Tuesday, October 21, 2014

I C UR DOODOO

You're all flipping out that Ellen is like the greatest because she attained blonde hair and can flail around in party all the time, while the rest of us sit out.

This diarrhea is all over!

No offense to Ellen herself.  She's just a sweet, young, and part Askenazi Jewish girl.  She follows the negative crowd at times, but who doesn't??  :p  Did I say "young?"  HA!

I think the light hair is another attribute that makes Ellen so loveable.  Her brother is a boy, so maybe the black hair fit him and seeing as how good his sister came out.  He's already a product of intelligence.  He seems martyrlike and that he outdoes Ellen.  Here comes a flood of girls who are the oldest in their families shreeking out that they're the oldest..  :p

Now, the hair thing bothers me cuz my hair was not light much for long.  I wonder if I was considered ugly, even, by the time I hit Pre-K.  I think so.  My parents should have took my hair more seriously.  Why didn't the kids like me for how good I was, though?  Black hair was not considered out.  It seems Ellen's brother is there for a flirting toy, and I don't mean it in an unkind way, just that it seems she supposedly tried to live with all the drama and not realizing that these people she might sneer at don't have all the drama.  Really, it's miserable when it sinks in how dark your hair is.  Also, I wanted my chance to be pretty, but I grew up and it feel like it's too late.  I'll have to spend possibly over $60 recoloring my hair and $30 more for fixing products!  What I most want is to maybe grow it out again and try to get it lighter, but I might stick with this trying to be like Ellen until who knows when.  I just have to spend more time on my hair if and when I shave it again.

I see you were selfish to protect Ellen that I'm not worth it because of my dark hair and you don't even want me to say it.  Go ask my parents.  I think they wanted me to do something else to get my hair light, but they have dark hair and I didn't want them to be able to ever beat me in any way.