What can I do to prevent these little bad things from happening?
I have a bigger picture, too. I guess any thing like this is big.
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Never get too mad without thinking. I was actually frustrated at complex feelings, part of it, and unfortunately was experiencing negative repercussions, to be honest, well, maybe good to say in case I did. I don't remember the negative thoughts but I ran across something, a feeling, I did not deal with and it just made it happen later not knowing why, it seemed. It's been happening. I need to get over myself? Well, with this issue.
I feel an onslaught of issues I cannot deal with. I'm just a preppy girl trying to stay positive and live a normal life, in ways.. this hits me like a turtle shell. If I have an issue with people in my mind is one thing, usually happier in public. Just an explanation of that point of view. And then in that turtle shell is a very thick skull. In some ways, I don't do much in there but have some memories left.