Even if I say, okay, I'll have those old friends in my life, which makes no sense cuz I was gonna.. but they wouldn't write to me that soon.
I just don't like how when I do something it means I'll never live life as a person without being bugged about it. Like, I see everything has gone to them for me spamming them advice cuz I was worried. Actually, it was cuz I didn't think of getting a blog most of my life. I just knew it wouldn't be perfect. I wasn't always too late, but I feel invaded of my privacy because of Tim Burton for some reason, like my writing is so shallow and and not very personal.
Who are the ringleaders in being mean to me for stupid stuff? I didn't spam spam. I just spammed. I had no one to talk to, like nowhere to go (no car at least and no money,) and nothing to do. I'm sorry if you are a ringleader and I called it stupid. I really am not the kind of person you think judging by minor mistakes. Why is it that it's such an accepted joke all of a sudden not to be interested nor aroused by me cuz I'm 1/2 non-white? You get aroused by non-whites.