Thursday, September 4, 2014

Up

I just had some cereal for breakfast.

I was worried that when I do something my dad wants to be involved when I don't want him to be, like if something big happened, my dad also wouldn't "be there" for me.  I just feel like he's harassing me.  It's very possible.

What else?  I was sorry about some things I've done or said on my blog.

I did clean the beta bowl last night.  My dad sprayed for the spider this morning.

You know, my dad used to respect me.  I think it's when I cursed on my blog that he felt he had something.  That's too bad.  I mean, I was being hurt, and cursing came to mind.  I still would curse for fun.  I feel a bit disrespected, like, "Ooh, Christina stopped cursing so much."  Well, I don't want to.  If I did ever, I would.  I was mainly cursing about he noises, I thought.  You're welcome to copy and paste your argument onto my forum rather than swinging around making a mess like a monkey throughout my life.  Is that your goal, to always make me feel guilty, as a very good person, when trouble comes my way?

What else?  Wish I had some good music to listen to, tired of my singing now, which is still hurt from throwing up.

Also, I already was aware of what people were doing wrong to me, and I see they realize it like it's smart, later.  I know people just don't think much about some things.

Maybe, I'll make a breakfast muffin now?  Like with eggs|cheese|sausage, frozen.

So, why doesn't anyone realize I'm here to talk to so we don't have problems?  Lotta people out there I meet never find me online.  :(  I don't think you can network like that on Facebook, anymore.  It's like people wanna keep hurting me an never admitting I'm willing to talk it out.  Why would I be punished somewhat initially for doing bad in school when my life was an experiment which was supposed to end?  Also, why get mad at me for weird things very little?  I never felt that good about myself.  There are other things..

I'm also not happy with what made me think of this.  It's not a good thing to think.  There are some things about the topic that are good, of course.  It just doesn't relate well.  It's something I've been wondering.