I guess I just can't believe I'd be in trouble and do things with keeping in mind it's about someone, like when I judge what to do, if something's okay or not or optional or not. Like, I don't base my judgments on winning over other than simply is it an option, okay or not. I did realize my mistake possibly. For some reason, what I do is never enough. I mean, realizing it was wrong was not enough. I think I was worried. I should have realized it was.. "unnecessary."
People are wondering if I should painfully feel submission to someone just because of something I did wrong, like read the wrong page in the paper or was too harsh on the dog. Well, it was something else. I don't really know what I need to do that is wrong right now.
They keep pushing me to feel submission to my dad, but I know it's just cuz I don't want to. I am already older and an adult. These things don't exist other than in perversion and pain. It's a mistake. In a way, I have nothing to do with anyone, like submission to parents.