She could have..

..hid from society.

We can't all just die.  I know she had an excuse.

The End of the 80s Was Marked By

Karen Carpenter  :|

When people don't show..

..you learn to underestimate them.

Update

I starred off 2 songs on my website.  I -really- lost my voice.  I never said I -was- a good singer..  Everyone else says that when I sing.

The funny thing is..

..I -have- always liked singing.  I wanted experience badly. I had to do also gymnastics as a kid for exercise and later on piano to learn music.

Problem

My mom always comes in and stares at me with a sarcastic grin and like cuts in after ideas like she thinks I gave in.  I am not shit!  I am just as cute as someone with a dad 10 years younger.. my mom might be young.

Problem

Ellen wants to ultimately hurt me.

So, what is it now?

Age?  Popularity?

I found..

..my voice sounds too strained.  That means I have no voice.

I only got..

..1 chance to guess how to be good and that chance has fleeted away, though technically I was not bad..

Apparently

You need to be famous for Ellen to think you are worth something..

Should I care @ my parents?

Our relationship.

My dad thinks I'm stupid if I think I don't need to be punished just for walking in the kitchen.

It's bad enough..

..Karen Carpenter died.  How am I supposed to be happy, now?

Problem

What now, did you think @ my little brother, like having a fetish, literally??  Stop telling me everything I say is wrong.  Just forget it!  I'm just talking @ something.  You did something.

If..

..Ellen felt like a kid like me is also another thing.

Problem

Stop acting all iffy as if that's not how it is.  So what if I'm still a kid?  I'm living my lost life from high school and elementary school.  :|  Why don't you just stop being mean to me!

Why..

..doesn't Ellen just get that she's older than these people on her show, these kids or young Hollywood stars?  I mean, she makes fun of people with 1950 dads born in the 1980s.  I didn't say she was my mom but that she was the right age at the time to be 1.  As for with me, I mean I wouldn't ever make fun of a kid for that.  For me it was like 12 and I was old enough to be a mom, though I still was a kid.  So, I dunno, but it just makes sense as a long time ago people were moms at that age.  So, this is just new, and I mean I just find it a joke to say otherwise cuz it'd just make me mad.  I think it would most.  What if Ellen was born in the 1980s?

Funny Things

Why does Ellen try to make me feel guilty @ what other people do?  Stop acting like I'm just a 1950 person.  Ya'll'll pay for this, obviously.  She's old enough to be my mom but instead thinks she's the cool teenager, showing off like I'm stupid and should die.

...

Well, that's mean, and I catch things like that that others do.  She seemed nice, but she just called me a nigger.  I could tell by the way my camera turned off.  How do they code that in?  You think I'm worthless because I don't know how to do something like that?  It's too bad because it's important to know about things like that and they got me upset over its usage and will just use it against me.

...

I dunno, I said what I said and I don't deserve to be punished.  I was upset and some bad words back hit, though they just popped up in my head as I lay down.  I felt so bad when my dad came in and I feel m..

I don't want Ellen to get out that I'm shit because I'm not my dad.  If she were her dad that'd mean something, wouldn't it?  You can't judge who I am by my parents.  I am not fat and I am not gay.  Nothing wrong with being fat, but you think I can't be skinnier because of my dad.  What's with all these twig girls?  You just think my fat is my dad, stop touching me!

Problems

My dad and I were going somewhere, and I got ready.  I just lay on my couch to take a quick nap.  It discouraged me from my excitement @ Karen Carpenter when he came and was like .. hello are we going .. not typical of him to do most times.

I know I got a message from Ellen when my camera turned off.. just to say I'm a nigger.  I just said something @ her that wasn't bad, like that I don't drink.

Now, my head feels empty but groggy.  My mom stopped in, too, after..  I dunnow what's wrong with my dad, he's just a fatboy.  That is to say, everyone is pushing me to him when we've had a reserved relation.  They want it to be like he's Ellen and I'm the fatty.  I dunno, don't think he needs to change and diet too much so that he's just skinny skinny.  I'm just saying, I am a propa woman, and they're like throwing pie in my face over my dad all the time.  He's not really "Fatty."  I feel like I'm up late or something.  I feel like I ate fat today, which I did.  I feel like a picture of my boy sibling.. I don't want it.  It's him like my dad!  No, I don't need my dad to justify my looks.  That's just an insult.  You didn't say something nice.  You just said he was fat now.  Go away.  You wanna "do it" with your own dad like that?  He's not to be in my life!  I had a fine life!  Well, don't be a dummy and think I won't talk to him or something, but he doesn't "have to be the 1."  What if we did this to you?  Ijust don't like it in that way.  I'm not gonna describe what way, but a way you did.