I met the 2 princesses from the fairly recent Disney hit Frozen, and the younger one hugged me. When we took pictures, I put my arm around them.
So many other things come to mind sometimes about today.
I met a Japanese girl with a boy on the bus. We connected better than with Vietnamese and Korean. It might be because my dad is not Chinese.. maybe only Japanese is white.
I don't know if this sounds appropriate, but Lily Rose Depp gets treated with great respect for who her mother is, whereas I get spat at, maybe because I carelessly once revealed her age. I do know she must have issues with her dad. Like, she's not the spitting image of her mom. She's lost somewhere. I like her a lot, but I just thought of this. People supposedly "trust" my mom as the package deal and me as a failure in some way at any given moment.
I told Jackie Evancho about the role of Christine Daae. She did sing from it. I told her she was too serious. That is just because I would not back down on the role if I beat her. If someone were better and more worthy, I'd root for them and go. We seem to imagine the unspoken which traditionally needeth to be spaketh. We imagine some 16 or 17 year old with lush honey blonde hair who can sing like an opera diva! We can't find said person, but we know she must exist, like the opera ghost. She deserves to be the next big sensation. No one found me when I was deserving of singing something important. I was struggling to make ends meet. They stopped teaching me singing in high school and college. I was on my way both times. School made it hard, and school is supposed to be important to develop you into an interesting person but apparently not.. I've never heard anyone who I think could do justice to the role. What about the 2 Christines from the DVDs? Why aren't they acclaiming themselves from it? Was it even that big a deal to them? Is it something they alone deserve? I wanted to be in a local production of it. I partly doubt they will do a 30th anniversary. They could. I almost feel they said they wouldn't do another. They might make another DVD. I heard they might of Cats. I'm working on my singing. I want to get in some production of The Phantom of the Opera. I want to make a CD of all the singing parts, which is something I am doing now for an agent teacher. I am lucky I was referred meekly. I think that will earn me a living. I could sing for anything. I'm adaptable. I will get up there. This is so exciting this musical exists. The national tour is holding auditions this month, and I'm not prepared. It's in NYC, too. They also didn't respond about her age.
..So, I practiced, and the expression has come to fruition because it's there in the singing and the acting. I do care about other people who wanna sing, but like it'd be nice if I could sing now and get it over with for what it's worth to anyone. All I can say is I need another lesson or to develop the strength of my throat and to use it more. I have potential. It's like art, chiseling away at a piece of rock or whatever is is.
Like, I can see them chosing a young girl with plenty of talent, but what if I overshadowed her?
Will they even do a 30th anniversary? There was no info. online. To be in a production of it is good enough. I feel as though my voice is more for recording. Choirs tend to record. If anyone can get famous as a singer, I think so should I, from what's out there. Baby steps. Fun for me. Me! Me! Me! ..Me! It's an art and sharing and expression. I don't feel popular in some way. Perhaps, my inner image of me singing is not developed, actually. I feel with others it comes alive. They tell you to participate for reasons such as this. I am working hard to keep up my voice so I can use expression to its necessity. It's building. I wonder if my diet is okay. I think sleep and nutrition will be good. The expression just came. I try hard and something happens. In Orlando, it's hard to be natural. I try.
At least, I can probably do that CD. I am also waiting on info. about getting a license to perform it online for free. I feel I want things, but I don't feel it so much as like what it is more as I remember and think about what I want as opposed to what I'm doing. My lessons start in January now. She brings back memories of college, the teacher.
I don't really know what other goals I'd have, but this is taking my time now. It's for the art, not a trophy, which I have a lot of. It's also to be famous, something I want, anyway. I want to get on the ball. I need alternate goals after the CD. Maybe, I will find my way into film if nothing opens up for me in group singing. Maybe, I will get into animation. I am an artist. It's also a personality type.
Think about this now. How much is Sarah Brightman worshipped? It's wonderful. Did she ask for it? No! I'm not saying others don't deserve it. She got the part in a musical luckily of a cute little cat.. Josh Groban. He is adorned with love of supportive fans worldwide. Can I top like that? Could I? Yes. Now, we all ask. why? Why not anyone else? The question they need to answer has the answer that they think they are better than people they aren't better than that the world knows exists. I mean, it's not a contest. I think that people should remember that in high school or elementary school, we had reputations and accomplishments in the end. We can't go around saying we are musically talented when we have never done music, and that's the sort of thinking that's going around. It's not about taking from others. It's about connecting the dots. Who else has it good? I dunno! I don't know if this thought process is appropriate, but it goes on in the slums and sewers of the US or Orlando.. Go further, Ellen DeGeneres. It's all about the past and not about what we do that isn't famous that would go to tops in the world when revealed. We'd love to see people in films to get it over with, not really to keep! If we want to dispose of people like that, that shows we are just hurting people and not appreciating what they've done in life.