Upset

I'll try not to get mad like that, but it's not like other people get called the n word like that.  I don't want to feel bad all day about it.  There's nothing wrong with saying so.  Why call me the n word?  I have to accept that?  Why are they harassing me about everything?  I said I'll go along, but I can't really support it other than that it may be a buffer and not really matter in and of itself..  :(  Is this some sort of joke?  If you don't like me, you don't have to concern yourself about me.  Lotta people seem to like me..which is good..  The thing is I didn't really hurt anyone nor think of it.  I was just trying to deal with it.  :(  I guess I will try to ignore it.  Sometimes, it seems it has suspicious motives.  In the end, there must be a reason, but why can't I seem to forget about it?