I am fortunate to be able to write these summaries in my off musings.
I found this girl to be adamant but seemed to feel a bit empty, like an emptiness one get in one's eyes who yearn for emotion and a world of being popular and accepted by one and by all.
More.. It makes me think of myself. It makes me think of a lotta things that would take 'while to load. Er whatever. Load! Ha ha! I think people think we all need guidance from a psychologist. I don't know what I think about the meds.
His book sounds sweet. I'd like to buy it. I could get it on my Nook. Wait, it's not there. I didn't see it at B&N.
I feel I don't deserve much, like enjoying these shows. They are so good and available. Why don't people come to me? I'm like always online or out getting in shape! People need to learn to trust more people. They need to remember to enjoy life. To not think badly when they can.
You know, when I was in community college, I could not stand the way people were acting towards me sometimes but like they weren't doing it. I ran out when the teacher started and told people. She told me to stay. Once, I got so mad I kicked 2 boys's chairs, tho it seemed like natural. Not proud of this. I used to get snotty in public.. I guess I can't say I blame the teacher's and students's having an attitude and bothering me in how they act. Sometimes, they are real sweet. Now, I'm on meds which cripple my freedom, along with a curfew. My mom decided I take meds or else I get kicked out when I tried to leave and she said I wasn't ready, almost got a job in Miami I think as a secretary. I said we don't have money. They think I will be dangerous and just want me subdued, like under a tranquilizer.
I feel bad now about how I used to curse about whoever put noises in my room.. they did bother me.
I feel that I was loved too much. People think I am sheltered. Others are spoiled brats. There's 2 ways, apparently. I mean, my dad even believes he gave me the good parts of my voice. I wonder. People in the end may sputter I never did anything. It would be nice if others got this gift.
I don't know. On this sho', I think I said as much as I need to say..