Friday, March 1, 2013
Not Happy
Hey stop looking at me like I have to be in the style of my dad's generation, you messed up dweebs.. and stop telling me I'm a dork!
So, he came home early.. Spring Break.
Wasn't really happy to see his sour attitude, and he acts like my mom is younger, like his younger sister, I should s*** him.
So, he came home early.. Spring Break.
Wasn't really happy to see his sour attitude, and he acts like my mom is younger, like his younger sister, I should s*** him.
Dreams
I had a dream I killed Ginny Kopf. In the end, I heard a few low drums of no consequence really, just th..anyway and then she exploded into lots of little glittery dust, as though she committed suicide. '=s The funny thing is I don't remember what I was doing 1st, but I know I was flying around a big place with lots of sorta plant-like buildings, kinda bleak. I felt there was some big spirit flying me around, though, so I guess I was not the 1 flying? I liked feeling that I was being held on my crotch, but I got some ideas I tried to process. I realized that you can find anyone online at school in their city. I decided, though, that I wanted to do something about safety but always realize that death is just around the corner. Other interesting things, I felt like my feet were like pushing pedals like of that famous organ song. I also felt my body nearer to the end before that as the result of being like a jelly worm, you know gel.. Those gummies. ;D From doing ballet, like it wasn't a good idea but hwen you do it it is. I wish I remembered my other dreams, but I was more conscious with this 1, like before. I think when I fell asleep this time, I felt dead from something, like the medicine as the end. It's like because I wasn't famous with a lot of money from wishing to be an actor while I was on MySpace. So, anyway, I was flying around a long time, felt touched, felt strong, the stronger overall feeling or whatever was the situation. Oh well, wish I could remember more. It was sorrowful and somber. It was like it was a scary, black, from the past like my past life or dead, like a Ghost of Christmas, sorta going with me on a journey I was taking or happened to take because of her. I still feel a big force around my crotch, and it feels like huge, puffy, not too old arms. I woke up, and my blessed fingers were like big puffs. I guess I did it to myself, as usual. It's always interesting, but it won't last. I used to feel I wish it would last. :|
So, if you want to know what I did in bed, I could feel in Cleveland, my blankets feeling celestial like they put kinda a lot of sorta involuntary|voluntary, you know random.., pressure on me, like a spirit, that it was a person. My bed also pulsed in a very surreal way. I used to imagine the life in my eyes suddenly like crossing mainly.. and myself fucking the tubes! D; I tried it as much I could, like I would not stot, like I had to do it, like there was no point in thinking of other things in bed, myself. I can't seem to do that, now, here. I just was distracted, in the end.. I used to go around to RDV and sit around, a magical place, while my mom was busy. I'd watch the people and feel I was in a magical world, really, but for some reason it had to dye away.
So, if you want to know what I did in bed, I could feel in Cleveland, my blankets feeling celestial like they put kinda a lot of sorta involuntary|voluntary, you know random.., pressure on me, like a spirit, that it was a person. My bed also pulsed in a very surreal way. I used to imagine the life in my eyes suddenly like crossing mainly.. and myself fucking the tubes! D; I tried it as much I could, like I would not stot, like I had to do it, like there was no point in thinking of other things in bed, myself. I can't seem to do that, now, here. I just was distracted, in the end.. I used to go around to RDV and sit around, a magical place, while my mom was busy. I'd watch the people and feel I was in a magical world, really, but for some reason it had to dye away.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Stimulated Myself..
I stimulated my ovary by pressing against the bed. ):)
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Problem
So, why is it a sacrifice to talk to me?
I kicked the chairs of boys in class.. I've hurt people..
I just got a sarcastic message from my mom that I'm from Pennsylvania in a weird way. Look, I don't have a problem learning in my life. Stop telling me I can't be sarcastic. You're uncool, stupid, a turd. :( Get over it, your stupid language barrier, you nigger. Go to hell.
Can you GODDAMN stop telling me every feeling is true? Just flip your lid. Look I said stop. What is this shit? Why am I getting these messages? Everyone does it. I feel certain feelings, and I try not to get upset but find that no one really is impressed with me..
I kicked the chairs of boys in class.. I've hurt people..
I just got a sarcastic message from my mom that I'm from Pennsylvania in a weird way. Look, I don't have a problem learning in my life. Stop telling me I can't be sarcastic. You're uncool, stupid, a turd. :( Get over it, your stupid language barrier, you nigger. Go to hell.
Can you GODDAMN stop telling me every feeling is true? Just flip your lid. Look I said stop. What is this shit? Why am I getting these messages? Everyone does it. I feel certain feelings, and I try not to get upset but find that no one really is impressed with me..
,:[
So, you see kids in the 1980s were treated like shit, you see the little kids with the button noses in Ginny's picture. Light hair. They look like stupid dolls. Kids today are too much in fast forward, based on knocking out the future of kids before.
Picture
Ginny is the skinny brunette on the left. Hmph, her hair is gold brown.. I need to start using Radiant Red, again?? Her hair seems lighter, now.. No, wait, I'm using the Sheer Blonde for dyed blondes and there's red in the bottle, so.. Er.. Now, what? I'm using Frizz Ease. :|
Picture
Ginny is the skinny brunette on the left. Hmph, her hair is gold brown.. I need to start using Radiant Red, again?? Her hair seems lighter, now.. No, wait, I'm using the Sheer Blonde for dyed blondes and there's red in the bottle, so.. Er.. Now, what? I'm using Frizz Ease. :|
Something Funny @
Charlotte Church may have like dark eyebrows but is not really serious like someone born in the 1950s and early 1960s. Etc.
Um
Why do you think I am acquired in Florida but not the New Orleans area?? Because I'm not from the city?? Wow, it was already too late when we got there. Yea, I complained a lot, but they didn't build the health club that we were moving by, neither. I didn't want to do a sport. I didn't want to do yoga, wasn't particularly prepared for a 16-year-old's workout. I wanted to do softball, but there was no softball anywhere... I wanted to do more ballet, but I found this nice little studio, should have looked somewhere else. It just seemed really interesting, so I mean I just stayed since I already went there. I mean, why would a modern dance studio have company and ballet new just once a week? I mean, they could offer it. Why would I even bother caring about them? No, I don't want to look too gaunt but kinda was going after that look. I guess I finally broke through that idea and thought of something. I mean, why would I be a puffy ballerina? What can I go for? I think doing cross country ... hm ... I met this boy from New Orleans who left and changed over the summer, cut my hair from being longer-looking. I mean, I gotten fatter not being able to do ballet and feel I would have been puffed up, possibly. I mean, who knows, maybe I would quit. Lots of girls do so they can live a normal life. I wanted to walk around, but I could only do it with a friend over, and hardly anyone would talk to me. They, even the nicest girl, would just look at me like shit with a shit face. Please don't think I mean anything, I just mean that in a not mean way. I don't know why all Louisianians are so gay.. Look, I'm mad again. I just liked high school, but that's when it was all about the boy from New Orleans. I attended this private school which was gay but kinda interesting. Maybe better than the Mandeville styled school. They wasted class time, but I could get in classes early. I always thought I spent too much time on homework, but there was an omen about the public junior high, not sure if people there succeeded. Hm, not even sure who the dance team members were.. At least, they were kinda ***y and not just like trashy and cliquish and schizophrenic, you know, schizophrenic!!
What do you think??
What do you think about in the deep, deep lows to find that some obscure place like Louisiana or New Orleans exists and that no one cares about what you think about that stuff in life??
Ow
My head hurts from being mad and m***********. I am glad for Spring Break but not really but it will give me a chance to catch up on sleep and have a better rest of the semester. I have a workbook assignment, 3 things or small things, in Weight Training I. In Theater, we'll read a children's book, the voice class, but we can't start early. I asked, after class.. I mean, I tried to sleep, but I ate and then watched some videos and packed, was gonna wake up at 3, know sometimes I don't sleep. I mean, I'll be fine, but I'll be agitated trying to sleep at school, like before.. I have to do a character analysis and print out my journals. I have to block something, too. I guess I'll do it after weight training, but I really really want to jog but you know probably won't. I'll get out of Weight Training at 10:15. I have to eat lunch by noon and then my shower, which takes me until class starts. So, I'll have 10:15-noon to do all my homework and purchase my book maybe before class I guess. The bookstore opens at 8, so I'll go buy my book and jog and then do weight training. Then, I guess I can do the character analysis in the library. I did it on another paper but didn't copy it, so it'll be fun to do again. If I finish early, I mean, I guess I won't. :( I'll have to jog over the holidays.. I might do the character analysis at school at like let's see 7? Yea? But might be sleeping? We'll see. So, I'm ready, ponytail, contact lenses, ready to pack the case, cell phone, bar of soap..cell phone case. :| Everything seems packed. Lost my lunchbox but have my lunch packed. I guess no one will play tennis, but I'll be out there to see. Money packed... :/ Guess I'll look for stuff for St. Patrick's day. I mean I had so much ************ in my sleep in a way..so much stress, too, and like I just don't feel right not sure why I'm up. Maybe, I should separate myself from the rest of the class. :( I mean, I was in the very back! There was no room. The whole class was like feeling for me I guess by the way the teacher talked, though I don't know if she really saw me! :|
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Ever imagine...
Ever think you're that black-eyed cross-eyed 1 high in the, er, celestrial stadiums just watching the sports game?
So
I don't wish to teach ballet @ 5 AM, so you can take a shower @ 6, maybe dry your hair and apply makeup by 7? Maybe not, I like 2 hours, though..not sure why, but it's in the afternoon.. :| Because people sleep 10-6 ideally. Just pick business. Construction sometimes? Dunno. That's 8 hours in the bed, maybe a quiet evening with a jog or stuff alternating, the gym, a swim. So, I wish to teach Rainbow kids on Fridays, was thinking 4 PM because dunno something happens later.. ah yes the mall and the movies, even. I mean, I guess it could be at 7-8, but the mall here closes at 9. I mean, you can walk outside. I'd been going to the mall on the weekends. Aw, I guess I have nothing to teach. What will I do next semester for exercise? I like coming at 5 A.M., the transportation is better, have to wake up at 4 if I'm just going to exercise..
So
Do you m*********? I used to not, but I think from taking too much gymnastics I did. I guess I didn't have any fun, and I was a good gymnast.. 3I
In th Van
Didn't remember ear plugs.
Recorded visit. Seeing her in a week or 3.
Going home, to bed, waking up at 3...30. 6+ hours of sleep, like I wanted last night.
Trying to get a psychiatrist appointment ASAP, same 1. Trying medicine, also Chinese medicine. Was gonna go the 20th. Makes me tired and don't think I need it, anymore, that the other kids would..
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Recorded visit. Seeing her in a week or 3.
Going home, to bed, waking up at 3...30. 6+ hours of sleep, like I wanted last night.
Trying to get a psychiatrist appointment ASAP, same 1. Trying medicine, also Chinese medicine. Was gonna go the 20th. Makes me tired and don't think I need it, anymore, that the other kids would..
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Problem
I'm gonna * you you liars always doing perverted things. YOU HEAR ME YOU STUPID NIGGERS? YOU HEAR ME YOU STUPID NIGGERS! Dx
ARGH STOP
My mom put a shirt behind my shirts of my dad, I don't want to touch him in a perverted way, that's not how I was brought up, GO. AWAY. YOU GODDAMN NIGGERS- I think I should just * you. You better stop because I know what you did. ,:[ What do you think I am, stupid?
Dreams Dreams Dreams
Take Me Back | My Next Beer
So, I don't understand, but I had to dream that supposedly someone, using I guess since I only see Ginny Kopf, was grappling my crotch for a long time and when she touched me it stimulated my entire body and she gained a focus of my eyes and used cartoon images but in a friendly way that only feels good and summut contained. This was pretty long, and I wasn't foresaken upon awakening. I was in a big bedroom that looked like a dorm, darker. Forget next dream, was good. I forget some of the next, but I thought my dad really was there and put his hands on my shoulders and then my aunt. I don't remember so much here. I think I was being carried or something, not sure why, maybe because. I like to think about people touching me. :| So, anyway, then, I was like at a thing with girls, reminds me of something before in my dream, like tennis and models. I had already jogged a lap. Then, we had to jog around a bathroom stall which circled I think 100 times, I'm like here? The girls were tall with round heads, kinda like sticks, shiny slick hair, watching me getting close to the coach, just automatically hopping up to him in the middle of class standing on a bench in the stall area outside the bathroom. Then, (heya car just passed,) I remember a very good feeling don't remember too much, guess I was meeting someone, probably reeking from the reminder of when I had this really big voice lab teacher, 1st was pretty fat, then seemed pretty strong and quite tall. Anyway, so, I was thinking of Ginny, even had to think it was her so I wouldn't think I could like make up real people. Oh, and I woke up really feeling like you know a hand print on my crotch several times, maybe because I felt like *********ing, you know? Anyway, so this was interesting, now I forget, think I was being carried, but I was thinking of coming up to this "teacher," like in that darker room. I found this person like I guess like put her arm around me, then both her arms right away and like my legs were up kinda to the side wrapped around said person.. but it was interesting because I wasn't supposed to move and she was just supposed to like carry me out to the parking lot because I was like her ba by. So, something for you to think about. Anyway, I woke up, and I guess I was a bit mad, as you can see, I mean I liked it, but I didn't feel like anyone thought the beer part was okay. Oh, yes, and I woke up thinking there was this dangerous, low vibrating, I think in the 1st dream, yes, and I woke up and for some reason it was gone, didn't move, hardly breathed I bet. It was pulsing, seemed loud enough at the source. The exercise classes must have helped because they feel kinda quelled, like on a island of water, the sea with clouds floating around.
So, I don't understand, but I had to dream that supposedly someone, using I guess since I only see Ginny Kopf, was grappling my crotch for a long time and when she touched me it stimulated my entire body and she gained a focus of my eyes and used cartoon images but in a friendly way that only feels good and summut contained. This was pretty long, and I wasn't foresaken upon awakening. I was in a big bedroom that looked like a dorm, darker. Forget next dream, was good. I forget some of the next, but I thought my dad really was there and put his hands on my shoulders and then my aunt. I don't remember so much here. I think I was being carried or something, not sure why, maybe because. I like to think about people touching me. :| So, anyway, then, I was like at a thing with girls, reminds me of something before in my dream, like tennis and models. I had already jogged a lap. Then, we had to jog around a bathroom stall which circled I think 100 times, I'm like here? The girls were tall with round heads, kinda like sticks, shiny slick hair, watching me getting close to the coach, just automatically hopping up to him in the middle of class standing on a bench in the stall area outside the bathroom. Then, (heya car just passed,) I remember a very good feeling don't remember too much, guess I was meeting someone, probably reeking from the reminder of when I had this really big voice lab teacher, 1st was pretty fat, then seemed pretty strong and quite tall. Anyway, so, I was thinking of Ginny, even had to think it was her so I wouldn't think I could like make up real people. Oh, and I woke up really feeling like you know a hand print on my crotch several times, maybe because I felt like *********ing, you know? Anyway, so this was interesting, now I forget, think I was being carried, but I was thinking of coming up to this "teacher," like in that darker room. I found this person like I guess like put her arm around me, then both her arms right away and like my legs were up kinda to the side wrapped around said person.. but it was interesting because I wasn't supposed to move and she was just supposed to like carry me out to the parking lot because I was like her ba by. So, something for you to think about. Anyway, I woke up, and I guess I was a bit mad, as you can see, I mean I liked it, but I didn't feel like anyone thought the beer part was okay. Oh, yes, and I woke up thinking there was this dangerous, low vibrating, I think in the 1st dream, yes, and I woke up and for some reason it was gone, didn't move, hardly breathed I bet. It was pulsing, seemed loud enough at the source. The exercise classes must have helped because they feel kinda quelled, like on a island of water, the sea with clouds floating around.
Why So Gay?
Why are you Floridians so not wanting anyone to have fun? Oh, you are concerned about the ***********, though.. Still, it's not a good practice, not having fun just to say you're a goody-good because I'm not that.
PM
So, Ginny sent me a FB Message, I have to use her home e-mail..and not post on her Facebook, like, every few days..
So, isn't her Valencia classes just crap? That's mostly what she teaches in public. D; The kids are all mean to me all the time, I don't need their motherfuckin goddamn stupid retarded idiot good-for-nuthin bullshit.
So, isn't her Valencia classes just crap? That's mostly what she teaches in public. D; The kids are all mean to me all the time, I don't need their motherfuckin goddamn stupid retarded idiot good-for-nuthin bullshit.
Back to Bed Sleepyhead 3Z
My head aches.. My dad will be home for lunch, gotta wake up in the afternoon though, have to see to my journals. That's all, though. Have to get a book tomorrow, leave a note for $20.
Oh, and my panties were all wet, thought I had a load.
Oh, and my panties were all wet, thought I had a load.
Upset After Class
I was like a victim trrembling @ class, like the fool I make of myself, the way I can't take it and the way no one in the world can care....
See, I kept stabbing my notebook when I was annoyed.. I did leave the room and stomp my feet and then come back in soon. I came in and said are you gonna annoy me, like last class, and asked if someone said they were gonna kill me.. The teacher said no they didn't. :| I told my mom, too, but she didn't seem to care too much.. :S I sorta felt washed ashore in death. Like, I was murdered but left at peace.. :| People are always at me and will never be direct with me because they think it's possible I actually want too much attention being mixed race. I actually am feeling kinda subdued. Maybe, it's from all the good things I did, and then I don't know why I was attacked but I'm so mad. It seems people are really mad at me for any attention I get from Ginny, and I want to ****** them.. I just heard something.. Please, leave me alone, you dweebs.. :| Also, I can tell in attitude my aunt is posing as a virtual ring leader rassling me for everything just because my life isn't perfect, like my dad does, and I want to * her. ,:| Everyone is threatening people they know not to hurt me. ;| Er. Why can't peopel just be normal? Hey, listen to me, stop with the bullcrap "online." I'm the civilized 1. It's okay if I live my life the way I do, I was treated unfairly, why must I base my life on comparing with how much I sacrificed of my, er, ... I dunno academic future?
See, I kept stabbing my notebook when I was annoyed.. I did leave the room and stomp my feet and then come back in soon. I came in and said are you gonna annoy me, like last class, and asked if someone said they were gonna kill me.. The teacher said no they didn't. :| I told my mom, too, but she didn't seem to care too much.. :S I sorta felt washed ashore in death. Like, I was murdered but left at peace.. :| People are always at me and will never be direct with me because they think it's possible I actually want too much attention being mixed race. I actually am feeling kinda subdued. Maybe, it's from all the good things I did, and then I don't know why I was attacked but I'm so mad. It seems people are really mad at me for any attention I get from Ginny, and I want to ****** them.. I just heard something.. Please, leave me alone, you dweebs.. :| Also, I can tell in attitude my aunt is posing as a virtual ring leader rassling me for everything just because my life isn't perfect, like my dad does, and I want to * her. ,:| Everyone is threatening people they know not to hurt me. ;| Er. Why can't peopel just be normal? Hey, listen to me, stop with the bullcrap "online." I'm the civilized 1. It's okay if I live my life the way I do, I was treated unfairly, why must I base my life on comparing with how much I sacrificed of my, er, ... I dunno academic future?
***********
So, I woke up and decided to stimulate myself by direct action, but it wasn't really what I wanted.. :|
Dream
I had thee coole st most terrifying dream.
There were some scenes in the corrider where someone was like acting with music I think trying to slit someone before they slit someone else. So, my old organ teacher|choir director went in a jail cell with someone else kinda, like a mental hospital, which is horrid. So, I went in with someone else so we could maybe get in with her.. I know Ginny was involved. So, it was mostly about that and something like a pop Disney performance scheulde. For some reason, I felt a lot of *** or ************ or rather I dunno ***********. It was pretty dynamnic, that dream, but it's hard to remember, I think I was against like some flowery sheets, just some flowery sheets, like in bunched up at the base, and like hugging it like it was Ginny or something and feeling like those art drawings like of cupid or the statues of the very human figures with drapes hanging off. I was in the mental ward with people in the halls battling against knives slitting someone else's throat, like it's the good angel against the Master of the House, defending someone, like my old organ teacher or like I saw a big baby in an aisle, a bit sadistic in sentiment, like with some pastel but like an old or like modern French cartoon.. I saw the video of me acting and for some reason I was able to act like how I saw Country Bear Jamboree, but I can't see it no more, same with the old French cartoon.. So, I was lusting for "***" in a ward with people being murdered at bodily contact, instead slicing the other.
There were some scenes in the corrider where someone was like acting with music I think trying to slit someone before they slit someone else. So, my old organ teacher|choir director went in a jail cell with someone else kinda, like a mental hospital, which is horrid. So, I went in with someone else so we could maybe get in with her.. I know Ginny was involved. So, it was mostly about that and something like a pop Disney performance scheulde. For some reason, I felt a lot of *** or ************ or rather I dunno ***********. It was pretty dynamnic, that dream, but it's hard to remember, I think I was against like some flowery sheets, just some flowery sheets, like in bunched up at the base, and like hugging it like it was Ginny or something and feeling like those art drawings like of cupid or the statues of the very human figures with drapes hanging off. I was in the mental ward with people in the halls battling against knives slitting someone else's throat, like it's the good angel against the Master of the House, defending someone, like my old organ teacher or like I saw a big baby in an aisle, a bit sadistic in sentiment, like with some pastel but like an old or like modern French cartoon.. I saw the video of me acting and for some reason I was able to act like how I saw Country Bear Jamboree, but I can't see it no more, same with the old French cartoon.. So, I was lusting for "***" in a ward with people being murdered at bodily contact, instead slicing the other.
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I just called to ask you when it was, guess I will have to call you tomorrow if I don't ask on Thursday while I'm waiting for my Therapist appointment. I don't really know anyone in Orlando, so I don't know who to ask to come with me. Lots of people I know have been interested in singing and things.. :(
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To: ginny.kopf
"Join me for the next Voice workshop! The Professional Voice (which includes training for the world of Voiceovers) starts Sunday 2-5. Call and we'll talk all about how it can help you get the acting work you want, whether it's voiceover, commercials, narrations, infomercials, and for vocal improvement for any kind of business you are in. It'll give you CONFIDENCE and CONTROL in your auditions and communication. Ginny Kopf 407-381-5275"
I think the voice is a personality tool and today I croaked up an emotion. Most people have something like a slur. They think their voice is just a product of their health. They don't even think about how their nose affects their voice. They don't even use singing in their lives... They don't care about race and don't attune to the accents like New York state, Boston & NYC, South Carolina and Georgia, the New Orleans dialect, and then the country, sometimes thought to be "the west." Floridians and Californians are really annoying but open, but I can't do anything about it because I'm a Floridian and people aren't open to me since my mom they somehow know is tan I guess and my dad might have Native American indian and the seemingly common German Jewish, like a lot of people. They really won't help me if I'm Native American. I just realized that in the south, they are more comfortable, the Native Americans. So, yes, I do have and have been told by my peers all the time when I was cool that I have a pure Floridian accent or rather that I have no accent I'm from Florida my accent is no accent that is the way everyone should be!!! I heard in L.A. and I guess throughout California.. like San Fransisco and the area that they have the Valley Girls and I grew to like it when I was in the New Orleans region. I heard that was all there was and all there will ever be, that there will be no new generations. :| Yes.. They just have really ***y voices and aren't muddled up in northern culture, but I had this friend who I think has a dad or maybe also mom from Canada. xp So... :| They not only have the pure voice but are so ...ed up, you know? They won't even think straight. They're like a hiccup, a ditzy. They just want to know where your parents are from because people from up north want to .... me for being from Florida and then criticize me for having blood from Scranton, etc.. PA Dutch? Also somewhere in NY. Like, they want to hurt me for my culture but never my voice. See, my mom has a European accent. You know, Ginny, not everybody can sing. I had to learn. My parents love good music. I grew up close to my mom ***ually but didn't like feel that tingly feeling so much. With my dad, we had the proper English relationship, no ... with my dad. I don't know about my brother, he's not very European and mocks me under protection of my parents.. I al ways grew up being the most European and was whiter than everyone else I told the people in the racial crisis type forum, but I changed since then. 8| In Loo eez ee anna lazy louisiana, they thought I was a foreign exchange student because of my mom. I actually sang more alone, there, so my accent kinda was lost. Oh, I just called but see you must have already gone to bed after class, I would but decided to do more singing and am eating and had to get my stuff etc., loading some practice videos, too. In Orlando, I got a sorta s--- voice.. I picked up on the tacky things here, also had this ½ Spanish ballet teacher who was young who said things funny maybe like brruther. I also picked up on the really low things in the New Orleans area. I didn't really connect with the girl from San Fransisco's voice. :| Same with the girl from L.A. I just don't in that sorta bland, raspy way. I finally got rid of the accent of the girl from NYC I'm working with for a lot of the part.. So, I feed off of people from California. I see you feed off of people from certain places. I saw Pennsylvania, Wisconsin, and Washington (state,) 2 from Wisconsin. Ah I'm gonna go eat guess I'll catch you later.. :) I see we can't Share, anymore, is there a reason? I see that sometimes.
Hi, yes, I would like to come. I hope this is a big turnout. I guess I have to make sure I ask you where it is. If it's not in your home, I wonder if there will be a nice place to eat. :) My mom can't make it, and I'll probably just go without my dad. I see people I knew online in Northeastern Florida.. but they haven't spoken to me and are busy with their lives, would like to come some of them, though. Even my aunts are busy. 1 of them might not be. You'd know she's about your age.. but she doesn't e-mail me, now, I guess because I haven't e-mailed her lately. I don't seem to know anyone in Orlando but know I've seen people thru my mom.
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To: ginny.kopf
"Join me for the next Voice workshop! The Professional Voice (which includes training for the world of Voiceovers) starts Sunday 2-5. Call and we'll talk all about how it can help you get the acting work you want, whether it's voiceover, commercials, narrations, infomercials, and for vocal improvement for any kind of business you are in. It'll give you CONFIDENCE and CONTROL in your auditions and communication. Ginny Kopf 407-381-5275"
I think the voice is a personality tool and today I croaked up an emotion. Most people have something like a slur. They think their voice is just a product of their health. They don't even think about how their nose affects their voice. They don't even use singing in their lives... They don't care about race and don't attune to the accents like New York state, Boston & NYC, South Carolina and Georgia, the New Orleans dialect, and then the country, sometimes thought to be "the west." Floridians and Californians are really annoying but open, but I can't do anything about it because I'm a Floridian and people aren't open to me since my mom they somehow know is tan I guess and my dad might have Native American indian and the seemingly common German Jewish, like a lot of people. They really won't help me if I'm Native American. I just realized that in the south, they are more comfortable, the Native Americans. So, yes, I do have and have been told by my peers all the time when I was cool that I have a pure Floridian accent or rather that I have no accent I'm from Florida my accent is no accent that is the way everyone should be!!! I heard in L.A. and I guess throughout California.. like San Fransisco and the area that they have the Valley Girls and I grew to like it when I was in the New Orleans region. I heard that was all there was and all there will ever be, that there will be no new generations. :| Yes.. They just have really ***y voices and aren't muddled up in northern culture, but I had this friend who I think has a dad or maybe also mom from Canada. xp So... :| They not only have the pure voice but are so ...ed up, you know? They won't even think straight. They're like a hiccup, a ditzy. They just want to know where your parents are from because people from up north want to .... me for being from Florida and then criticize me for having blood from Scranton, etc.. PA Dutch? Also somewhere in NY. Like, they want to hurt me for my culture but never my voice. See, my mom has a European accent. You know, Ginny, not everybody can sing. I had to learn. My parents love good music. I grew up close to my mom ***ually but didn't like feel that tingly feeling so much. With my dad, we had the proper English relationship, no ... with my dad. I don't know about my brother, he's not very European and mocks me under protection of my parents.. I al ways grew up being the most European and was whiter than everyone else I told the people in the racial crisis type forum, but I changed since then. 8| In Loo eez ee anna lazy louisiana, they thought I was a foreign exchange student because of my mom. I actually sang more alone, there, so my accent kinda was lost. Oh, I just called but see you must have already gone to bed after class, I would but decided to do more singing and am eating and had to get my stuff etc., loading some practice videos, too. In Orlando, I got a sorta s--- voice.. I picked up on the tacky things here, also had this ½ Spanish ballet teacher who was young who said things funny maybe like brruther. I also picked up on the really low things in the New Orleans area. I didn't really connect with the girl from San Fransisco's voice. :| Same with the girl from L.A. I just don't in that sorta bland, raspy way. I finally got rid of the accent of the girl from NYC I'm working with for a lot of the part.. So, I feed off of people from California. I see you feed off of people from certain places. I saw Pennsylvania, Wisconsin, and Washington (state,) 2 from Wisconsin. Ah I'm gonna go eat guess I'll catch you later.. :) I see we can't Share, anymore, is there a reason? I see that sometimes.
Hi, yes, I would like to come. I hope this is a big turnout. I guess I have to make sure I ask you where it is. If it's not in your home, I wonder if there will be a nice place to eat. :) My mom can't make it, and I'll probably just go without my dad. I see people I knew online in Northeastern Florida.. but they haven't spoken to me and are busy with their lives, would like to come some of them, though. Even my aunts are busy. 1 of them might not be. You'd know she's about your age.. but she doesn't e-mail me, now, I guess because I haven't e-mailed her lately. I don't seem to know anyone in Orlando but know I've seen people thru my mom.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Maybe, she's gay.
I know Ginny has thought of me, but is she sizing up my fat? Why does she act so sarcastic? Maybe, she's gay.
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Let me just say it.
I'm gonna * Ginny Kopf- she thought my hands should be bigger as in longer. She made them stubby. 3)
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Monday, February 25, 2013
Rather Rude and Very Contageous
Why are people acting like they have all this white race stuff? Maybe because they are not Late Boom. However, it is very rude and rather contagious.
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An Accomplished Romantic
Why are people squeezing juice out of us? What if everyone is like Ginny? I am an accomplished romantic!!!
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What Do I Intend to Find, This Time
I found I had to quiet down and learn not to gurgle.
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Ate
I ate to grow: 3(/) Buffalo wrap with BLU CHEEZ-
Apple rings
Also, you can't find me.
The curly light blonde Cali girl reassured me singing lessons were all @ reassurance, also only performs 2 times, Apr 1
I saw Chris Plummer (sound od Music,) Anne Hathaway, cute slender direcor of Life of Pi, Adele.
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Apple rings
Also, you can't find me.
The curly light blonde Cali girl reassured me singing lessons were all @ reassurance, also only performs 2 times, Apr 1
I saw Chris Plummer (sound od Music,) Anne Hathaway, cute slender direcor of Life of Pi, Adele.
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Other Guys
The guys in 1956 are pretty sexy, not sure @ the rest, maybe up to 1954.
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You wouldn't want to be
You wouldn't want to be Johnny Depp nor Tim Burton. Maybe a dude born in 1957. I do like Tim Burton. Johnny Depp is, strangely, like 1 of us.
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So! Do you wanna-
So, do you want to focus on white parents born in 1935 with Late Boom kids born 1957-1961?
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Teacha Teacha
Fridays 6-7 A.M. - meetings in library room for kids, tweens, young adults, delinquents, etc., with Autism - also welcome those with ADD, OCD, Bipolar, Schizophrenia - rainbow children
Want to teach ballet for gymnastically inclined, anyone, M-F, 5-6 A.M. - with performance - Valencia does a rehearsal for Dance major Friday mornings.
I have to be faculty to use Valencia like in mornings. I should use a dance studio.
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Want to teach ballet for gymnastically inclined, anyone, M-F, 5-6 A.M. - with performance - Valencia does a rehearsal for Dance major Friday mornings.
I have to be faculty to use Valencia like in mornings. I should use a dance studio.
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Last Night...
The tall, thin black guy showed me his private a few times and tried to get me in his apt., but I said I wasn't comfortable but let him hug me. Thin clothes.
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Last Night...
Last night, getting in bed late after a Twitter rampage, I was able to feel without imagining personification. I slept for @ 1r hours the past 2 nights. It just kept coming, like before but not like before.
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Woke Up
I kept waking up, didn't fall asleep for maybe 2 hours.
I tried to stimulate myself, but here's something vibrating in my throat. Oh well, just being precautious. Now, what? Makeup? :|
I tried to stimulate myself, but here's something vibrating in my throat. Oh well, just being precautious. Now, what? Makeup? :|
gnite
I ended on that the topic is Late Boomers, off of my interest in race, off of the interest in that we might wheeze and build a better tomorrow. I seem to want the answers. It's been 7 years... ) ) )
A Big Deal All the Time! D3
Why do Generation Y make such a big deal over getting attention from Late Boom?
Back
Showered.
Shaved.
Moisturizer on Face. Chapstick.
9 hours til I leave and I want to do laundry now, or maybe in the morning? Have lots to fold, a little to wash, would like to slow wash my belts, then my backpack, perhaps my lunchbox tomorrow evening|night. I can listen to me singing "Skimbleshanks: the Railway Cat." I don't have to practice but may, at least go over it tomorrow waiting.
Shaved.
Moisturizer on Face. Chapstick.
9 hours til I leave and I want to do laundry now, or maybe in the morning? Have lots to fold, a little to wash, would like to slow wash my belts, then my backpack, perhaps my lunchbox tomorrow evening|night. I can listen to me singing "Skimbleshanks: the Railway Cat." I don't have to practice but may, at least go over it tomorrow waiting.
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