Thursday, July 2, 2015

I can't seem to stabilize my mood.

We don't eat supper like before and there are never any mashed/potatos.

I feel so bad for making a loud noise in the microwave in the kitchen with my parents and feel so bad.  I was upset.  My mind felt small and preoccupied, like I was wallowing in filth.

I also became upset in an experiment I could lose my parents.  I can't believe it's right that I have to worry about it, with the experiment.  I just can't figure out what I'm supposed to do without feeling like a goody good.

I also feel hypersensitive and cannot calm down.  It will take time.  I have no one to raise me and keep me in line.  My mom ignores me, and my dad ignores me, and the people on IMDb ignore my needs.

Well, I just had 2 pizza bagels and we were eating brownies earlier.  I ate out.

My parents keep annoying me, well my dad just seemed to bring a problem up from the day like I can't forget about it.  I think my dad is/being a bit ditzy.  I hope that he gets better.  I hope my mom is doing well, too.

I care about others, who are more like me, as well.

I'm not sure, I guess something came up I didn't like and kept being irritated and didn't learn anything.

I didn't mean to be hurtful.  I need more time alone.  Maybe, I could sleep soon.