Well, I woke up happy, as usual, and my parents had a bad attitude towards me. My dad is crazy and wants me to act self-hating that he thinks I did things wrong that I didn't.. I don't mean to think these bad words, but I think he quickly made me think them.
Something I just couldn't stand was that someone made it start that someone will always steal attention from me cuz I cursed about them on my blog, well at what they did I think moreover. I was taken aback if I did it at them and even had to use my dad as a scapegoat, who was really mean to me. I never tried to scar him when I did.
Something else is that they said I did something to deserve to listen to them act like they are some person watching me all the time.
Someone is mad and manipulative over my life, too.
The person they are acting as is false and annoying. She doesn't really do that, what they do as her, to me. I don't really wanna listen to this person being recreated in my room 24/7. They said I did something. I got upset on my blog. Someone's just a stickler for all caps and "all up in my business." They've acted like this person since mid-2012. It can't hurt anyone's feelings if I don't wanna do this. No one would really want me as that. I can admit it.
I'm upset at what's at stake. It might not matter to you, but it matters to me. They were at it, or my dad was, at supper. Whatever he did was annoying and I wanted it to stop the whole time. Did you know my dad is glued to my mom, as well as me, being attractive as girls? Yet, when I say something, he just ignores that and tramples over me. He thinks my mom is better and thinks I'm not cuz I'm related to him or maybe his mom or something. I dunno, I just come out for supper and he acts all large and in charge and manipulative. I feel kinda trained and affected by him. He doesn't do that to my mom, but he does something. It wasn't really all about something important, he was just really whiny, like he thought he could get close to me but can't or something, cuz he thinks I only deserve it in a way that he hates me. I'd describe his emotions towards me as a kid as more like a businessman, his hugs very "cool" and businessy. They don't have to dress up anymore, neither, I've seen in certain situations thru the years. I bet the girls are dressier than the guys, these days..
So, he was just kinda mad at me in general. Something was the issue near the beginning. I can't change what people wanna give to me, of course, but I didn't like what they claimed I did. How perverted.
I am a bit upset that my dad must be upset at me for thinking, like, "No, stop it," all the time. This is all very ridiculous, my problems, from people like my dad just wanting to be mean with no reasoning behind it.
I know what they are doing about that person, but they said I did something to deserve it. I'm not taking any of that from anyone. I don't know how to get it to stop, but I sure don't "accept" it. Esp. if it's all supposedly something I deserve. I know this person thinks that me and other deserve meanness. That's something else. They even said they were too embarrassed to say if something was wrong, as though they didn't know what was gonna happen.
It's a bit upsetting. Who wants to know someone with a life like mine? People think I'm either too old or too young. Can that be true? No one has to pay attention to me. When they do, I try to be nice, but some of them or a lot are older and I just can't provide some things. I have a great magnetation to people my age. On TV yesterday was a girl who looked my age talking about science and ghosts, in war. I think people don't realize all the time how bad war really is. It's not a service but a sacrifice.
So, I am always nice, but my dad keeps hurting me. My mom barged in when something seemed bad about me, and he was wheezy and said she needed her meds. I was upset but didn't really hurt her. She made it up. I just said it in a way that wasn't submissive and she tried to "suck out my soul.." I think it might be because my dad was there. I try to be nice to everyone, but I just couldn't ignore my dad's constant shuffling around.