So, my concern is the style I have from the birth year my dad was born, that people born before and after are better yet not as special. The other concern is his having Jewish last names around Germany, so guessing it's prevalent in German-Americans, maybe especially from the Pennsylvania area. He's also Native American, probably, which would pose as another issue. In Orlando, it's been hard unraveling the rest of the mystery. I just don't come compact from his side, I guess, but my mom is like that. So, for me, I have a mom like most people's dads and a dad like most people's moms, so it seems cool. However, I get the feeling no one and Ellen DeGeneres don't really "like" me, just find me accomplished, like I'm lucky or have a good last name and nice supplementary names and my mom. I always thought I was my mom to the world. I think my dad is a good person but not an attractive 1 but entertaining in a way that is beneficial and educational. I'm pretty much at a loss from who I was. I became a different stereotype, and now I'm kinda nothing. I used to be interesting and alive, and I wish to be young again. I just wasn't so juicy and bubbly. I was authentic because I was just ½ Chinese. I was sorta put behind a glass case of untold perfection. My dad was white, so everything was okay in the New Orleans area. I can't believe Ellen DeGeneres is not like this. Like, she is allergic to it. I know I am. I never thought being Native American indian helped me with the Chinese other than being not racist and to add another Asian culture. People thought my mom just was not that attractive and was a midget. She grew old after we were born. So, I guess that didn't work out too well. Then, people were interested in non-Americans + non-Latinos. Black people are very violent and for some reason seem American. I'm just guessing that there are other people who don't want to be American, like the Native Americans. Like, they can't seem non-American to just real Africans. They lost their culture. Anyone would have. No one cared about a British accent on the surface. It only got in the way of America. Any American accent was desired. People coveted my mom's grace and were envious of her strength. I just extracted the goods from my dad. However, now, I have racial problems from my mom that are desirable over other non-whites. However, my dad is not as sexy as my mom, so I'm not like as sexy as I thought I was. People encourage my dad to be sexy, and I'm not my dad. I had a good relationship, but then history happened. I had a hard time in junior high, Catholic, homework, wasted classtime, so much. Also, it was about me not having enough physical activity. I was afraid to do modern dance, and my mom only let me do ballet 1 day. She thought maybe I'd do something else, did cross country. It was a huge thing, dance team, but I found out having natural blonde hair is an asset. Maybe not white. I don't know anyone with a sexy dad, maybe my cousin. However, her mom encourages her to be mean to me. My cousin wants to be how she is. She is under the curse of our family. Please, let me out of this world, you only encourage the rest of them.