My "New" Life?

What is it about these, like, "crazy" adults sizing up my picture saying I amount to nothing.. I am 1/2 Chinese.  Does that give me a chance?  I mean, I look white and pretty good considering!  People just submerge to the next depth and say that makes it worse cuz they're racist.  It's like they expect a shitty stereotype from us.  A sorta haggard looking sagging face with bleached highlights and a haggard smile to go with it.. not even encouraging the pretty blonde look rare people have.  Like more slicked back bleach highlighted hair and a sorta triangle look to their face which is strong and slick.  I've seen at least 2 English girls in speaking roles who looked like this on TV, 1 was a popular New Year.