Sunday, August 30, 2015

Manipulation

People born in 1950 live to manipulate those younger, and people a bit younger live to manipulate their babies.

It's all mighty unpleasant and nonsensical.

"Outta Sight" but Not "Outta Mind"

People act like their childhood experience would be colossal in Florida.

Kinds of "Love"

Do some people think that life is about all exchanging motherly and daughterly love with nothing in the middle?

Sheltered

Ellen grew up with New Orleanians being fed everything she needed at every moment to come up with the right answer, when she would be inquired upon.  Like a baby.  Probably "developed" late, actually.

Stereotypes

It's easy to stereotype Jackie Evancho, Taylor Swift, Christina Aguilera.. somewhat nerdy with white hair from Pennsylvania.

Did you realize that girls think "nerds" are like the cutest?  It doesn't mean you should wear glasses.

Ellen

Ellen was surrounded by love and pleasure, as a child, everywhere she turned.  That's "what" she does for us, gets "pleasured."

She was a lot cuter in the pictures with mostly/all white hair..

"Not a Toy"

I'm not the toy you can enjoy just because you're not Marilyn Monroe nor like another "successful" celebrity.

Like, messing with me is the reward for not being famous.

A Piece of Trash

I'm considered a piece of trash who needs other people to pleasure her, even fundamentally.

Loonies

Wanting me to pamper their younger kids.

Twitter

I'm not listening to someone who waits for someone else to listen to other than me.

Looks like you had something..

Pennsylvania and L.A.

Trouble

Why is it a thing to say I get that that I'm in trouble cuz I'm not!  Everyone isn't in trouble!

Remembered!

I feel so much better after having a sandwich!  Glad I finally got some cold cuts!

Wronging Others

You just act like each young person has to have a fault so you can get off not doing anything you're supposed to do.  You're not getting past me on this one nor getting the "best"/"popular" people to agree with you.

What do you have to lose?

What's anyone who's given approval got to lose?

You can just sit there, thinking only someone else deserves to be in trouble and saying "no" to others bettering themselves, only to make yourself seem to fit in in ways no one even should.

No!

You can't be the one in the right and not me!

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Bad Punishments

You can't degrade people just because you intend for them to feel that way and say it's a punishment they deserve.

People don't do things thinking it's for bad people.  They have to be made happy.

A Lack

I ended up terribly lacking in this experiment.

Racism

They are mean in New Orleans now, not accepting anyone who's not white like they're bad, going deep..  It's what sparks the collective conclusion.

Aha ha ha

On TV, they acted like a black girl who wanted to live as white had a ^problem^.  You can't judge someone because of what their parents are.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

It sounds like no one is on my side except "the odd one out." Most people believe in racism because it will at least affect someone else of a minority race, like getting back at their own kind.

I prefer to be called white > I accept you as white. 

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

It kinda affects me more cuz as a 1/2 Chinese/Asian-Indonesian, people all want Indonesian but not the people in it unless they bow down to them..

I didn't do anything illegal! I was born in Southeastern Florida. 

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

No one believes in segregating partly because of things like mixed race and its value when you find a good one, like Johnny Depp. 

More

They think my life is not in limbo and I have to suffer because of my dad, when I said, "Oh, no," when he came home about not finishing my homework.

Guess what I found?

In the TV show about Katrina from November 2005 I found they said "Bella Thorne" and "Spanish."  They like them over me cuz they're from a hot climate and New Orleans is very French.

Bella Thorne started acting in something big I know I think 2011.

Racism

I was accepted as a person despite my race.  I know that other people seem like screeching and howling maniacs about race with nothing to offer at the table.  That's not good because if they had nothing to offer they shoulda gone white, problem solved, nothing to miss.  About the misbehavior, I feel it has been something I've had to pay for.

Becoming Famous

So, people think you have to be self-centered to be in Hollywood.  Some people are raised to be that way.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

You mean like disciplining them? I bet people from Europe have come here more welcome but not recognizedto be so compared to others, even. 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

For the same reason why it's considered anti semitic to speak against Israel.

I believe it's called "political correctness".

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

They sound like they built their life around beating other races down and into violence.

29/f/Orlando

TV

Katrina

They all were thrown *beep* at when they had to disperse from Katrina and people who lived there who were moving up but have no ancestry there.

Like, all you people getting mad at how I think and even thinking I can suddenly in trouble are bad.

Point

Why do people wake up when they find someone of a lesser race has it more together emotionally and ***ually and say, "No, I have to remain on top."

I also see..

..my dad has trashed what I learned in New Orleans and wants me to do stupid things because he's not from the South like me.

Problem

I'm watching a talk from Hurricane Katrina time in New Orleans, and I found "everyone knew" I was really ^punished^.  My dad ran around like Mighty Mouse and went and made sure no on in the world would "accept" me.  This is for saying, "Oh, no," when my dad came home.  He didn't say anything, so maybe he had a reason.  I wasn't done with my homework.  He should've asked why I said that cuz he knows I'm good and was a hard worker.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Why is it considered racist to oppose illegal immigration?

Because people turn on too much to the opportunity to say something bad about another race. 

I've made the decision.

On Try Food Lovers, the commercial show, a lady who looks like Ellen knows somehow that I'm not accepted by Ellen-look-alikes just for being mad and hitting things.. after she acknowledges that she opens her arms up wide saying she's almost 70.

Me Today

2:40

Problem

You can't flip me out because Johnny Depp "changed the world."

TV

Managing Asia

Here's greatness for you!

Is Bella Thorne the crowned leader exemplified for Latin Americans?

She makes a wrong move, it gets fixed.

I know..

..she doesn't deal with her identity as a Latin American in addition to a white American.

Americans Messing Up Nonwhites

Americans mess up the English accent of people who are not white who know it in the English accent.

Question

Why does Dr. Phil act like he's doing a favor by not "achieving"/"reaching" something, like in a way you want/prefer to be European?  He acts like he coulda beat the whole world and Johnny Depp, but he, like others of his wishful league, said you or you all wanted not to be cool so he decided to do what he did for you.

Europeans

It seems they get excited when they get to show off next to someone who's not European, like m********ing or having an o*****.

Me

Way too old and old-seeming to have a baby, plus on psych meds which affected my hormones and female thing.

Me

I still get treated like I'm a kid in some ways.  How is that?  It's probably that thing I've been saving somewhat subconsciously.

Interests

I am interested in being an oboist, but I also think surgery is a good field - ER, tech/engineering.  We need more in healthcare, including exercise programs and knowledge of things like the vitamin extracting blenders.

I don't make dumb mistakes.

Anyone of any ethnicity would want to move to a cold part of the mainland.

I could shoot for Italy, but I'll just know someone else made it up north.

TV - Healthcare in China

It's very demanding.  Those on top look good.

An obese lady's husband is set to die in 10 days.

A work looking woman has an ill, baby-looking 2-year-old, I think girl.

TV

Healthcare in China

Did it bother you?

Ellen - making dreams come true

I didn't expect to be so discovered so many times, but it came about as infamy, an insult.  Somehow, maybe because of Ellen saying I'm cool, I was given a chance.

Bella Thorne "comes along," I followed her online.  I often said people/she likes to act like she's your friend to get ahead and leave you in the dust with more points for her.

I was fortunate to see some wild animals which I'd hope is just one in a million, and it seemed like they were talking to me, like on TV.

Now, people, also go around the world to other civilizations.  Bella is in the lead, and things are going.

Ellen does not think what she did to me was right, but upholds me to things, like thinking it was fair.  Bella's dreams are coming true, and for some reason it's as though she always wanted this.  I didn't really get this.  She didn't seem into Ellen's kinda melancholy, nostalgic stereotype until she got on Shake It Up.  She used to have 2 obediently following cute, "beady" eyes, a strangely flattened face, and more of a stub nose.

It looks like Bella took on the stereotype by storm.  I don't know if her dream "beats out" that of all others in relation to Ellen.

So, I'm in trouble, and now it's an easy package to "hand over" to Bella.

I figured it out.

People from Pennsylvania yearn to be rescued to another state in the U.S.

Problem

They are acting like suddenly I can't meet prestigious people.

Music

I find I am back where I started.. I wanna play an instrument, maybe oboe.  You have to make it your life.

I wanna play for musicals etc. but also wanna still sing and dance.  Maybe I can act or host a show or something when I'm older.

Misjudging Me

People are acting like I'm perverted cuz they're insecure.

Disclaimer

I'm not making a big picture of Ellen being upset at me, just saying she really smiled as she sorta tossed me aside.  Who knows why?  I can't do that and get away with it.

I'm not trying to fight..

..I just wanted to talk about it in case I had an interested audience.

More

Big things happened because I was lonely and kept e-mailing people who did not respond.  I felt suicidal. Not technically, but you know, crazy.

My life was pretty flawless.  I went on a break, and these things were made into big topics to go by.

"Consequence.."

Make my life hard and beat me up for it, people in general.

Did you know there are signs in movies and Disney World?  It's followed suit that Bella Thorne gets *** and I get dis'd with *beep*.  They are putting me with/as various people I do not want, the secret messages, which may be inappropriate in a way to talk about.

It's a pretty big thing.  They don't care.

Just giving the inside look.

Judging People

Do you know the stupid things people think are wrong with me?  It doesn't matter, anymore.  My life was ruined.  I didn't do anything mean nor illegal.

Why does Ellen suggest younger people and more "unattractive" older people in general are prey to her judgement of not being good enough?

She really trashed me with a smile, at 1st.  I don't really take that from anyone.  So, I felt upset about it.  In the end, she acted overbearing over me, without much success.  The world was against me cuz I thought someone wanted me to call someone the N word.  I'm just an entity to her she trashed with a smile over and over.

Then, I must add, there are illegal hurtful noises in my room and I cursed about them.  She acted like she did it.  I cursed at my dad cuz that was Ellen's excuse for hating me.  I cursed at her a little then, bleeped it out mostly probably, but this was out of a lot of being annoyed.  I turn around, and my life's over.

I'm just delivering the 411.

My life is downsized because of others who hate me.

Friday, August 28, 2015

Music vs..

They care about what regular people in classical music/musical theater/etc. think more than most people.  When it comes to real life, it's acting.

Audios of Me @ Disney


New Picture of Me

:D

Well, nighty night!

Responsible

I feel I am responsible someone does not feel inappropriate things, but I'm not in control of the world.

Thursday, August 27, 2015

And I know..

..the US is very mixed.

I just don't..

..like acting like I have paranoia schizophrenia, cuz I have it!

May I suggest..

..shaping up?

Well, the problem..

..is as an American I tried to be European, and all I can get from that is I have European heritage from my mom.  People all want me not to get it, bu they can.

Late Boomers

Is it just Late Boomers that can be assertive or is it something to do with it's always a person your directing your thoughts towards, which it simply isn't.

Fair and Thin

Being skinny and fair young seems like the thing to do.

Ha Ha

and you're probably glad I was inspired by that Irish singing I just posted.  Why is that the one country we're all tired of here?  Ha ha.

Well

It's time.  You need to accept my mom is not from America and people from Europe are interested in my life experience.  Why are you getting in the way now when yes I was so nice to you??

Ellen's dad I read isn't American.  You all reserve interest in her, whereas before you were respectful to people around my age.

I know people from old America are prestigious, and by now you probably know that's what people support and want of "Europeans."  Americans probably identify themselves as European and their bubble is going to burst and the things they did in vein against their fellow countrymen..

Give it a rest!

I'm watching the juicing commercial show and they keep talking like this is the boy with fungus on his nails with a dad born in 1950.  It won't stop.  They won't "shut up."

I guess they're just on a roll.  I didn't notice this before.

cont.

Need/Can I say more?

Problem

No, I'll just say I'm not bad and you're basically a liar.

Problems

Why am I just seeing my life go?

It's that again.

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp made the world racist and it's affected me a lot.  I also moved to a racist place.

I used to just be a normal person.  I was literally pulled from my world and unhelped.

Dr. Phil

I'm not stupid, but Dr. Phil tried to make me feel how I didn't want to feel from anyone.  Proves what I've been thinking, that he has an issue.  I just feel like he was really mad.  He needs to get out.

Plus, he was just making fun of me.

To get to the point, I think there's some thing going where he wants to unwantingly stimulate people who are just innocent in the crowd or who think they can make it as a true #1, rather than just any popular people.

I don't like what was contagious/caught on about/from him and I dedicated myself to giving his show a chance, but it's just too much time.  I heard he took off his videos online, but I don't believe that.

He needs to take his own advice he adamantly gives on his show to boyfriends.

If people want to know, I'm not that kinda person more than others.

I don't see why people are just blindly pushing me without looking nor thinking.

I feel threatened.

Feelings

If you don't wanna be outsmarted, don't draw the wrong kind of attention and get the right kind.

Wow!

Another Example


Guess folk singers in their prime are better..  Opera singers are in their prime in their 40s.

Girl Singer



Notice, she looks like she's older than me in how she moves and acts, probably copying cool adults who are younger than my parents.

Dark Hair

I figured that with people with very dark hair it's like with race, they want people who accept they're not fair.  They don't care if you're attractive.

Korean Folk Singing - Kid

Bathroom

I was thinking if you don't feel like going to the bathroom, then don't.  That'll be when you hold it.

Dr. Phil

Why would he prevent you from identifying how you want and pursue you and try to surround you with a sensation unwanted?  How do these decisions get made?

I just saw him show up in Entertainment TV and he spread a sensation of feeling off.

I think he's a cool guy with a cool show who needs to focus on it better.. but he seemed to influence my moving on to not work out on the onset, according to plan, with someone I like.  He also seems to have then pursued me like there's something wrong with me, which is what  upset me.

I auditioned..

..didn't know it was a capella.

I coulda submitted online but was convinced not to.

I am so jealous. - Yesterday

Getting Ahead, Some

Are white people bad or knocked out to be bad?  Black people are always there like they were able to follow out of pity.

What?

I see people on TV acting like I'm a monster of badness like they're all refined.

Your Inspiration

What happened along the road that was funny that made you wanna be an attractive talk show host??

I thought of a lot of things that weren't quite it: be popular.. I could be an actor to do that.. in the end it was about being available to people and I guess what led me 1stly was to be competent emotionally and active.  Think of how special you are to each person.  I could really meet people who count in my life, yay!  Internet, make-a no money, so TV!  I realize movies are more carefully crafted.  Like, you practice a long time for one thing.

Bag of Jokes

I don't have a list of things like oh mention something and Christina is in trouble.

Parents

My dad used to hug me with care, but now he's just constantly m*****ing me.

My parents used to act like they prepared me for love in the world, but now they are all that world is.

Important Diet Tip

You could salad your life for a temporary weight loss to keep that at that weight.. but will it be not waking up in the morning with hunger pangs and unhappiness, lack of nutrition and juice, later?

Sacrificing

I'm not here to completely sacrifice my life for babying people who are older than me who "don't like to work."

Education

They're being nonsensical about education and saying it's based on liking any person who has a degree, but it's not it's open to anyone to go beyond in in some way.

Dr. Phil

Dr. Phil thought Tim Burton was below him, and I was shocked he was allowed to be ecstatically mad.  Now, I know he's trying to be like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, which seems weird in a way..

*Beep*

I swear, like everyone is like so mean to me.

Problem

Why does, like, Disney think I need to be disciplined?  I already am.

What's this nonsense?

Someone's "symphony?"

IMDb - The Soapbox

If you had to chose a foreign language to brighten your future..

..of/which one/s would it be?

I think, as am American, any European language would do.

I think it's in it mostly for countries like Germany to learn Norse. I sorta was into English and German things growing up some.. So, I'd say Norwegian/Finnish/Russian/Swedish/Dutch.

I also like having French culture.

I'm learning Finnish and gonna learn Russian for a song, too. I have a little book on all the Scandinavian and Russian etc.

🏩🏩🏩🏩🏩 

Edit

I edited the post about the movies to take out a certain word.