You're creating weird fantasies to weird extremes about weird things, as though you've got nothing anyway in any way..
Apparently, they were right, something about you is "flawed" or rather not perfect..
I'm not the one making up weird things about myself! You can mention it, but I didn't think you'd want to.
I just meant day in and out things sure have come out differently than I would have expected things to before, like I'm trapped.