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What do you think of..

..Madonna's song by these girls as a "tribute??"

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They are sweet.

I feel like Cher when I sing it.

So

Do you ever wish some lunatic would just shut up and stop going through shit?

Twitter

So

How do you wanna explain my mood?  I think I got more mad when my finger was affected by someone on the phone.  Like, it will never stick back.  It just feels a bit different if I think @ it too much and play with it, like hurt or on a stick.

Wow, check it out.

Someone from LA already loaded some songs!  What's Sarah doing now, just walking around, working out, swimming @ a star hotel?

Oh, no!

You think there's a disputable idea of me constantly looking up Sarah Brightman concerts.  Well, I do need to clean my room a bit more, too.  I have stuff out, but it's pretty clean.  I don't do it all the time, but like I'm doing it right now cuz I'm bored.  I wonder I think I'm just gonna go to Disney and try to get in the parade for now.  Sing on my own or college?  I might apply just in case, get transcripts sent out that weren't sent.

Shout! Shout! Let it all out!

I was wondering.. I come across so many misfortunate things in this world.  All the cool celebrities I nit pick from the thorns refuse to Tweet, but Ellen DeGeneres Tweets but not no one else.  It's just me and her..

So

AND THEN YOU STOP AFTER I GO SO FAR AS TO POST @ IT

Oh, sorry, now you care I said something @ my dad I didn't mean in the way you'd think..

STOP

I keep getting threatening noises in my house, little clicks, the subtle ways of the computer loading.

I didn't do anything, leave me alone.  You're just mean all the time just about.  Then you say something stupid like I'd give shit for my dad telling you to do it.

Stupid

Why did I have such a hard time after being kicked outta Music Education?  I didn't know what to do with my life, not as adament.

Humph!

Wow BURTON

Just make sure I can't be a successful "a-dult" when I was a Music Education major.  I am great.  Everyone says so.  ':|

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Well

I'm gonna have my deLuxe pizza.. like I had a stromboli @ the mall

At Least

I have the support of the general people in public I'll see when I go out.  Just my mom.. and whomever, like I dunno, people online like Twitter some of them.

So Sad

Who knows what this means for people who know me.  To me, it just means I need to eat better food.  I've been watching my sleeping since vacationing.

What else.. What else..

Oh, I -was- in a good mood before.  It just means I'll lose my present type of relationships.  I can even smeel the anger in me.  Maybe, people thought I was stupid for not plugging the stuff in in my dad's computer, it's all ready, just didn't do it, yet.

So

How much do you enjoy being the 1 everyone turns their head on in public?  I have a jolly time at times, though.

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There's a little ticking noise that's annoying sometimes from my computer screen.

Also, my mom kept yelling like I'm telling Dad.. who just says call 911.  I was like why do you keep lashing out like that.

What People Think of Me

They seem to blame the people at the pizza place.  I really wasn't lashing out, cursing at them in my head, just telling myself what's what.  I was upset at the people tagging me there..

I got home and violently washed my hands, though, checked the faucet to make sure it didn't "break" any.  I kept telling my mom, like you're making fun of me for being upset, again.  She said I was complaining overall.  I don't have a normal tone of voice cuz I've no one to talk to.

Dream

It's hard to remember.  I remember Ellen showing her Mama as a ghost with a pirate patch, a ghost cat.  She was really small, like a cartoon, in the end.

What else?  Ah.  We were in a certain room doing something I remember now.

I might have to lie down, again.  I need to eat breakfast later..

Problem

Why is my dad talking again?

My parents are threatening me.  They want me out but to control my life.

SHUT UP MY DAD IS BEING MEAN AGAIN

O No

Sorry Ellen I love you

So

I had even met a cute guy, today.

Problem

How I talk has been affected by a shit dad who likes speaking.  I tried to say order and it got messed up by your shit good for nothing goddamn teens.

Problem

STOP DENYING ME AND MY DAD ACTING LIKE HE GAVE ME PEOPLE IT WAS TIM BURTON

Problems

Let's see what's on Ellen today, the rest.

Problem

Stop threatening me.  I don't give a shit @ any Pennsylvanians.

Problem

Stop telling me I did anything wrong.  I deserve what I deserve, and you all just treat me like a nigger.  Give me back!  I didn't do anything.

Problem

Ellen, why do you think you get to feel all funny.  I say you don't just you.

Problem

You niggers stop making a big deal of everything.

Why did my dad just talk to me?

What stupid thing do you wanna know?

You wanna know if I've m..?  Yes.  A lot in Orlando.  As a kid more before I moved from Florida to the New Orleans area.  What does it mean?  I felt it coming as a kid.  Now, I mean I had gotten addicted thinking it would send me to Heaven.

Disclaimer

The former Ellen DeGeneres, whatever that may be, is not stupid?  Just mean @ the n word thing.  How do you know shit @ me, anyway?  I didn't make myself shit!  Shape your life up?  What's it like?  You just don't like me?

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Didn't I just say to shut up?

I want my life back, stop it!

Problem

I said to stop, Ellen.

Shut up and leave me alone you stupid people!

Are you trying to ruin my life?

I was all happy, but my mom came home bothering me and then telling me I did something wrong it seemed, upset @ the people acting like I'm like my dad in a bad way Ellen thinks so it seems..  Well, I mean, I got over it, but they wouldn't quit.  I felt better later, but they gave my mom the wrong order.  I feel unsafe..

What is this?

What's wrong with stupid Ellen?  I didn't do anything.  Stupid like erratical Johnny Depp.

STOP

STOP ACTING CUTE

I SAID STOP

Wow

Ellen just craps in my life and goes on her show like nothing happened.  I mean my mom has been weird and something because of her.  Sorry, I just wanted to say crap, sissies.

SHUT UP

STOP MAKING FUN OF ME YOU'RE NOT ***Y

Soo

I didn't do anything.  Why is Ellen at such peace?  With her show?  Shitting in my life, whoever it was.. she did but I don't wanna connect the word to her.

Problem

People are addicted to hurting me when I get mad, and Ellen probably did it on purpose.

What is this shit, anyway?  You're all too dumb.  No, I am not talking @ anyone.

Problem

My "young" mom gets so mad at me.  She had an even younger mom.

Also

She was attractive.

Question

Why was my dad's youngest sister so happy??  I was never treated like her.

Wale! (Well)

My dad took me to 2 cities he grew up in in northern Pennsylvania, and we saw 2 movies in NY.

Weird

My gramma is mad at me for not seeing|talking to her as much before, but at the same time she seems not to hold any interest in me as a human being relaxed..  Why go back up and see all those watching eyeballs - hold up - THEY DID THE MASH - THEY DID THE MONSTER MASH - THEY DID THE MASH - Why'd I say that?  My gramma like kept pushing my cheek bone, all I can forgive her for for it is if she dies.

HA

My old choir director would never be in a choir, and Sarah Brightman would never sing for her.

Question

If Ellen DeGeneres would like me, why does my dad act like he's more of an accomplished human being?

What are ya'lls moms and dads like?

I know my dad is pretty ***y, esp. with young people.

My mom is considered so sweet and so nice to have had the pleasure of viewing.

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I loved it so much how she did it for us at ours.

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Guess what's funny for me?  I heard a car and it sounded like a big, nice person saying, "NOW -- THERE .. IS .. !!!NO ONE!!!"  You know, the joke @ people from Florida not being as active in the brain.

So

Did my parents allow me to be raised to do anything like a normal person?  I am normal.  If I'm not, it's just their fault and other families have their own problems not caused by the existence of mine.  You should have gotten that straight.

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These Things

I do get over them, sometimes when I find out, sometimes might "feel like crying" but not do it..  Often, I get over it after my reaction..  Isn't that not as bad as otherwise?

What I Did

I just felt mad, didn't mean anything.  I ended up not cursing much, but I was cleanin and throwing stuff away.  I don't even know if I cursed nor how I avoided it precisely.  I didn't think violent thoughts.  I just was violent in my attitude in some platform.  I just felt anger, not something I made, more of a reaction than a response.  It was very much a reaction.  It seems that the medicine I'm on isn't enough for this family member or relative.

I got the message.

I'm supposed to post things that bother me rather than get mad later.  Why did my aunt fall from the sky and through our roof (no hard feelings, just joking to be witty or funny-ish..) and like seem to wreck my birthday party with my family, with whom I felt grateful to be with at the time?  It seemed to ruin our bond.

Then, my gramma is acting like this is a problem and I didn't even tell her.  My other aunt is dipping in on the issue in ways, as well, I don't wanna think @ quite so..

Movie

Ender's Game.  It was so funny when the kids were all on 1 side looking at the adults feeling so uncomfortable on the other.  People would blame me that I feel like I make fun of them.  It seems there's too much give and take with some people.

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I got an Elsa doll.

I wonder why I was so mad, yesterday.. what..  It just made me think weird thoughts.  That 1 thing wasn't why but the whole box office will see.  Oh well.. whatever happens happens..  I'm not really mad now.  I wonder @ when I do the dishes, like ironing something would tip me.

Wah ah ah now I got a bad blog, too.  I found that people were happy I talked @ it, I think.  Just not to get too upset @ anything.

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Bean an Adult (Being an Adult)

It seems I don't let people see the child side of me, cuz then I'd be in a bind.

Story Time..Alas

So, Christina and Sarah are both kids.  There's a younger girl named Jackie.  Mama Elizabeth came in with a load of other ladies.  Sarah and Jackie went over for a kiss, while Christina shook her head and closed the lid on the laundry washing machine.  Christina had a friend named Chloe.  She went over to Mama Elizabeth, at this time too.

Christina was going to school for harp and lived life on this earth as a harpist prodigy.

It was time for the caravan for the festival again.  Chloe and Christina were alone in their room, and Christina put her big paw on Chloe's shoulder.  "As if!" Chloe said, and they both kissed for some reason and they lay down..  Sarah came in, more @ the same age and they exchanged notes.

Christina was looking for Jackie by some strange instinct, but she was not to be found.  Christina went over to Elizabeth and they cleaned the rest of the kitchen, and Christina slipped away into bed.

The caravan came.  They all road along.  There were some wolves, and then men took out the trap and trapped them.  It was Halloween that night.  Elizabeth picked up Sarah and Christina picked up Jackie.

Finally, they arrived.  Christina went down the Tunnel of LLove.

Christina took Elizabeth's hands, and she cupped her hands around her face and swiftly left.

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Wow, that is beautiful lights.. I love this concert tour! She is such a pretty, English singer! I guess she's still both modern and classic-ish. Thank you so much for posting. What do you think of it? Any other singers out there?

Don't you hate how adults think all that matters is their parental generation?  Like, ooh, what was that?  Like, go away, you're not cooler.  Wait, no, don't all leave me!  Did I have to say that to not make Ellen go away?

Funny?

I said I wanted to see my Gramma, not talk on the phone, to my dad.  Why is she moving down to Florida?  I don't want what I think and say to be why for things like this.  She's a bit grumpy and sorta restrained, like she has nothing to offer to me.  She isn't like exercising much but doesn't work.  She instead is bugging Barb in Florida.

Interesting Article

on Obama

http://www.nbc-2.com/story/19954218/obama-halloween-decoration-causing-stir

A veteren lost an eye and wants to use his freedom!  He made a hangman display of Obama, so he's hanging from a tree.  It's a game people like to play on the chalk or dry erase board.

1: Scumps!
2: Scumps!
1 & 2: A toast to the night.
The outlook is rosy.
The future is bright.
Our children will marry.
Our kingdoms unite.
Scumps.. Scumps.. Scu-umps!

What I Found

It's hard to find the good people out there..  I wonder if others are brave enough for fame.  I know I am.  I just want my life..

Question

Why does everyone keep correcting me, still?  I feel overcorrected but like to correct myself.  It sure is weird, these days, though.  I couldn't even think going online with all the mess, after 2005, when Charlie and the Chocolate Factory came out.

I might just go to sleep, soon.  1 part of the neighborhood is enough.

Whew! xp

I'm so tired.

It's time to trick-or-treat!

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Costume

Ellen had a neat costume, let's wait and see what Christina does.

O Wow

Ellen I love you!  I just watched your show, again!  =]  I love it!

OK

I'm moving my stuff, now!  I might make it!

Well, I was upset I felt uncontrollably upset, could not chill out, was cleaning up and thought of something suggestive that others find was a type of message.  It might be something she likes, but I don't think so, in a way.  I mean, maybe, but I don't think it was what she specifically intended for.  Maybe, she likes Cher, though, who knows, who knows..

I am taking a stand

against Late Boomers and their parents.

My gramma set me up to get mad so she can knock me out in a programmed way.  She was just plain nasty.  How can I deal with this?  It already happened.  It's her fault.  All this shit because of your ordeal with Nell Burton and me calling her the N word..though you didn't say anything @ it but signaled me to do it.

Well

OK, I jogged and have started a list of groceries.  Looks like cabbage soup, which I could have made now, and the lecipe :| (recipe.)

Well

You can't fix it..

..and I wanna jog though my dad will be here too soon-bye.

Weird

Now, I want the balloons I saw on the costume on my birthday..  This isn't funny, I know someone's laughing, depends on who, though..

Question

I found a nice shirt..  it looks like a party dress..  Did someone in the experiment get them to do it?  What if in the end I don't have anything I like to wear that was made to be sold?

What I Do Now

If you were wondering, I have to tell myself stuff so I don't get more mad, like oh I am not doing that, oh I don't approve, no, I'm not doing it..

Problem

I told you I was upset, but I didn't think anything violent.  I don't even know why I'm posting this.

Question

Now, I noticed Bethenny is a candy girl.  I am an Ellen fan, I know they planned this for me.  I will not put up with all these weird things, but I mean of course it's okay..  I don't like the attitude I am sensing.  I wanted a clean, new way of blogging.

Well

I posted this cuz I was so upset @ my aunt.  I am also upset @ the message.  It's very inappropriate.

I will not do it.

I am getting outta this experiment trap.  My dad is the 1 who is gonna be beaten theoretically for always being so intruding, @ me though.  I forget what it was, but his making up stuff won't "hold over."

Problem

I found that these people experimenting on me or whatever will do something because of this.  I didn't really do anything and figured out each time why I felt so bad.  I was doing the dishes and don't usually do that.  I did them yesterday, too.  I know I get a temper when I do things like ironing, but lately it's been rather easy.

Well

I was upset because so much has centered on something that actually does't matter - my aunt invited herself on my birth date when I was 1/2 her age, but I just wanted a special time with family.  I now go out with my other aunt for a concert each birthday, and my gramma called me for like a year and bothered me.  I just visited her again.  Something that will astound you to know is Sarah Brightman came to give a concert, next is Josh Groban who we aren't seeing for some reason, and around my birthday is the despicable Cher who had adoring fans.  Are they feeling for Sarah Brightman inappropriately for no reason?  I know it was the wrong thing to do, but what made me mad and kept not feeling okay was @ my aunt having importance in a suggestive way.  I didn't tell anything to her but was hurt and told my family..

Well

I'm reserving a ride to the Disney auditions.  I am not getting there as early nor leaving as late.  I'll leave 4 hours from when auditions start..

Well, it's scheduled, but it's so early.

Mood

I wonder if I need to go for an ea'ly mo'ning joge (early morning jog.)

And as for me

The Disney parade would help with my performance skills.  I don't know that maybe it's better than a small role in "Finding Dory" because Ellen DeGeneres is Dory.  It would help make me less shy, though Tinkerbell doesn't talk.

Set & Focused

I really need to lose weight, think I could make it @ Disney.  I don't know why my mom made me fat.  My room I just need a bit more sprucing, got the chords piled up, and wanna change computer tables to the 1 that doesn't shake.  Guess this big table will be used for a variety of things.  Something else I need is a hat stand for sweaters and stuff.  I have an extra little table for the fish bowl, I see, if I sew, maybe same for the rat, need to buy another maybe cuz my harp is on 1.  I just had a hot dog and am making a hamburger.  Unhappy, need to make a list to shop.

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Plan

Well, I found 2 more agencies, gotta be careful cuz if I apply and don't make it, no more left.  I am getting the impression I'm good enough compared to others or something but am not being accepted.  I just am not ready, maybe.  I go to audition, and they think I'm fat or something.  I think I will, though, apply for the Disney parade cuz I'm so restless.  If I get much thinner, I can apply for "Finding Dory," see if I'm ready for the Disney parade auditions for Tinkerbell, would be nice for life now.  My mom had me apply for a job, so.. help from an agency.  Also, I'm so hungry like for a soda or a snack or something.  I was dieting, but sometimes I'm not.  I use money for things other than food, too, like new clothes.  If I know there's something I really like, I can come back, later.

I have to

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move the computers to the sturdy table and I guess use the other table for the fish and a rat and my art.  Not sure where I will sew.  My dad is supposed to take 1 computer away.

Problem

My typing seems to shake the table now with my dad's computer and machine on it.  I'm trying not to shake, as much, but it's a bit hard, not too too bad, though.  I am just too tired, and tomoreow's Hallo'een.