Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Worried

I get mad in private but don't want anyone hurt.  I guess I'm most worried about my parents.

People, even in public, are mean to me.  I don't usually get mad online cuz it's a place where you think things out.  Maybe, some people don't have to an they still get accepted for being popular and desirable.

I lost so much in my life.  I don't like waking up to this each day.  I didn't wanna wake up because of this, as usual.  They were going bat s*** crazy at me for what they saw me do in private, get mad in the bathroom while on the toilet..  Like, I'm in bed for, like, 12 hours, too.

I can't seem to solve the tension about me hitting my sofa etc.  People weren't this mean to me before.  It's unspeakable.  They can't expect me to be okay with it.  I want to ignore it.  I just posted about it.

I don't like making the sacrifices of my identity for others.

I don't think in the heat of the moment this turmoil concerns only their interests.

Do any of you ever feel invaded and upset.. like see friends go stomping off etc.?