1. I remember a particular time when I was especially happy, and it was ...
when I had my 10th birthday. We were moving back up by Jacksonville (Northeastern Florida.) Actually, it was the city below and the oldest continuing city in the US, 2nd oldest. It had a lot of preserved parts. I was testing to get into a school, the oldest parish.
2. Sometimes, I felt really, really excited, but one time that stands out is when ...
when I did singing for a year of college. We had the end of year "juries." I've never felt better than right after I did it. I felt a lot of energy around me. It was so strong. Have you ever felt that?
3. I remember times when a person said something to me or treated me in such a way that it made a positive difference in my life, and one of those times was when ...
I had a theater teacher who I would help after class since it was last of the day. She would sit and talk to me like a good friend. I am still allowed to talk to her but don't, like I'm not ready.
4. A time when I felt really special to someone was when I ...
I had this English teacher. I was a perfect student, quiet in class with an A. I wanted to talk to her and talked about how I felt socially. She was like a friend and drove me home.
5. When I was younger, I always wanted to ...
perform. I loved music and dance and "was an artist." I wanted to sing with other people. I wanted to be good at art, at physically creating it. It really is hard to understand the vision.
6. What I desire most deeply is to ...
right now it's to be on the Dr. Phil show. Sure, I go to Disney World every week. I love my stuffed animals. I like posting online. This is just too good an experience to totally miss. Think of the honor.
7. If I could be or do anything I wanted to do, I would ...
probably have a DME in Music Education. I wish I had a college degree under my belt and that I was mature and bold enough to make that dream a reality without feeling inadequate.
8. I used to dream about myself as ...
I wanted to do musical theater. I wanted to get better in ballet, but it seemed like it would never happen. I was a gymnast partially and it was hard to remember the steps when I started. I just wasn't the same.
9. If I could learn anything, I would choose to learn ...
I try so hard to have good manners, but for people to treat me normally I feel I don't have something. I don't like ruining relationships, but I don't like pushing for them, neither. I want to get on without people telling me I'm no good for no good reason! That is they fault, tho.
10. What interests me most is (name at least five interests) ...
1-I'm very interested in painting things like animals and nature and probably at least sketching people.
2-I'm interested in how my voice used to be stronger and I'm trying to get it back.
3-I love the organ. It's so heavenly.
4-Ballet would be a nice thing to be good at and just general dancing.
5-I'd love to see what it's like to study graduate Music Education.
11. When I fantasize about myself, I am ...
Maybe a step behind or a step ahead. I feel more overweight. I feel lucky I'm not too fat. I am grateful for what I have that made me strong. Gymnastics classes really makes you different and it really stays with you.
12. I wish people would see me as ...
the person I used to be. No one could tell at one point that I was Chinese. I think they thought I might be Russian or German. I don't want anyone to mess around with me racially only to come to the wrong conclusion.
13. Before my life is over I want to ...
be in good shape and be happy and healthy. I want to be successful in something, maybe singing. I felt chased after like my desire to have a lead role in The Phantom of the Opera, as the main girl. I don't know who thinks that of my dreams, maybe think it's unfair if I got to do it.
14. If I could, I would dedicate my life to ...
Those girls out there like me who are just trying to make it, who are nice, mosty manage to be pretty and good-looking. People bad mouth and say they are inadequate, like they should have been more than one thing at once.
15. My secret desire always has been to ...
I didn't always have a secret desire. Sometimes, I wanna really get to know and impress other people, but it's hard to ever come by that opportunity. You just meet strangers and never become acquaintances.