- Kirstin Laire Martinez likes this.
- Kirstin Laire Martinez noooo. i mean thats totally awesome that she sold out but not awesome that you cant see her.
- Christina Barrett Hey, guess what, I supposedly can't return to school until someone tells me okay and didn't give me a meeting time again. So, I became upset and contacted and informed them I would sue and tell on them. I called my teacher, who was out-of-town, but I told her again not to return the message. The teacher isn't a performer and can't make up her mind, but I have my own real problem. I just don't know what she expects from a person. She's a bit out there. I contacted all the kids in the class who let me, and not much back.
Glad to see ya'll kept in touch and got back. It's hard for me to get noticed.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Facebook Post
I'm from Florida.
You keep thinking I was from Pennsylvania, but I've also lived in the New Orleans area a long time. I know you say things without detail and are gonna like cat at me. The problem with Louisiana was that it wasn't modern, but it wasn't like sorta deep-seated in old-fashioned things. :|
The West
To me, Slidell was the West. It seemed like the most substantial place on earth, save maybe Pakistan? No, Orlando may not be as hot, but NE FL is hotter than New Orleans. Yes, it's like there's no land here, no fog, no density. I don't know how far you can kick a ball, but I know in some way you'd wanna get outta he'"a." Maybe, we can't afford air conditioning. That's my thought. Also, New Orleans is a major city, so you'd have to go like to Ohio or the West or Las Vegas or even like Miami|Fort Lauderdale and like visit Key West. It's funny Ginny wants to plow through the shit, like some place in the Midwest that isn't major, the way her dad is from Pittsburgh and she's from Santa Clara, right by San Fransisco.. My family went to NY, and I ran into girls from NE|NJ and pretty much turned myself over to them. People from NYC like Anne Hathaway think it's about being basic, NYC, Pennsylvania, how gay! No, it was all about New England, not even New York. I just forgot to tell you that doesn't exist, it's just Boston and next to Pennsylvania is NJ.
Just the Right Climate
My theory is that people from cold places aren't very European but that Italy isn't the answer. I don't know about rocky, Southern Germany, but Switzerland is nice. Where else? Dunno. It seems cold by Russia. So, New Orleans is a good climate, Mexico is too hot. I forgot to tell you how hot it is. I dunno, I mean Georgia gets pretty cold, and Alabama probably gets both cold and hot. LV sounds good. }:] Talk about "the pool," like in Texas or Florida, thinking more about Florida being homey, for some reason.
Hey, guess what I found out?
Supposedly, people from Pennsylvania are different and not being white is what makes a Caucasian cool.
A Strange Visit
When someone is nice to me, even though my dad did something, my dad looks at you in a funny way.
Wot 2 Do
I have laundry and want to clean my room more. My dad comes home tomorrow, my mom home later tonight. I just had 2 Pizza Pockets, want 2 more, wish I had sushi, though, my dad made a quick trip sometimes skips over stuff like that, like my healthy cracker bread. Also.. cooking asparagus's on water. 3I
Where I'm From
So, I looked at Ellen DeGeneres's trip photos. I wonder if her show starts on Monday or if it started this week, again. Anyway, I would just say I was from Florida I guess and that maybe it's not as reverent as New Orleans and its borderline cities. The other problem is I don't know if they have any sorta Southern country areas. You know, it is the opposite. All I can say to that is yes I moved there and right away I picked up on it. I met people from the city and went there myself for about 2 years and pretty much have soaked in the culture, would just like to go back maybe do something if there's anything to do. It's not too small because you 1st have to get NYC out of the news. My next stop is LV. I'm from NO. I forgot, I'm from FL and moved to NO. I was a teenager in NO, my entire teenage life. Also, I wasn't a late bloomer, I was an early bloomer. I'm guessing that other people have relatives from other places. I guess I got out with adults, so I mean I learned @ the culture like a 2nd nature, but it's not quite as dizzying as northern Florida.
Problem
I just got the message Tim Burton had to tear up a boy I know from England, like wire him up cause he's a nigger. I know you just wanna say that word. I mean, what? Why do you care? Don't you have anything to talk about? It was probably just an accident.
Another Problem
So, I posted a picture, and I got the idea that Ellen DeGeneres wouldn't like it and would think she's better just because she's older, though, and that it's cool to be fat. So, I looked at it, and because of the N word thing I got quite a negative response, quite disgusting, and for no reason, whatsoever. I believe in me in the past. 8| I guess that's the test. If she thinks that's not so, she can't go.
Now, I'm Utterly Mad!
I am not supposed to return to Ginny's classes, supposedly yet, was not rescheduled an appointment.
I realized Ginny and other attractive people make up excuses about me because I'm not all Caucasian. They aren't accepting new kids since Tim Burton.
I realized Ginny and other attractive people make up excuses about me because I'm not all Caucasian. They aren't accepting new kids since Tim Burton.
Missed the Bus
I was supposed to reserve a ride home tomorrow. I'm tired, but maybe next weekend. My mom didn't encourage me. I didn't realize it was so late. I'm so tired from all the carbs. xp I ha - I may have schizophrenia.
How I Feel
I'm tired. I mean, I don't feel like walking. I could do some floor workouts, but I'm looking for something to do before I clean my room.
Problem
I got a message about my race that I was not really all white. It says French and Dutch. What is wrong with the Spanish? I mean, there is something wrong with someone of each race. That's not technically my race, but maybe you've seen my other blogs. I just didn't know what to say otherwise, my ideal race? Maybe, I should start a new blog? This one's doing good, just don't like the picture.>
What should I do?
I kinda don't feel like going to the mall nor to the movies, but I would see Oz, the Great and Powerful. My mom is gonna come get me. I'd have to take the bus, but I'm really, really tired. I have theater homework, I know Acting 1, just a Midterm journal however and supposedly redoing something I don't know about, also to memorize a rhyme for Tuesday for Voice for the Actor. However, Ginny might tell me to leave. I told the counselor I was going. I'm withdrawing from Weight Training, sometime, and I'm telling someone to take the hold off my record because I know it could happen. I bet Ginny knew this, and I bet she didn't decide herself.
Bratty Children
What do you think of mature adults with unattractive children, like the old paintings and photos? Why do they all seem that way?
Issue
So, you think I came as a shitty brunette, some fantasy for nigger parents to get it over with, a sacrificial lamb?
Watcha think
of like Ginny m********** thinking of how cool her kids will be if they were born when she was 40?
How I'm Doing
My face feels so infested from skipping a shower 2 days in a row. I have 2 huge pimples on my nose. I wanted to use a pore strip, dreamed I did. I just washed my face, put moisturizer on it, pimple cream, and chapstick. So, I'm eating. I had 2 Hot Pockets, no sushi, and am making I think Angel Hair paasts
Dream
My favorite part was when I was dancing, just realized now I looked a bit like Ginny and how I looked when I was in her class, like I was in the mysterious Winter Park or Alatmonte Springs, like I was involved in something on TV, like "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," in a dark, secluded place with 2 rooms and a mirror. I had my bangs, my face kinda rounded, like I was a ghost, someone's mother, visiting from the grave. Like, the sides of my face were tucked in in a triangular shape outlining a dying heart. My bangs made me look a certain way, like my eyes were pursed or something. I was doing ballet moves, like a real ballerina, like dipping and sorta turning, and it was just a big deal, did it for maybe 15 seconds. There was this sorta milky, thin strain of background music playing, simple music, and I was singing in a low, dipping voice, "My .. heart .. wants to .. Beat .. " What happened before was I easily conjured up a tall thin girl wtih dark hair, milky arms, and Ginny was dancing with her, holding her from the back, in the other room. I seemed like Audrey Hepburn, an old ballerina from Florida who had dreams. I seemed just to be a moving thing with no voice. Previously back in my dreams, I thought I was gonna sign up to do gymnastics on a team every day for 2-3 hours. So, next, after awhile, I became small with just like black netting for clothes, like a leotard, you know like the idea of an animated bat ghost. I was waltzing around like a Disney Haunted Mansion with Ginny and it was like she was carrying me, I was short, like maybe around her shoulders or a little more, and I just imagined this person like shoving me around, carrying me through.. and then I guess the dream stopped and I was sad.
Things that happened otherwise, my mom went to supposedly this dirty place like a mental hospital and said hi to a lady with light brown hair and bangs pursed we passed up twice with 2 little dark, Chinese girls and some others, like maybe a man around 35-40, eating at a table with cushioned chares facing one another, benches. So, I went in a bed, wanted food, and was thinking why don't I think about if in class Ginny picked me up as an example! =D Then, she appeared and was acting like sorta a tacky Spanish lady and was holding me awhile and we went through to the other scene. For awhile, she was walking with me as tall as her, feels more like Ellen DeGeneres. I also dreamed something and then that she was hurt and her heart became small like mine in her body, ready to be torn out. So, what was I gonna say? I forget! I might think of it, later. Oh yes, she hugged me, I thought for some reason I think of now her private being like an urchin or something. She was like swaying me in the dancing scene, like I was shorter and smaller than her. Ah, yes, and I compared myself to the lanky girl, and we found my chest and torso actually were milky and sucked in, like a button. I just figured I was shorter. I probably had an inverted diamond want in my look. So, when I imagined being hugged, I didn't feel much, and it was like I was skinny and a big shorter but an adult and she was like more strong and successful and was worried, but you know really she was not too small but seemed small with me.
It's hard to remember the rest, now. :|
So, as the dream went on, I have dreams of me locked in as a mover with music coming on that I supposedly was singing. It's like I was dead and raised from the grave. It was some sad thing that never could be, and in my doing the right thing was being picked at.>
Things that happened otherwise, my mom went to supposedly this dirty place like a mental hospital and said hi to a lady with light brown hair and bangs pursed we passed up twice with 2 little dark, Chinese girls and some others, like maybe a man around 35-40, eating at a table with cushioned chares facing one another, benches. So, I went in a bed, wanted food, and was thinking why don't I think about if in class Ginny picked me up as an example! =D Then, she appeared and was acting like sorta a tacky Spanish lady and was holding me awhile and we went through to the other scene. For awhile, she was walking with me as tall as her, feels more like Ellen DeGeneres. I also dreamed something and then that she was hurt and her heart became small like mine in her body, ready to be torn out. So, what was I gonna say? I forget! I might think of it, later. Oh yes, she hugged me, I thought for some reason I think of now her private being like an urchin or something. She was like swaying me in the dancing scene, like I was shorter and smaller than her. Ah, yes, and I compared myself to the lanky girl, and we found my chest and torso actually were milky and sucked in, like a button. I just figured I was shorter. I probably had an inverted diamond want in my look. So, when I imagined being hugged, I didn't feel much, and it was like I was skinny and a big shorter but an adult and she was like more strong and successful and was worried, but you know really she was not too small but seemed small with me.
It's hard to remember the rest, now. :|
So, as the dream went on, I have dreams of me locked in as a mover with music coming on that I supposedly was singing. It's like I was dead and raised from the grave. It was some sad thing that never could be, and in my doing the right thing was being picked at.>
Bed
Must lie down, hope I make it to the bathroom.. On my walk, well.. got tired and lay down, feel emtpy like a GUMMI GUMMI GUMMI GUMMI GUMMI BEAR. Please don't tell me, ooh, I've felt like a gummi bear, I just didn't feel like talking about it. Or maybe I don't have any problems and don't need to tell you.
Facebook Conversations
- Bailey Romano Oh, I enjoy it for the content too. I think it's a great modern portrayal of classic stories, but he is pretty too.
- Christina Barrett Too bad we don't know, like, maybe the girls with dark hair have dark hair because they're Italian or part something.
Problem
I sense a sequence of attacks hovering in the air by Ellen DeGeneres to my teacher Ginny, just because she's copying Tim Burton's p****. I mean, she is convinced I am a bad person, gives in to racism, pretty much stuck in a rut, I guess. Anyway, I'm mad at anyone like that. Everyone gets mad at me in some way, but the only person who seems human that I can think of who I know of who seems like a success story like in the arts like I've been told and felt in private is Renée Fleming. Why in private do I always feel Ellen DeGeneres bitching because she has a mother fucking TV show? She is flipping ideas of like if you think of 1 thing or any thing. She is negative. She promised to be good but is mean to me in private. I hear clicks and every time I load the page I think she said something. Can someone stop it? I already asked. When I see her on TV, I am convinced she does this. Please have her stop telling everyone to die because they didn't watch her show. She doesn't seem to know TV too well, herself.. so I won't believe it. I didn't appreciate being insulted for saying something @ Renée Fleming. What? It sounds too complicated, and you think it was used against her? No, it was just because I said it. She has a thing for me like Tim Burton. Tim Burton said I was perfect except not all white. It's because I am never mean. You all are like making me feel guilty for wanting to feel good and for my celestial accomplishments, in the classic arts and complex ways of feeling. You just tell me you're not interested because my mom is Chinese and my dad isn't.. Also, why do people in Louisiana act racist against people who think about being cool rather than racist and cool? Why are they like on top sometimes? You don't even know my race unless I tell you. You think you know in some way. Stop acting gay around me, I can be somebody and still be attractive. }:|
Got Back
So, I threw away all the garbage and recycled all my drink bottles - still have some caps. I have to like put away some things, more laundry. What else? Neaten up some things.. See if I can rearrange some things. This is really stupid. I'm taking more medicine, need to vaccuum.
So, I stopped. I saw something on the floor, small, oval-ish, reddish brown. I saw it crumble. I left the house, and my dad flipped me off in his tone but acted like he didn't and I kinda left in a mean way but not like loud. I just felt bad and it happened. I didn't say yes I want to talk to you. I was just mad knew that I wasn't safe.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Problem
Stop loading the page like Ellen DeGeneres is a nigger. It's hurting me and making me mad. I should corner you and **** you.
Please answer or I will tell the dean of the school, with whom I've spoken, and I will continue to seek counseling about Ginny in the Arts & Entertainment, with someone I know from Florida. I will sue the school for the humiliation and possibly get Ginny fired for lying about a student and putting them through counseling with you.
Facebook Posts
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That makes me happy with myself. Cute photo.
"7 hours ago near Metairie, LA via mobile
That makes me happy with myself. Cute photo.
"7 hours ago near Metairie, LA via mobile
Seeking a personal assistant. Must be able to understand all ideas that exist in the crawl space of my mind, work only for payment in sarcasm, and the pure satisfaction of spending time with yours truly. Aah what a beautifully layered joke."
Problem
People correct Ellen DeGeneres for torturing nice people, and she does something back, would make fun of me for adding "that's bad," even.
Facebook Post
I just got told I did something and can't return to Ginny's classes, until they let me know. I e-mailed and called to contact right away or I will sue.
So, apparently, there's something wrong with Ginny. I've talked to her outside of class and said I didn't like her class.
Oh, and I am returning to class. Just decided not to continue Weight Training, didn't like the hw.
So, apparently, there's something wrong with Ginny. I've talked to her outside of class and said I didn't like her class.
Oh, and I am returning to class. Just decided not to continue Weight Training, didn't like the hw.
Problem
It's not normal to keep thinking Ellen DeGeneres farts insults against people who are younger than her. **** her! Oh, if I say why I said that she'll get mad. Hmph, why can't I just post online and not have attractive people sever their sorta communication towards me?
Just Woke Up
So much to talk about, so been in bed apparently for like what 12 hours?
So, I dreamed I was in a shop, the whole time felt like I was being held by a dead baby Ginny. I was with my dad. I was looking at food, remember seeing the pizza shop. Thin slices, good and gooey, something I'd had before. Then, I ended up gettinga buckeye and fudge brownie covered in chocolate for like $4. I was asking the price, like my dad asked, kinda in a sweet fashion I didn't hear well like my mom. He left after I got them.
So, in bed, I remember I finally thought of how maybe they will just not let me register at Valencia, that I had to write something out for today. I finally was unable to continue feeling anymore, in a way.
I also thought about how some parents have bad kids and how they're mean, forget what about-
Not sure what else.. :/ Just kinda upset about the meeting, I guess, and something else.. don't remember what.. maybe my dad, though. Also, my opinion is that Tim Burton "used" me. I just keep seeing him show up with some insult and having nothing to say. No one believes he was hypnotized by me nor any individual other than Johnny Depp, like under the influence. Everyone knows I'm just a good person to Tim Burton and to Johnny Depp a cool person but ½ Chinese + importantly possibly part Native American and Germanic Jewish.
You can't just poop off my dignity after my life became an experiment. I will **** you.
So, I dreamed I was in a shop, the whole time felt like I was being held by a dead baby Ginny. I was with my dad. I was looking at food, remember seeing the pizza shop. Thin slices, good and gooey, something I'd had before. Then, I ended up gettinga buckeye and fudge brownie covered in chocolate for like $4. I was asking the price, like my dad asked, kinda in a sweet fashion I didn't hear well like my mom. He left after I got them.
So, in bed, I remember I finally thought of how maybe they will just not let me register at Valencia, that I had to write something out for today. I finally was unable to continue feeling anymore, in a way.
I also thought about how some parents have bad kids and how they're mean, forget what about-
Not sure what else.. :/ Just kinda upset about the meeting, I guess, and something else.. don't remember what.. maybe my dad, though. Also, my opinion is that Tim Burton "used" me. I just keep seeing him show up with some insult and having nothing to say. No one believes he was hypnotized by me nor any individual other than Johnny Depp, like under the influence. Everyone knows I'm just a good person to Tim Burton and to Johnny Depp a cool person but ½ Chinese + importantly possibly part Native American and Germanic Jewish.
You can't just poop off my dignity after my life became an experiment. I will **** you.
I cannot make it, I am sick. Also, I scheduled at appointment @ 11 I cannot make. What did you send me this, too? I didn't do anything wrong. The class tends to watch me, it seems, and all annoy me at, like, desire. The teacher, also, is loony @ Orlando. I am upset at this great inconvenience you have given me. I'll have you know I'm withdrawing from Weight Training for several reasons: hw, not being worth it, keeping me awake. Can you reschedule the hearing? You only told me yesterday, and I do not regularly check my Atlas. PLEASE TAKE THE HOLD OFF MY RECORD SO I CAN REGISTER FOR CLASSES IN THE SUMMER.
This teacher is lying about me. You have no proof of what she has said. Please reschedule our meeting for a future date. If you do not remove my hold, I will not be able to register for classes.... I'm not really going to, anyway.
I know the teacher displays favoritism and makes you feel guilty for wanting to come to her class for her as a teacher... Today, because of her, I was really hurt and called the police. So, I cannot see you today.
I'll have you know I never said anything to anyone, but students hinted racial slurs at me, often. I know other teachers are fed up with it, and so is she, but I see she reported me again- well, maybe not, you didn't tell me what she said.. Why don't you believe I never used any words against anyone? It's very clear that she discriminates against me racially. She never addressed any of my behavior. Can you tell me what she told you?
So, reschedule our meeting because I took an adult gymnastics class and feel very beat up and am withdrawing from Weight Training so I am maybe more awake for her classes- My argument is that I did nothing wrong, anything you have said I haven't done wrong..
This teacher is lying about me. You have no proof of what she has said. Please reschedule our meeting for a future date. If you do not remove my hold, I will not be able to register for classes.... I'm not really going to, anyway.
I know the teacher displays favoritism and makes you feel guilty for wanting to come to her class for her as a teacher... Today, because of her, I was really hurt and called the police. So, I cannot see you today.
I'll have you know I never said anything to anyone, but students hinted racial slurs at me, often. I know other teachers are fed up with it, and so is she, but I see she reported me again- well, maybe not, you didn't tell me what she said.. Why don't you believe I never used any words against anyone? It's very clear that she discriminates against me racially. She never addressed any of my behavior. Can you tell me what she told you?
So, reschedule our meeting because I took an adult gymnastics class and feel very beat up and am withdrawing from Weight Training so I am maybe more awake for her classes- My argument is that I did nothing wrong, anything you have said I haven't done wrong..
Issue
Why does Ellen say yea teens|young people are supposed to be tacky? Get outta mah face, stop getting mad at me for watching you.
Update
Old Text Box
Race: White|Asian
Age: 26
Hometown: Florida & New Orleans
College: Cleveland & DC
Ethnicities: French, German, Swiss, English, Irish, Polish
Hair: Brunette
Eyes: Brown|Green
Skin: White
Fall 2013:
Dialects 2nd + Stage Movement
College Path:
Political Science Pre-Law
Minor: Criminal Justice
Language
Race: White|Asian
Age: 26
Hometown: Florida & New Orleans
College: Cleveland & DC
Ethnicities: French, German, Swiss, English, Irish, Polish
Hair: Brunette
Eyes: Brown|Green
Skin: White
Fall 2013:
Dialects 2nd + Stage Movement
College Path:
Political Science Pre-Law
Minor: Criminal Justice
Language
What about this old question-
So, you think it's not right not to be European, but you don't fit the description.
I Saw the Sign
I really feel too tired to put up a sign higher on the door, just want a nice life, will stay home and clean my room-
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