Monday, January 6, 2014
Sunday, January 5, 2014
When I Essentially Lost the Essence
It was when I got off my diet up north during the hurricane. I was hearing things.
Cravings
I do believe in eating and a balance. Like, I'll have pizza etc. Sometimes, I just go and eat what I made. Well, have had conflicts with that choice of lifestyle, as well. I found even Cinnamon Toast Crunch made me a bitch.
I finally decided..
..I also had New England Clam Chowder.. I wanted to have turkey dinners, things like that. It didn't work out after 1 of them, the N word thing happened, and my world seemed to disappear. This was 2009.
I admire..
..people who are healthy. I also admire living sorta the fun life. I'm trying to stay in line first and foremost as a diet so I don't get cancer and die. I dunno, I cook vegan and health food now but not often but regularly now. I mean, my chili is still there. If not, then I have stuff like noodle soup and mac and tuna. I'm trying to also lay off the hot dogs.
I don't know what my body's state is, but I know I was very hungry shopping only at Whole Foods + school food. The effects from dieting as a teenager also lingered on.
I'd say not sticking to a good diet was my biggest mistake.
..erm, something else the most torturous is not getting enough sleep, which is what causes the fat.. like stress fat parts.. not sure if you could eat chocolate and sleep and be thin, but my foreign exchange student partly did that.. who was French and German from Germany, 3/4 French, seems her dad might be all French
I don't know what my body's state is, but I know I was very hungry shopping only at Whole Foods + school food. The effects from dieting as a teenager also lingered on.
I'd say not sticking to a good diet was my biggest mistake.
..erm, something else the most torturous is not getting enough sleep, which is what causes the fat.. like stress fat parts.. not sure if you could eat chocolate and sleep and be thin, but my foreign exchange student partly did that.. who was French and German from Germany, 3/4 French, seems her dad might be all French
So, when I came home, I tried to eat baby food and formula, but since my parents threw it away I got fat.
I lived on cheesy pasta and hot chicken fingers. YUM. For a time. I had buffalo chicken sandwiches|subs at 1 point for a short while. It seems I've lived on burgers much of the time from 2008-2013, which is longer than my diet, which was let's see off and on kinda thing existed 2002-2005, which makes you hungry. I had plenty of health food most of that time. When I did fast, I skipped too many lunches and guess lost my sense of well-being. See, the trick is to have a big breakfast and I guess not much at night. It really worked, at 1st, I know.
I lived on cheesy pasta and hot chicken fingers. YUM. For a time. I had buffalo chicken sandwiches|subs at 1 point for a short while. It seems I've lived on burgers much of the time from 2008-2013, which is longer than my diet, which was let's see off and on kinda thing existed 2002-2005, which makes you hungry. I had plenty of health food most of that time. When I did fast, I skipped too many lunches and guess lost my sense of well-being. See, the trick is to have a big breakfast and I guess not much at night. It really worked, at 1st, I know.
Cont.
What did I do? Tim Burton changed everyone. I am still me. Have fun with your friends, now.
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More
I know I am not "just" a singer.. What @ movies by Tim Burton that are more classical? What is there for someone my age and high artistic skill?
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I just found out-
I can tell Ellen is sneering at me after she said what she did didn't mean any harm.
I want my privacy
from someone who's not my type and refuses to get along. I am guessing you need to stop altogether.
My mom mentioned sleeping and I'm feeling bad.
My mom mentioned sleeping and I'm feeling bad.
Idea for My Room
I want to make the walls all aqua and the edges .. and the furniture will be medium aqua or bright aqua. The walls will be a lighter aqua. My bed will be aqua. I will throw in some random coral, like maybe a pillow or something.
Saturday, January 4, 2014
Problems
I will not put up with anyone attacking me because they think they have to because of the N word thing.
WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM .. !?
STOP BEING MEAN TO ME AND AROUSING ME WHAT YOUR PROBLEM GET OUTTA MY LIFE
WHAT YOUR PROBLEM YOU UNDERSTAND
WHAT YOUR PROBLEM YOU UNDERSTAND
MORE PROBLEMS
I did something.. and now my parents have arranged it in the house. It wasn't that bad. They just are opined.
Website Update
link
Future Plans|Career
•Main Career: Movie Actor + Fashion Model
•Other Career Pursuits
•Composer & Singer & Musician
•Internet Talk Show Timeline
Future Plans|Career
•Main Career: Movie Actor + Fashion Model
•Other Career Pursuits
•Composer & Singer & Musician
•Internet Talk Show Timeline
Mistakes From My Dad
I know for a fact it's that people think they are more European to offset a certain stereotype and then claim it as the more norm.
Maybe
some people believe you shouldn't talk to older people EVER. I wanted to work with kids.. See, it just gets me acclaim.
Problems
Ellen thinks because of the N word thing she can say like I can't approach someone attractive like I never did anything to deserve it. I'm pretty smart. See, you don't care.
Wait, Ellen doesn't do that. Why do I put up with this, this *beep*?
Wait, Ellen doesn't do that. Why do I put up with this, this *beep*?
Problem
Why do people go crazy if I hit things? Go get a life!
My mom just came and I think it affected my future daughter! FIGURE IT OUT
My mom just came and I think it affected my future daughter! FIGURE IT OUT
Finished!
3 short songs, gonna sell them on iTunes. I wonder how low you can go. Maybe the 1st 2 will be $0.49 and the 2nd 1 $0.99.
What if I came up to you and just basically said..
..my parents changed to be shit like your parents? That's the kinda thing I wanna discuss. How to actually put it.. like, my parents were just nice people, and now they're just mean. They act like it's funny to be in trouble and I didn't do anything. They don't say oh go to school or work or whatever or move outta the garage. They just have a certain attitude. Like, they don't keep their distance, never smile much in my presence unless it's @ something weird.
Isn't it funny, though, the thing @ shit?? I don't mean to apply it to everyone.. nor anyone in particular maybe. I don't know how families go off, but it's best not to make it any harder. Accept their kids for 1 and put them in the right track in life.
Isn't it funny, though, the thing @ shit?? I don't mean to apply it to everyone.. nor anyone in particular maybe. I don't know how families go off, but it's best not to make it any harder. Accept their kids for 1 and put them in the right track in life.
Problem
Ellen IS making people mad at me. How can I even forgive you? I didn't do anything..
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Mean
I get a bit upset, like the English, and my mom called Karen Carpenter a lesbian so I figured why not **** her bc .. I forget but it's true! It doesn't mean anything what that person says.
STOP
I don't wanna sit here and deal with injuries to my FUTURE KIDS - WTF R U - YOU COULD DO IT TO YOURSELF. I'M TIRED OF THIS. STOP TELLING ME I AM YOUR SHIT.
Food
I just made zesty chili with just vegan products - FINALLY - I do like mean, though. I got ingredients that were like hot or made for chili. Also, I have Asian food I like.
STOP
MY MOM IS TRYING TO AFFECT MY FUTURE KIDS - WITH ASIAN WRAPPING? AND FROM ELLEN? STOP! LEAVE ELLEN ALONE!
They are playing a little game that I can't get mad. Also, like now I'm typing better, they might say hm.. and think of some exotic insult. Anyway.. I was upset and didn't really do anything but feel defiant, didn't insult anyone.. how am I gonna get back what I lost? I was stuck cleaning dishes! It wasn't right in the 1st place, at least.. I didn't do anything, but they think I did. They are monitoring what's in my head. I am a good person! Don't set me off the wrong track. Let's just see if we can start a conversation on all the bad things brought about by Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Tim Burton, who I don't mean harm to. It was the other people he sometimes says, like in hidden messages or body language or tone of voice. It was the way people reacted to Tim Burton, like a bomb that just ticked off, like a lottery winner. Also, I don't imagine inflicting pain on others, but now they just said something wrong to me like maybe it was the right suggestion, with a little click. I like the clicks, but they are just being mean! I don't need them there. I thought it was going to be something special for me! This sucks! STOP YOU ARE BEING MEAN I ALREADY SAID THIS YOU RACIST
Problem
My future daughter is being ruined! I was thinking of something and my Gramma's weight came up. You weirdos, I don't even "want my weight to come up."
Why don't you just tell me?
You decided to ruin my life.
This is illegal. I can't talk to anyone. I guess other people do.
This is illegal. I can't talk to anyone. I guess other people do.
Friday, January 3, 2014
I just watched a movie, Paranormal Activity,' and there was a guy with a clipboard on the side behind me. I heard clicking in the theater, and I told the workers. There were a couple clicks when it was over. Ellen did something @ being affected in a "strange" way .. like the guy at the theater. STOP TALKING. Like if you talk a long time to someone. I had to be mean to people funning @ me for it. I hope I didn't hurt the girl with the young gramma. I don't want these weird tabboos. That's why I leave people.
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Good News
Started my song, have staff paper.. It's EXCELLENT looked up and know how to sell on YouTube.
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Dream
I pulled something like wooden string through like by my pointer finger right through.
Bought Let It Go from Frozen..
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Bought Let It Go from Frozen..
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Problem
These adults around me listened to something someone older said that wasn't right. I don't want these people in my life, not to be a part of it. Not like every time something happens that happened at the same time.. It's not even worth talking to you|these people. YOU'RE JUST A MEAN ANIMAL GO AWAY STOP PICKING AT WHAT I SAID YOU DID WRONG CUZ YOU DID IT N STOP ASKING ME MORE STUPID QUESTIONS
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