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Thursday, August 25, 2016
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Edit - Message for Police
Ellen DeGeneres is trying to scout out to prevent older people I like from having any good relationship with me. She said my dad threatened her into doing it.
Problems - Edit
•She made my family feel off'd her just in case they felt sponsored by her and made them suffer things of what's important in their life.
A Feelings Person
I actually like feelings a lot, but I was deprived while watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show too much.
The Way of No Warning
Do you know people who get mad at you without warning at things that don't make sense? They claim to be friendly, but you know better.
Message for Police
Ellen DeGeneres is trying to scout out to prevent older people I like from having any good relationship with me. She said my dad threatened her into doing it.
Running Away From Problems
Did you notice people run away from helping those in need in the least of God's people?
Problem
Yes, my dad has lost it, too. It's important to try to note to myself and if others are interested in helping or praying.
Being Cute
So, what's not precious about me being born after Ellen and being able to do the cool things she does or did? What about the younger kids?
The Stuff
My oldest aunt seems to have the stuff because she puts effort into what she does, but everyone falls for the blonde.
Autistic Asian
I may be part Asian, but I am not autistic.
Does that mean other people who hate me must or might obviously be Autistic as a probability?
Maybe, I'm just artistic.
Does that mean other people who hate me must or might obviously be Autistic as a probability?
Maybe, I'm just artistic.
Autism as a Saving Grace
They label kids autistic so they don't get on pills. That way, they have roped off the problem by recognizing early on that there is one, so it doesn't grow.
Bad Kids
I can tell everyone wants to get in trouble cuz they encourage and bully me into insane thoughts.
Racial Complaints
Do people ever complain about things to another race that isn't really that much of an issue?
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres is making sure I don't meet anyone I like I would have met otherwise, like on caliber of herself or "Johnny Depp" so they say.
I cursed on my blog about hurtful, illegal noises in my room she put there.
I may contact the police. I think she's intimidating people who like me.
They also really are trying to inappropriately stimulate the people I like a lot who I look up to. I also saw my dad did something like that.
I just wanted to go on and not say anything. I know what floats people's boats. They think if I curse by accident in my head that I should lose a relationship, or get upset in public because of mean people or hit my sofa when mad etc.
There must be more to say on life's problems, but at least here's a starting point making a space on my BlogSpot.
Maybe, they think relationships aren't important, like long-term ones that happen. They're just digging the hole deeper. I don't mind if someone doesn't actually like me, but I won't let anyone get in the way if someone accepts me that I like if possible.
I think they're creating more problems for me as I speak.
I cursed on my blog about hurtful, illegal noises in my room she put there.
I may contact the police. I think she's intimidating people who like me.
They also really are trying to inappropriately stimulate the people I like a lot who I look up to. I also saw my dad did something like that.
I just wanted to go on and not say anything. I know what floats people's boats. They think if I curse by accident in my head that I should lose a relationship, or get upset in public because of mean people or hit my sofa when mad etc.
There must be more to say on life's problems, but at least here's a starting point making a space on my BlogSpot.
Maybe, they think relationships aren't important, like long-term ones that happen. They're just digging the hole deeper. I don't mind if someone doesn't actually like me, but I won't let anyone get in the way if someone accepts me that I like if possible.
I think they're creating more problems for me as I speak.
Asians and Blacks
People should explain why they despise Asians and blacks.
I know the Middle East may be out of Africa sooner than Europeans or that Europeans come from the Middle East, and I've heard different stories.
The mystery will only come from cultures like East Asia. In the end, you'll find it's something they're still working on and something you don't have neither.
Egypt, Arabia, Iraq.. those are not East Asia. Even India.
I know the Middle East may be out of Africa sooner than Europeans or that Europeans come from the Middle East, and I've heard different stories.
The mystery will only come from cultures like East Asia. In the end, you'll find it's something they're still working on and something you don't have neither.
Egypt, Arabia, Iraq.. those are not East Asia. Even India.
Monday, August 22, 2016
Unacceptable!
If you think you can tell I don't accept something, duh, see if you would accept it yourself.
Subdued Negative Judgment
I feel like people think I am trash and I'm automatically out in their subconscious because I didn't start violin early enough.
That they focused on one thing comfortably makes them feel elevated personality-wise over others.
That doesn't sound very American.
Think of how much it crushes me. It's like a poor black boy in Africa growing up wanting to win a beauty pageant.
I did wanna play flute. I can feel some faint memory of interest in violin stifled and never seeing it performed especially interestingly.
I wanted to sing 1st, so I moved on there. I did know what a piano was, too.
That they focused on one thing comfortably makes them feel elevated personality-wise over others.
That doesn't sound very American.
Think of how much it crushes me. It's like a poor black boy in Africa growing up wanting to win a beauty pageant.
I did wanna play flute. I can feel some faint memory of interest in violin stifled and never seeing it performed especially interestingly.
I wanted to sing 1st, so I moved on there. I did know what a piano was, too.
A Man with a Plan
I plan to play violin in the Rollins String Orchestra and take lessons there from a teacher who usually teaches little kids, like a prep program.
I hope to get into Rollins next year. I had the 2nd highest scholarship at Loyola. I hope I can get a transfer scholarship, on top of financial aid and loans.
I am partially excited and chose Rollins because it has a nice program in German.
Part of the reason I am in orchestra so soon, having asked and found out about this, and want to take German is so I can learn with other people guiding me so I don't slack off.
Rollins offers a BA in Music. I did want a BM, but I'm not really a virtuoso anyway and have not had much violin yet. I do think I progressed quickly. I do have problems, like hitting other strings and getting tired of finding the notes from physical fatigue. Also, UCF does not have German. I think Rollins has a good foreign language department.
Also, I am reading a Music Theory AP book and a Music History book with pictures and 2 big pages for each period or event in music.
I need to be concerned about General Studies.
I eventually would like also an MM and DMA in Violin Performance.
It is depressing I am starting this at 30, but imagine if this never happened in my life.
1st Song:
4:40
I hope to get into Rollins next year. I had the 2nd highest scholarship at Loyola. I hope I can get a transfer scholarship, on top of financial aid and loans.
I am partially excited and chose Rollins because it has a nice program in German.
Part of the reason I am in orchestra so soon, having asked and found out about this, and want to take German is so I can learn with other people guiding me so I don't slack off.
Rollins offers a BA in Music. I did want a BM, but I'm not really a virtuoso anyway and have not had much violin yet. I do think I progressed quickly. I do have problems, like hitting other strings and getting tired of finding the notes from physical fatigue. Also, UCF does not have German. I think Rollins has a good foreign language department.
Also, I am reading a Music Theory AP book and a Music History book with pictures and 2 big pages for each period or event in music.
I need to be concerned about General Studies.
I eventually would like also an MM and DMA in Violin Performance.
It is depressing I am starting this at 30, but imagine if this never happened in my life.
1st Song:
4:40
Helpful Means in My Life
I can attend mass any day of the week, 7 AM every day!
It's so nice to be led by a holy man and be among other people with a similar experience.
It's so nice to be led by a holy man and be among other people with a similar experience.
A Mad Pursuit
Do you know anyone so mad that if you justified yourself from them they'd come and attack you?
Parental Relations
Some mothers lust over their children because they love their husband and find him alluring.
Some mothers treat their children like DNA garbage, even if they are..more attractive!
Some mothers treat their children like DNA garbage, even if they are..more attractive!
Aliya Mustafina - Rio Russia 3rd - Gymnastics
Her dad was a gymnast and a Tatar (European/Asian people.)
She did gymnastics in the Olympics last time and was also 3rd then.
She got a 15.9/16 on this event.
She did gymnastics in the Olympics last time and was also 3rd then.
She got a 15.9/16 on this event.
Sunday, August 21, 2016
Can you believe it?
People say when my dad lets me explore the word, just for me cuza mixed race I have to just talk to him.
Saturday, August 20, 2016
I mean come on
What can I hope for in any single person in this world.. other than people like me on my side who can't see the light
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New Page - Topics - Testimonies
People think they all have something on me, like this is it, because people spread lies about me and appealed to others, perhaps forcing this.
People think they all have something on me, like this is it, because people spread lies about me and appealed to others, perhaps forcing this.
Did I do something unforgivable?
Me thinking to give a pastor at church a present or so is a bad thing? Why wasn't I informed? It's a rare thing in general. They must get lonely. What of these things?
Update
Page - About Me
People who are overly proud of not being white European should not assume just I am under them. They still look up to other people who are all white, no matter how much more racist than me they really are. I'm not racist, but I don't want to be a race other than white European or whatever is best.
People who are overly proud of not being white European should not assume just I am under them. They still look up to other people who are all white, no matter how much more racist than me they really are. I'm not racist, but I don't want to be a race other than white European or whatever is best.
Unaccepted, Unacceptable
I get all these strangers talking at me like they have to send me a negative message.
I can just see someone who would have been nice to me make up something and say, "No, Christina, you're not popular."
I can just see someone who would have been nice to me make up something and say, "No, Christina, you're not popular."
Friday, August 19, 2016
Edit
The Mothers
I guess Baby Boom moms were thought at the end to just be Barbie dolls with baby Barbie doll kids.
Edit: Like, they just make a good show.
I guess Baby Boom moms were thought at the end to just be Barbie dolls with baby Barbie doll kids.
Edit: Like, they just make a good show.
The Mothers
I guess Baby Boom moms were thought at the end to just be Barbie dolls with baby Barbie doll kids.
Edit: Like, they primarily make a good show.
Edit: Like, they primarily make a good show.
My Generation
I find my generation to be very indirect.
They also have a bubbly accent often.
They think Johnny Depp is dating age.
They also have a bubbly accent often.
They think Johnny Depp is dating age.
Dream (cont.)
I remember saying I started gymnastics at age 1 3/4 and starting to say I can do some ballet.
Dream
I had a dream I was with the Freiburger Barockorchester, and I was gonna play "I Dreamed a Dream" on the keyboard. I think I saw the conductor, too. It was some big gymnasium and outside was involved for me. It was probably dusk. Something happened twice where I didn't play. I was like in a choir and was feeling like I was getting taller and was behind everyone, tweens or young adults, who might have all been taller. Not sure what we would sing. Something that seemed strange maybe at the time was supposedly everyone but one person was with me the 1st 2 times or at least a handful. Someone seemed very real but when they supposedly said my name maybe not. They moved me behind the very tall people. I tried to keep thinking, but dream was over, I woke up. I could still feel the effects of the dream some, like waking up from seeing a ghost.
Pathetic, Pu-lease (Pathetic, Please)
People are trying to psych me into thinking I was insufficient in a past life.
TV vs Internet
I don't know much about the healthcare on TV, but I know when I'm ignoring something when something else is in my life that wasn't there before.
I actually stopped watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show. As of 2012 I watched every day. I like her. I just would rather watch something low-key.
I actually stopped watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show. As of 2012 I watched every day. I like her. I just would rather watch something low-key.
How It's Going
I seem to have it more uncomfortable than full whites, full Asians, and other mixed people.
It's an amazing thing. Not many people are willing to provide mixed babies. Think of the insight they can have when connecting to any other culture!
It's an amazing thing. Not many people are willing to provide mixed babies. Think of the insight they can have when connecting to any other culture!
Wasting My Life
I think people wasted their lives with an interest in things like healthcare or rather healthcare on TV.
I have goals in life and don't want to make the same "mistake" for me cuz I'm interested in and very into stuff like that on the TV, too.
I almost feel I need to live in a dorm to get myself bolted down into succeeding. 1 problem is this isn't like going around even staying in a hotel auditioning on piano to get into a myriad of colleges, only to chose the most selective in the end which had everything I could ask for: bachelor degrees in Music, a ballet minor, an honors program, etc. It's beginning.. violin!
Judging My Parents from the Past
People want to not only make my life better somehow blaming it on my parents but want to hurt me and actually make it worse, thinking I need to learn something when I don't.
Really, they don't know me well enough, no matter how smart they are.
Really, they don't know me well enough, no matter how smart they are.
Hunt Down
I've been beat with people saying if I wanted to be famous I deserve to know no one but that all the famous people deserve to steal all my personal relationships.
Tip
F.Y.I., whenever people come up to you and act like you have to like them, you only have to be however you like in general compared to anyone.
Cursing
If Ellen DeGeneres hates cursing, she should look online.
Same with anyone with a serious problem. It's not your right to say it means something illegal. Like, "Aw, shit!" Or when feeling out of the box, "That BAMF!" What in the world could it mean? Let's all go on strike and not curse and see what other problems make themselves noticed.
Ellen DeGeneres!.. She is a talk show host and they are all suggestive, it feels. Talk shows are generally the land of the cursing feel. Commercials are nasty and suggestive, too, like the one with Flo suggesting her favorite student is "Gwen" to someone else she was just comforting. What about the Aveeno commercials? She acts like we did something wrong and have to think whatever she wants. She is supported to be that way. Maybe, I'm just alone here. I do like these people, tho.
Same with anyone with a serious problem. It's not your right to say it means something illegal. Like, "Aw, shit!" Or when feeling out of the box, "That BAMF!" What in the world could it mean? Let's all go on strike and not curse and see what other problems make themselves noticed.
Ellen DeGeneres!.. She is a talk show host and they are all suggestive, it feels. Talk shows are generally the land of the cursing feel. Commercials are nasty and suggestive, too, like the one with Flo suggesting her favorite student is "Gwen" to someone else she was just comforting. What about the Aveeno commercials? She acts like we did something wrong and have to think whatever she wants. She is supported to be that way. Maybe, I'm just alone here. I do like these people, tho.
Thursday, August 18, 2016
I am dying and straightening my hair and growing it a bit longer. I'm getting it dyed very light golden blonde. It's going to be solid color and not highlights. I recently was praying for my hair to be darker in some way and I noticed underneath it was so black it was blue, but the highlights are light. I would just as well shave it off now so may as well do something about it. Also, it's for orchestra, so I stand out in a better way.
Does anyone have any advice or last words?
Does anyone have any advice or last words?
The Coolest Saints
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There are possibly fallen angels who have half human half angel hybrids, something God did not want.
There are at least 2 female angels mentioned together in the Bible. However, angels may not have a gender.
Maybe, another gender of angel exists if the fallen angels reproduce.
Are they cherabim and seraphim? Their definitions are ambiguous, the 1st supposedly guarding Eden and the 2nd being of highest order.
(link)
There are possibly fallen angels who have half human half angel hybrids, something God did not want.
There are at least 2 female angels mentioned together in the Bible. However, angels may not have a gender.
Maybe, another gender of angel exists if the fallen angels reproduce.
Are they cherabim and seraphim? Their definitions are ambiguous, the 1st supposedly guarding Eden and the 2nd being of highest order.
(link)
Minus Racism
Will racists be sorry and forget about racism? when they see how amazing the lives of other races are? Like, look at their territory.
Getting a Makeover
I want to get my hair dyed very light golden blonde and wear light blue contact lenses. I will let my hair grow to my shoulders. It is a little curly. I'm not sure what kinda shampoo to use. Maybe try Aussie or Fructis Garnier Whole Blends, which is relatively new. I was gonna use Pantene Pro-V. I've been using Fructis Garnier.
I hope someday to shave it all off and grow it out again. I have a Fedora.
I hope someday to shave it all off and grow it out again. I have a Fedora.
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