I cursed because I thought harmful noises were placed in my room, and they are. I got in trouble for cursing about something like that cuz I was watching Ellen and she seemed to act like she did it.
Now, people, for her, have been acting like before whereas I was treated like I was special not someone else is but like "over me" and every day I have to battle people being mean to me about it, as tho to them it's not happening. Well, it is.
I know they are taking away people I like and wanna meet, too, every time I get physically upset.. and they won't be nice to me like they can't.. but they're nice to others like this person. This person may have problems, but it was not the ones caused by them.
This person I think was supposed to go away in this way, but after I watched another show for something else it seems this person won't go away.
Did you know everyone in Orlando color coordinates their outfits to go along with symbolizing how good someone is but also otherwise how bad I am? What the H--- is this?! I went along with the suggestions at 1st, but now they have a hate color with me involved. They keep judging me and rubbing in I am like someone in a way I don't wanna be and that maybe they aren't just because my hair is dark. I know it's because I'm 1/2 Asian. I've seen other people with dark hair who attract attention "make it" in life. It's like hurting me will give them a chance.
Not only that. I became upset and squeezed things in my hand, paraded thru doors leaving people behind.. so what? No one is supposed to be that interested. I stomped my foot in private. People are watching me with hidden cameras. They like to make me feel bad. I thought of some bad words but was upset tho didn't mean them. I didn't say anything. They got all tacky and said some things I like a lot "aren't for me" but for that other person. This is getting ridiculous. The things I like go to that person cuz they think I'm not perfect. Well, that person isn't more perfect, neither. This is mostly what upset me, getting at me for waltzing thru a door with people behind and them getting upset a bad word came to me. I figured out that they are making fun of me if I don't think of something, like to take my time out for them, when they insult me and say I'm like other people in ways I don't wanna be!