Monday, August 22, 2016

Subdued Negative Judgment

I feel like people think I am trash and I'm automatically out in their subconscious because I didn't start violin early enough.

That they focused on one thing comfortably makes them feel elevated personality-wise over others.

That doesn't sound very American.

Think of how much it crushes me.  It's like a poor black boy in Africa growing up wanting to win a beauty pageant.

I did wanna play flute.  I can feel some faint memory of interest in violin stifled and never seeing it performed especially interestingly.

I wanted to sing 1st, so I moved on there.  I did know what a piano was, too.