I got the idea that, blatantly, my dad thought he was like right and better than everyone else or something I forget oh yea and he doesn't care how he treats other people, like pointing out nice ones, thinking he's smart and moving things along. I'm so sick of this. I wanted to grow up in the west, in Hollywood. I don't throw away my experiences. }:) Like, he thinks that like I'm worse than shit and it seems others think I'm not even a nigger, but that's not true and that didn't have to happen. Like, I get the feeling he's staring others down, and he doesn't know it. We shouldn't give in to shit like that. I hate you all! I'm just gonna *beep* you!