You know, I don't feel I meant to do anything bad in life. I feel I'm being punished for playing baseball by a house and having the ball go thru a window, except I wouldn't play baseball unless I was in a baseball field.
Why are you testing me when I say even if someone was bad don't deserve to be mistreated cuz bad people have an explanation, they can blame other people? It's like my earnestly saying I'm not bad as a reason means I'm mean to people who aren't good.
Looks like I'm stuck being hurt all the time and for no reason. Didn't you ever have anything in life you respected? Like earning things others are jealous of? They think good people shouldn't need anything, like bad people don't get anything. That's not true! When you're good, you get things, and bad people can make fun of you for it.
They are saying that they already decided without being hypnotized that I have to suffer their meanness for no reason and that my trying not to is not okay. I can't have you thinking you know what someone thinks every other second and telling me what to do to a crazy minute point. It's just not so! You don't have the right values, anyway. You talk bad to me, yourself, if anyone thinks this is bad. It's my blog and my problems blog and here anything goes. Get your own blog.
You seem to think I just want/need to be stimulated.
I didn't really say what you acted like I did. You just know you're always as nice as needbe and then you "lie" or change truth about that later. No, I don't do that, that's not an excuse. You keep acting like I'm just "mean to 'my father.'" I'm not mean to my racist dad! He's Simon Legree.
No, I don't care how long you've been watching me. I've had to "secretly" suffer as "punishment" for no apparent reason. You use me like a toy and make me suffer without reward and am without money.