I'll just know it's a silly rule that's not because of me.
This does not feel good. It feels very bad. Time is of the essence.
My situation is unique. There are people insulting me in my room all the time. They are along the lines of suicidal, meaningless noises, which I've heard before. So what if I was mad about what mattered? What does that "prove?" The noises disrupt my thinking, like my psychotic meds!!
I refuse to be added to the collection of people who should not have turned on the TV to see Ellen. That's why I don't watch TV, as of long before, other than old things. You have no right to set me up to get into trouble.
What about people lying to me, like I have eternal/lifelong punishment waiting, but I only find out about this later? Of course, I don't deserve that. I wasn't trying to start something.
You all just wanted me to look bad and get into trouble. You set me up. I had no help. You just stole the peace of my privacy, but I always feel that way when I'm finally alone still.
Maybe, this is the answer, but I know it is not my "fault" I did anything wrong. It seems I have to let people push me around and when I say something I get a negative reaction and like nothing matters all of a sudden.