It seems all the people my age and older have jumped onto the boat of narcissism.
Can I just say I am better? I don't get any of what other people do. I saw the marines accept Toys for Tots. I live for art, tho, and in a way it is suffering trying to make it. The only suffering I'd have in the military is not doing art.
What is so precious to these older selfish people? I am not saying it's anyone in particular in whatever ways I understand things like it but to include a feeling of the whole movement of trust in this narcissistic way of thinking. It is hard to find someone who doesn't follow this offbeat way of viewing the world. People around my age and older do it, I guess. I don't listen.
I watched a video of the Phantom of the Opera and was immediately reminded inside of Josh Groban. I read a quote by him saying you are either a rock star or an opera diva, the only other thing not being anything as "half singing" in the shower. I guess he is not much older than me. He has much to learn. I watched Chris Mann on YouTube, and he didn't say why this production of Phantom was massive cuz I think they are all equally significant to someone. Was he trying to make it cute and give a sorta multiply interested message? Most people would flip out that they aren't even a singer. People who sing would feel their talents meant nothing or maybe these other singers to me also seem lazy, too lazy to record ALW songs. They think they're better in opera. Just how "massive" is this one production that the rest don't matter? I'm getting some vocal training soon, and I could be Christine. That's the only role in this massive musical! for girls who sing. The only explored character, with hopefully well-paid supporting dancers, who all leave the theater door with an attitude like they did something better than you and should have been Christine. Well, that's how un-massive things are behind this, in ways.. like people not caring as much about it. Everyone thinks they care more in the audience, but they never figured out that they should take voice lessons. They probably aren't even in soccer! and have all that money and can sing on their own and in choir. I just didn't know to go to the auditions when I had Ellen to go to. It was good cuz I don't see how I could have made it yet. Maybe in a few weeks. I'd rather group up with people I like, but no, I'm not good enough, LOL not massive enough of a person..
About who deserves what.. if you don't show, you don't go. The kinds of people who show don't seem like experienced singers. What about real music? Doesn't it sound like how singing should sound like? People don't sing and they come surprised. Not me. No one cares how much I sing. How can anyone make fun of my singing when others don' t even match? You just want it better and better and can't even appreciate what's in front of you. I've sung, yes, I have, and I've wanted to. I just felt mixed up in things, like what's school for? By 28 and before, I figured it was unimportant. School for your work, just say it. So, about people who don't sing classically. They might still have a knack of beginner's luck. Maybe, they should figure out life or watch and figure themselves out of that life. They are so insulting, those people who don't sing telling me because I didn't have private training that maybe I cannot do it. That's not really true. You should have given me more time as a kid to sing. I don't think we had money. I did ballet, like everyone else, and gymnastics and baton twirling. Then, too much hw. hw hw. I didn't know school wasn't worth a shit. I feel I'm being picked on as I write about something that doesn't matter. You think it's just the fact I didn't take lessons as a kid. Did these other people? I don't know people like that who started before 15/18. Maybe, some teachers. You know, I learned from ballet and things to be a kid.
Point is people who don't sing think like I don't deserve to sing These people are controlling the level of connection as I write and insulting me about not singing in private lessons as a kid. I didn't know about them. I stayed in choir! I sang! You didn't. That's who I'm comparing myself with. I wanted to sing since 5 when I was in school. I sang for my dad and mom, but they didn't do anything like if I said I like ballet. Actually, I was in gymnastics, and it gave me the strength to sing! I did piano! What the *beep*! Chris Mann did piano since a little boy, and Josh Groban does know, too. It's like everyone's in piano, but that's not performing! Theater is acting. Dance is like music. And no I can't do gymnastics. I was good as it, and I like others carry my childhood with me.
I'm sorry, but I can't get these people to stop interfering when I talk about singing. They keep thinking I'm cheap and can't do it. I learned on my own and in choir. I had a lotta hw, true, but it gave me insight in life. You don't just robot and open your throat and let it pour out like water from a hose. In fact, people worry about singing teachers teaching like this. What do you think about that? And dance? And siblings? A long time ago, singers educated themselves. I was told to stop college singing. You think I don't know if I can sing? It could be better, but it is good compared to others! It's just fun. Too bad if no one fulfilled your dreams and you have nothing to listen to but yourself. What about a singer with no upbringing, no piano, no dance/ballet?? A dancer could beat them at it!! Like a musician dancing! Then, you have safe talents. Not the ones people produce in dreams.
Gotta run!