I've got it down to "riddle."
You know, I'd be accepted if it weren't for you guys being so mean and getting even worse when I negate it in my head, like it matters. I already was accepted. I never initiate begging status. I get misjudged..
I don't know if there's something anyone who reads any of this doesn't like. I get relayed that I'm pompously rude, that I spoke directly badly to someone, but, anyway, that's what they think I deserve.
I got the message that it's just unfortunate and yes they are mean to me, but so is that person who made this not exactly work out for some people with weird expectations.