I can't tell anyone to return.
I just wanted to make a "sincere apology" but for my stupidity and disgusting-ness. I do not claim to have done anything wrong in intent and specificity. Why? Cuz I didn't. The anger was a side-effect. Other people influenced me. I just wanted counseling. I didn't get it. My therapist did read it at the end. I sing for her every time.