smile to stay outta trouble.. because trouble is around them?
What do I have to say about my life!!
The people who bring me joy are transformed into evil, selfish robots, in some feeling? Famous and feeling all the pleasure like no one else can have any? I can't trust nor look up to anyone remaining in this life. It's not coo'. They said I deserve this in a sneaky, false, claimed way.
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone.
I'm still there.
Why is someone mad if my life is not about someone else following me in my glory? How spoiled, selfish, and unfortunate.
Insults
Someone is getting away with themselves with periodic mean messages that bounce off me like an obvious joke.
I also feel threatened. My life goes nowhere cuza what they say. Why does everyone listen to them? It's always about ruining my life.
I also feel threatened. My life goes nowhere cuza what they say. Why does everyone listen to them? It's always about ruining my life.
Something About You?
What if something about you was about someone else? I guess it only matters when it's not about me.
What if you were great and people just found some way to say you are different and took advantage of that saying you were just bad and so much worse than everyone else?
What if you were great and people just found some way to say you are different and took advantage of that saying you were just bad and so much worse than everyone else?
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
Bedtime for Me!
Church tomorrow probably for a 1st excursion?
I'm too depressed to practice violin, maybe. Tired, too, didn't sleep much well last night.
I'm too depressed to practice violin, maybe. Tired, too, didn't sleep much well last night.
Hm.
If someone likes me, why can't we talk? People need more attention. I dunno, tho, the social networking sites are so bad.
If you’re under thirty, you’re welcome. https://t.co/7lFyhODJBa— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) October 19, 2016
Unless you're around Ellen's age, too.
Hey, guess what? I'm serious.
I don't get certain affection outta relationships, but others are stealing some opportunity from me in life. Why do these people have to follow me around like I'm their mom?
Sh! You could say it does not affect me, but it is a real situation. They weren't around before.
Sh! You could say it does not affect me, but it is a real situation. They weren't around before.
Sad
These people fighting me are getting me not as close to my mom. Instead, I'm in my room and gonna go to bed.
Ethnic Swapping
Did you know they encourage someone who is part one ethnicity to be another but with me think I am a slave to theirs?
Uncertainty
People have inner fights on if they want me to "touch" them.
Either way, I'm out to them.
Either way, I'm out to them.
Tuesday, October 18, 2016
Hm!
The people in the movie making fun of the other people in the movie, like Das Sound Machine, do not realize they are in the movie, too.
Omigosh
The young singer is good, and those other girls my generation are making sarcastic faces like there's something better but they don't know what.
In the Movie
Why do they put people like that in movies without a leader like me? I can feel their jealousy that I don't wanna hurt Christina Barrett.
Issue
I can't believe how they have people talk to me..like I'm nothing.
You know, I don't believe the fact that Ellen DeGeneres promoted that only people with certain kinds of parents or races or born whenever or who doesn't trump her .. only people who "aren't in her way" are okay and to say only some generations are okay. That's why she "has" to be mean.
You know, I don't believe the fact that Ellen DeGeneres promoted that only people with certain kinds of parents or races or born whenever or who doesn't trump her .. only people who "aren't in her way" are okay and to say only some generations are okay. That's why she "has" to be mean.
..and we have something else in common
We don't seem to have had the opportunity to learn much dancing.
All the Drama is to Torture Me
It seems like I got the message someone supposedly very popular I like accepts other people over me even if they don't fit some requirement. I understand if you wanna make them feel better, but I'm not gonna be the only one compared to them as worse. That's so crazy!
Oddity
If I did something odd but nice at church, it would matter cuz "we have an attractive pastor." If I were at another church, it'd be good for God.
The Beggar Woman in Beauty and the Beast
I'm really a fairy. Do my aunts really like to talk a lot? I've heard stories.
Disclaimer: No, I did not turn anyone into a beast.
Disclaimer: No, I did not turn anyone into a beast.
Why Worry
Why worry about things socially to be mean to people if there are things out there to worry about we shouldn't have to worry about too much like minimum wage jobs being offered to people like they are?
Onto Me
People keep following my every move. How gay!
Like, I woke up and didn't use the bathroom but feel okay here now and jotted down some issues. I bet they would remind me of things like this, maybe just cuz I said it here. Like, they'd make some situation to remind me of some thing I did they observed and thought could be improved.
Like, I woke up and didn't use the bathroom but feel okay here now and jotted down some issues. I bet they would remind me of things like this, maybe just cuz I said it here. Like, they'd make some situation to remind me of some thing I did they observed and thought could be improved.
Too Many Texts?
Supposedly, me posting on my cell is a waste of other people's time, when they post at certain times to annoy me. It's in group posts. Maybe, I should make another group. It was nice portraits, too.
What It Was
If I am upset even when in my room alone and hit something, like my sofa or using a punching bag, they say I can't have something if it is something important that I think about that comes up then. It's like they can't leave me alone.
In my long post yesterday..
..I said I was just wondering about something, tho if it helps to understand I was wondering if I was getting in trouble. I'm not sure why people are in my life suddenly like it's their business, the ones being mean telling me I did something wrong. It's like they either want to affect a relationship, negatively, or are already involved with me in mine for some reason manipulating it in ways that don't make sense. Also, for some reason, if I say something about things like this, they are getting more uptight about if it's not very very short. Well, here I was clarifying what people are thinking at me. No offense to anyone!
Oh, wow, "that's it!"
It feels like it's 2nd nature to other people that I'm no good cuz I cursed about hurtful, illegal noises Ellen DeGneeres put in my room. Must I become a recluse in some way?
Monday, October 17, 2016
Not as Worried
I know the other people out there like me are having their own good time in private, and that's many and many many in Europe!
Watching TV..
..Annie is on from 2014.
Germans may not be as light as the Irish, but they still have to come out and say something, no hard feelings. He he, isn't that funny? They try to be withheld I think as a big thing. I wonder what would happen if they opened up, if that is possible.
Germans and English are pretty popular countries, and they are respectful to people like blacks.
Germans may not be as light as the Irish, but they still have to come out and say something, no hard feelings. He he, isn't that funny? They try to be withheld I think as a big thing. I wonder what would happen if they opened up, if that is possible.
Germans and English are pretty popular countries, and they are respectful to people like blacks.
I'm a little wary.
I wanna look at pictures online of brunette girls and don't wanna end up masturbating!
I think the world was just attacked.
I fell on top of my head in gymnastics on the hard surface next to the foam pit at age 8. What if they manipulated me to do that? It probably gave me glasses at 9 and made me stop growing at 11.
I can't trust..
..people from Europe just because they know how to be nice and happy without messing up.
I know..
..they are pressuring anyone who is cool in a modern way to ruin it for them if they admit it out in the open, seems like even is with it with good people who would make others feel good.
TV
So, who am I closer to, the English, the Irish/Scottish, .. Germany?
Remember, the US is supposedly said to be much like the Irish/Scottish, so chose wisely!!
The Scandinavians have their own settlement here, and the Amish are primarily Swiss and I think maybe also German.
Remember, the US is supposedly said to be much like the Irish/Scottish, so chose wisely!!
The Scandinavians have their own settlement here, and the Amish are primarily Swiss and I think maybe also German.
Super Supper!
I have my supper in 20 minutes.
The cake I made last week with 2 cans of frosting! Vanilla on vanilla.
The cake I made last week with 2 cans of frosting! Vanilla on vanilla.
You cannot hypnotize me.
Because if something is in front of my eyes, I have to see it. If a sound is made I have to hear it.
No friends, then? Problematic relationships?
Are all the people I supposedly know other than on like IMDb possibly waiting to "dump" me or have a strange, sorta empty relationship / fattening me up for "the kill?" I don't like that the seemingly negative situation is "because of my dad, etc.."
Just ask someone who everyone worships, and they will say no one has to talk to me cuz I'm 1/2 Chinese/Indonesian. If that applies to me, that applies to everyone. I'm not really different like that and have needs and ways of being.
I'm sick of my dad acting like he's my main relationship. I'm not supposed to be close to him, anymore. Why would someone I trust tell me to be with him like that?
Disclaimer: I'm not hinting pointing fingers at anyone or anything in a wrong/negative way. I just noticed a pattern. No one has to do anything for me. I don't have to do anything, neither. I realize some people do, but I just noticed some people are like the enemy. I feel I have to think for myself and not listen to all the people trying to scar me emotionally. I think I just don't like other people doing weird things to off center my relationship, no offense to anyone, like I said, just feeling this way about a lotta things! No one is truthful to me and I have to also hurt myself, tho, or then I guess you'd think partly, cuz my dad says? That makes no sense. People forget how the world is supposed to work and think other people don't matter, no matter who they are.
You know what, I don't even care about all the people out there being mean to me. Why would it affect someone I have a relationship with? Maybe, you pretend I am not really cool.
This kinda sucks. I don't want to be in trouble for no reason every day. How would you like to have the bad parts of my life you put there?
No one had better take this the wrong way and affect my relationships!
Disclaimer: I'm not talking at anyone in a bad way who is nice. Why would anyone think that?
This sucks so much. I bet it's that worthlessness of the Baby Boom era, people lying to me, I mean like that my dad primarily does. Why should I care about anyone in the end? I need to get in before the shitstorm. I don't wanna be made fun of for no reason for posting these things. I just have to explain myself for what people misunderstand. My point is that I wonder why my life is so miserable and why people blame me for things and if this will ever stop in my life, anyway. I can already see people I know caring the least that I will die someday. Why should I care about them, not suggesting anything bad tho? I do care essentially, but I can't agree with their ways and hatred for me. I feel people have knocked me down as a person, people spreading rumors about me cuz "Johnny Depp said this" or "Ellen DeGeneres said that."
You know, I know they already are doing something because I posted this. They won't listen that it's not what they make it out to be.
You know, people are giving me mixed messages, that one thing is true and then it isn't, and I was already wary of the nature of what they said.
Do people pretend writing a lot means nothing, what you can do, but just because I do it? Who cares what others think! They're just racists! Maybe, I am on top. I don't want to lose friends, tho! How would you like that? to be blamed for something and then have everyone abandon you socially in some way that matters now?
I see this is about more than I thought originally. I started with an interesting topic.
Hm, the blood in my brain is getting low. Thanks, Tweeters.
I thought things were okay, but then I just noticed the *gestalt of it all.
You know, I think the people experimenting on me are very evil because they said they prevented me from seeing someone.. How is it okay that they do that? They are all alone. Why are they letting my dad treat me like this? My dad doesn't care about if I am alive. Now, that is a stupid thing if it is really how it is. Nothing else to be said about that, it's no. Still do it?
Nothing bad came of what someone I like did! I hope I didn't fail in my attempts/intent, tho. Why do people disrespect me?
So, this was just me starting talking about something that's kinda big on my mind, and I posted about other things within the same post, partially so I don't post too many times and have to fill out codes in the end maybe. "No need to be alarmed." I'm sorry if I didn't know I did anything wrong. I just feel it's an important topic and other people are involved. So, about people not really out for what's best for me, I'm wondering if they just want to hurt me in the end like it doesn't matter, probably my dad's order. He should not be connected to me like this.. I let him be, and he chases after me. He ruins my chances at having a relationship because people don't want me to feel bad. That's too bad because I do! I guess the reason is not good, like I said. He always makes something up mean to me to act like he has some idea against me and he can rehash it quickly.
Hey, do you think people are stupid and changed their minds? They were excited about conquering other cultures and being able to live among them. If they were wrong, they suck and it's not my fault cuz if people all think that is stupid, "so what who cares about God if the Nazis didn't" "I wanna be a Nazi.." Yesterday, I decided I agreed with the Nazis cuz there are so many nice Germans here in America, but it was just a misunderstanding cuz I don't think they wanted to have to do that even. What about the war with England? Big whoop, huh? It does not mean they can do it.
*gestalt - an organized whole that is perceived as more than the sum of its parts. (link)
Just ask someone who everyone worships, and they will say no one has to talk to me cuz I'm 1/2 Chinese/Indonesian. If that applies to me, that applies to everyone. I'm not really different like that and have needs and ways of being.
I'm sick of my dad acting like he's my main relationship. I'm not supposed to be close to him, anymore. Why would someone I trust tell me to be with him like that?
Disclaimer: I'm not hinting pointing fingers at anyone or anything in a wrong/negative way. I just noticed a pattern. No one has to do anything for me. I don't have to do anything, neither. I realize some people do, but I just noticed some people are like the enemy. I feel I have to think for myself and not listen to all the people trying to scar me emotionally. I think I just don't like other people doing weird things to off center my relationship, no offense to anyone, like I said, just feeling this way about a lotta things! No one is truthful to me and I have to also hurt myself, tho, or then I guess you'd think partly, cuz my dad says? That makes no sense. People forget how the world is supposed to work and think other people don't matter, no matter who they are.
You know what, I don't even care about all the people out there being mean to me. Why would it affect someone I have a relationship with? Maybe, you pretend I am not really cool.
This kinda sucks. I don't want to be in trouble for no reason every day. How would you like to have the bad parts of my life you put there?
No one had better take this the wrong way and affect my relationships!
Disclaimer: I'm not talking at anyone in a bad way who is nice. Why would anyone think that?
This sucks so much. I bet it's that worthlessness of the Baby Boom era, people lying to me, I mean like that my dad primarily does. Why should I care about anyone in the end? I need to get in before the shitstorm. I don't wanna be made fun of for no reason for posting these things. I just have to explain myself for what people misunderstand. My point is that I wonder why my life is so miserable and why people blame me for things and if this will ever stop in my life, anyway. I can already see people I know caring the least that I will die someday. Why should I care about them, not suggesting anything bad tho? I do care essentially, but I can't agree with their ways and hatred for me. I feel people have knocked me down as a person, people spreading rumors about me cuz "Johnny Depp said this" or "Ellen DeGeneres said that."
You know, I know they already are doing something because I posted this. They won't listen that it's not what they make it out to be.
You know, people are giving me mixed messages, that one thing is true and then it isn't, and I was already wary of the nature of what they said.
Do people pretend writing a lot means nothing, what you can do, but just because I do it? Who cares what others think! They're just racists! Maybe, I am on top. I don't want to lose friends, tho! How would you like that? to be blamed for something and then have everyone abandon you socially in some way that matters now?
I see this is about more than I thought originally. I started with an interesting topic.
Hm, the blood in my brain is getting low. Thanks, Tweeters.
I thought things were okay, but then I just noticed the *gestalt of it all.
You know, I think the people experimenting on me are very evil because they said they prevented me from seeing someone.. How is it okay that they do that? They are all alone. Why are they letting my dad treat me like this? My dad doesn't care about if I am alive. Now, that is a stupid thing if it is really how it is. Nothing else to be said about that, it's no. Still do it?
Nothing bad came of what someone I like did! I hope I didn't fail in my attempts/intent, tho. Why do people disrespect me?
So, this was just me starting talking about something that's kinda big on my mind, and I posted about other things within the same post, partially so I don't post too many times and have to fill out codes in the end maybe. "No need to be alarmed." I'm sorry if I didn't know I did anything wrong. I just feel it's an important topic and other people are involved. So, about people not really out for what's best for me, I'm wondering if they just want to hurt me in the end like it doesn't matter, probably my dad's order. He should not be connected to me like this.. I let him be, and he chases after me. He ruins my chances at having a relationship because people don't want me to feel bad. That's too bad because I do! I guess the reason is not good, like I said. He always makes something up mean to me to act like he has some idea against me and he can rehash it quickly.
Hey, do you think people are stupid and changed their minds? They were excited about conquering other cultures and being able to live among them. If they were wrong, they suck and it's not my fault cuz if people all think that is stupid, "so what who cares about God if the Nazis didn't" "I wanna be a Nazi.." Yesterday, I decided I agreed with the Nazis cuz there are so many nice Germans here in America, but it was just a misunderstanding cuz I don't think they wanted to have to do that even. What about the war with England? Big whoop, huh? It does not mean they can do it.
*gestalt - an organized whole that is perceived as more than the sum of its parts. (link)
Not Fair! Right?
I know why kids were so bad in later Generation X.. because there was no reason to be so polite for.
Generation YZ kids are crazy polite like they have something to live for.
That's why you got kids playing around with the idea of death like it's all that.
Generation YZ kids are crazy polite like they have something to live for.
That's why you got kids playing around with the idea of death like it's all that.
It's scary to think..
..that older adults are supposed to be tending to their offspring generation, but they're not doing it.
Did you know..
..the onset of masturbation can take an onset early on, such as during one's "terrible 2's?" For me, it happened at age 6/7, I think. I went thru puberty at 10. People with early puberty tend to be short.
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