I've lost track of what I was speaking of. So, I should have come home from college to where we moved in the Orlando area. I had fun playing around up until now. My goal is so I'd take Ginny's 3 classes before I'm ½ her age. I'm sorta stuck here.. So, that means I should have taken her courses by last summer. That's when I auditioned and then found I should take acting classes. I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" in Fall 2012, though, and that was Summer 2012. The n word thing happened in 2009, and I talked to my grandma a year until that summer, coping with my age in relation to my mom's. So, Summer 2012. We read from the Bible and a reading, but she got mad at me and made me suffer even after if I just felt mad from her treating me racistly now. It's since the n word thing. You know, I don't know who started it, my dad or the community or Tim Burton. So, my dad's youngest sister came for my birthday in 2011 I think yes. I realized in 2 years my age would be ½ my mom's, but I finally counted since I was created. For some reason, things didn't work out. I think my aunt did it for the n word thing, and I just didn't get it. I didn't have my biRTHDAY! ';0 I don't give a fuck about you goddamn Pennsylvanians you wanna go rot some in a shit hell hole or somesuch? What's my life, anyway, a piece of trash under your control? Oh, no one can control anything in the world. You know I just got more pricy nail polish for a shirt my aunt got me on my birthday. It might not be the big problem. So, what, I was supposed to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" earlier? It was impossible because my grandma had me call starting maybe 2nd ½ 2011. It just seems like I should have taken these classes when I moved here. I've been here so long not accomplishing anything, not looking forward to anything, not in place online. I can't get over how funny it was posting just on Facebook, playing with all the stuff, and then IMDb, and later getting a blog and thinking I was talking to Tim Burton. Speaking of Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres, I don't want to play with you just saying I did something wrong because you're shit. We can't make any jokes because of Burton. He's not even cool with what's right. This is my blog. I think Tim Burton just likes generation z tweens. Time tuueet.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Struggles
I think my friend is struggling with her decision to quit ballet and later on swimming. 8o My dad seems to have cared about that, her not doing ballet. She blamed me for not doing it, too. Her dad is obese, but her mom is very analytical. Hey, that's like the other friend being from Boston.
Jist a Yungun
I just found out I've been judged as though I had parents both 45 years older, but my dad was 35 when I was born and is considered serious and quiet. However, around me, he's racist and slow. I have this other friend with 2 parents born in the early-mid 50s. They must be very nice and cool.. Hey, why do adults spend so much time playing around with how much attention I deserve? I mean, it's a process. I had fun hanging out. I'm considered "the thing." It's funny, though, I need something different, to experience the world freely to my advantages, like everyone else does.. 3{
I'm Wishing ... I'm Wishing
So, I wish that the 1st teacher I had was Ginny Kopf, but I had my ballet teacher|s and the doctors and therapist who was more forward since she is from Miami. I don't think it really matters, but the ballet teacher sorta put a stamp on me, ½ Latino.
I'm off-
I guess I'll go watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." Maybe, I'll eat some beef and zucchini cooked. 3I on water.
Alternative
I wonder if I could replan my life. I don't know if I should have watched Ellen DeGeneres because I have a young mom. From there, I guess when I came home, I'm wondering what I should have done at the school in New Orleans because it was worth it. We are allowed to take a minimum of 12 credits. I got fat doing the prep and college ballet for 3 credit hours. I was supposed to go back to Ballet I or II. I came and did the prep and college ballet and I don't know if I should have quit the ballet prep, which had a friendly recital. I was suggested to take a break from music. I was told to branch out into some new major.
2nd Year - Semester 2 - After Hurricane
Ballet - 3 + Ballet Prep
Philosophy I|Intro - 3
Music History - 3
Intro to Psychology - 3
Summer Make-Up Semester
Ballet - 3 (no Performance :{ )
Abnormal Psychology - 3
Music History - 3
Sociology of Mardi Gras? - 3
3rd Year
Ballet - 3
Psyc - Intro to Research - 3
Math - 3
Intro to Mass Communications - 3
Come home @ 20.
How can you say where you come from if you have 2 parents? Even me being born in SE Florida is a detriment to people from Pennsylvania and lower NY. Lots of girls side with their dad and aren't comfortable with their touchy-feely moms. Their moms are comfortable with them but not with others, like their students or anyone at all they may be able to get to know. Well, maybe. Not everyone like that. I can say I was a kid in Florida, and there was no culture set forth by my parents from somewhere else. I know it's hard to recreate. You're concerned about where you are. I was a teenager in the New Orleans area. I was an adult in the Orlando area and Orlando. My dad's heritage is mainly in Pennsylvania and lower NY state. My mom is Chinese Indonesian. What's my main heritage? I don't know what you're thinking about Pennsylvania, but I found my ancestors come from different places in the area. I thought they all came from NW PA and SW NY. If I had a race, it'd probably be centered on a little Native American from up north. So, Ellen DeGeneres wanted to be a vet, too, and I'm interested only in the parts of Psyc other than Personality (sorting, like magazines or booklets I read on planes and with relatives and even friends) and animal testing, like there's a cognition lab, too. I lived in NO with this girl from SF mainly or doing my things at home when I could other than high school clubs like jamming musical theater, the good stuff, the popular stuff every artist knows. If I took 1 thing from Florida wouldn't actually be something about details, though I thought that was like the meaning in life. I thought up north they had something else.. I would take away the modern culture! Whoops, Ellen DeGeneres has nothing in it in that. That's Tim Burton, the chicken. New Orleans has nice celebrations, though, which is taken for granted in other places, like Florida. Well, it can be overly smothered in. I don't know what you'd equate what I'm thinking about to, but I'm just feeling good. I have a split dad, and I don't know what race his parents are! D3 They said they knew, but they changed it. I don't know if my grandma has anything like Dutch but has mixed Swiss, according to the names. Also, I don't know ... ah, yes, the point of me digging back into my life to see if I'd watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and still make it to Ginny Kopf's class and what the result of that would be..dunno.. I wasn't all that intersted and just was mad I might have to pay for the bus. The movement class seemed abusive. I didn't realize she was like a magical Disney person. I was tortured the whole time watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with my parents and clicks in my room and the people I know online who are more prominent so I'm pretty much totally just out. So, the reason I wish I did just this was because it was a good experience, but I know I came home then. I know I was feeling old and knew I could not succeed. My family moved, and I wanted to live with them, in Florida. Times were so hopeful, and Orlando is kinda interesting. I had a good time, when I came back. The 1st semester after the hurricane, I think they did the dance recitals on campus and I was eating food @ Tulane.. Summer was a free semester. I used to go to the park. The 3rd year was actually very magical, but I came home after like a month or even less. I was going to the zoo. I think I was eating at Tulane and walking around campus, even took yoga or Pilates, was quite an experience, used the gym. That's why, they kicked me out of music. Well, I could do organ. I mean, yea, I was soaking it in, miserably, struggling in classes, trying to get back in voice, or Music Education. I mean, I remember the trip to Wal-Mart and going back to my dorm where the brothers used to stay. I colored some glass animals, and I felt good there. Yes, the magic died there, for me. Going back home to Slidell wakes me up. There's nothing to do in New Orleans but enjoy the family stuff or walk down the alleys.
2nd Year - Semester 2 - After Hurricane
Ballet - 3 + Ballet Prep
Philosophy I|Intro - 3
Music History - 3
Intro to Psychology - 3
Summer Make-Up Semester
Ballet - 3 (no Performance :{ )
Abnormal Psychology - 3
Music History - 3
Sociology of Mardi Gras? - 3
3rd Year
Ballet - 3
Psyc - Intro to Research - 3
Math - 3
Intro to Mass Communications - 3
Come home @ 20.
How can you say where you come from if you have 2 parents? Even me being born in SE Florida is a detriment to people from Pennsylvania and lower NY. Lots of girls side with their dad and aren't comfortable with their touchy-feely moms. Their moms are comfortable with them but not with others, like their students or anyone at all they may be able to get to know. Well, maybe. Not everyone like that. I can say I was a kid in Florida, and there was no culture set forth by my parents from somewhere else. I know it's hard to recreate. You're concerned about where you are. I was a teenager in the New Orleans area. I was an adult in the Orlando area and Orlando. My dad's heritage is mainly in Pennsylvania and lower NY state. My mom is Chinese Indonesian. What's my main heritage? I don't know what you're thinking about Pennsylvania, but I found my ancestors come from different places in the area. I thought they all came from NW PA and SW NY. If I had a race, it'd probably be centered on a little Native American from up north. So, Ellen DeGeneres wanted to be a vet, too, and I'm interested only in the parts of Psyc other than Personality (sorting, like magazines or booklets I read on planes and with relatives and even friends) and animal testing, like there's a cognition lab, too. I lived in NO with this girl from SF mainly or doing my things at home when I could other than high school clubs like jamming musical theater, the good stuff, the popular stuff every artist knows. If I took 1 thing from Florida wouldn't actually be something about details, though I thought that was like the meaning in life. I thought up north they had something else.. I would take away the modern culture! Whoops, Ellen DeGeneres has nothing in it in that. That's Tim Burton, the chicken. New Orleans has nice celebrations, though, which is taken for granted in other places, like Florida. Well, it can be overly smothered in. I don't know what you'd equate what I'm thinking about to, but I'm just feeling good. I have a split dad, and I don't know what race his parents are! D3 They said they knew, but they changed it. I don't know if my grandma has anything like Dutch but has mixed Swiss, according to the names. Also, I don't know ... ah, yes, the point of me digging back into my life to see if I'd watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and still make it to Ginny Kopf's class and what the result of that would be..dunno.. I wasn't all that intersted and just was mad I might have to pay for the bus. The movement class seemed abusive. I didn't realize she was like a magical Disney person. I was tortured the whole time watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with my parents and clicks in my room and the people I know online who are more prominent so I'm pretty much totally just out. So, the reason I wish I did just this was because it was a good experience, but I know I came home then. I know I was feeling old and knew I could not succeed. My family moved, and I wanted to live with them, in Florida. Times were so hopeful, and Orlando is kinda interesting. I had a good time, when I came back. The 1st semester after the hurricane, I think they did the dance recitals on campus and I was eating food @ Tulane.. Summer was a free semester. I used to go to the park. The 3rd year was actually very magical, but I came home after like a month or even less. I was going to the zoo. I think I was eating at Tulane and walking around campus, even took yoga or Pilates, was quite an experience, used the gym. That's why, they kicked me out of music. Well, I could do organ. I mean, yea, I was soaking it in, miserably, struggling in classes, trying to get back in voice, or Music Education. I mean, I remember the trip to Wal-Mart and going back to my dorm where the brothers used to stay. I colored some glass animals, and I felt good there. Yes, the magic died there, for me. Going back home to Slidell wakes me up. There's nothing to do in New Orleans but enjoy the family stuff or walk down the alleys.
Series of Events
So, the n word thing happened, and it was 2009, so I was still 23½. The reason I didn't look around Orlando for any teachers was because I didn't think there were any. I didn't know of any good classes. So, now I'm going to be 27 in like ½ year. I came home from college in 2005 and again in 2007 and finally started posting online and quit school.. I was 19 and 21.. I feel an old friend convinced me to quit college and charge onto the internet without being able to prepare. I thought my other friend encouraged me to have an interest in Nick at Nite. I moved to the area Ellen DeGeneres is from when I turned 12, was already pretty developed, seemed to need some exercise, like "what I did" wouldn't last. I think what pushed me not to do gymnastics team was to leave time open for ballet, etc., and so I wouldn't be just a gymnast and not be able to relate as a person, so it was dangerous. I'm not sure what happened to Britney Spears after she left the Mickey Mouse Club... My mom probably wanted me to do other things, like ride my bike on training wheels or even do yoga, and I only took ballet once a week and didn't want to look somewhere else. I left and my mom said it was too expensive and then I had to pay, seemed like it was too late, was 15.. Quit and did adult classes at 16.. Came back but did adult gymnastics and music school in the city so only did ballet once a week. I had started to eat more after a period of fasting and dieting and experimental ways of living. I'm not sure what really bothers me, maybe the fact I'm almost ½ the age of Ellen DeGeneres. I've been onto Tim Burton. I found someone in the community that age, and so it kinda opened me up to the possibilities. I don't believe in fate, so much, so I don't know what to say of lost opportunities of this nature. I made a decision to be a church musician. Mac and cheese burned. Anyway, so I am mad at this friend from Boston who just is so allergic to happening to meet smart people. Tim Burton thinking you can only meet famous people. He's just saying that, too. People keep getting mad at me. I really do believe this was an opportunity for me, but I don't know why I'm here, still. I just assume it's 1 more city with a job open still for my dad. Also, my dad keeps getting mad, like because I wanted a dress, like in a hurry, but I mean it was on sale so I asked didn't like steal from him somehow. All I can say is that I am in Orlando, and that everything seems to happen by chance but with reasons. That's 1 reason I am interested in her, I guess, I mean guess I would be, anyway, am in good standing. You can't have everything in L.A., the same way we only said NYC was worth it. So, me in Orlando is an open thing, because it's the hub of Florida for having Disney. The other areas are populated with immigrants and have no professional authority racially. They're all Latino, and they are so racist and annoying and disrupt stuff. I don't really know where I want to live because I'm still young and live with my parents, like old Irish farmers. Cooking more mac and cheese, in hopes someone will someday learn to comment sooner, like a chat response, dunno, don't want it to become like a book.. :/
Changed My Mind
I changed my mind about taking ballet. I'm not sure why I bothered stepping foot into a classroom. I should have looked elsewhere for something to do, like at the acting classes, the theater teachers, heard it was important, also heard it was important to see if you can find someone who is born around 1958..
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Where I'd Live
If I had to move from Pennsylvania and New York, I'd move to Kentucky, for the food, but stale bread.
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Class Today
So, I thought we were supposed to stay after class and practice, but I guess we didn’t get the assignment. They were rude, and I snapped the door shut. Someone I came across was mean to me, and I stomped the floor. I forgot about it.
I forget what else happened. I don’t really like the kids. Something did. Hm.
I know I was laughing, a lot, couldn’t help it, thinking of how San Fransisco was better than stubborn people from L.A.
I don’t know if I’ll get thinner. I need to sleep, sometime. I want to fit in junior dresses, or, otherwise, I will get women’s dresses.
Today, in class, Ginny did some Disney moves. I guess that she became accomplished by being there more. She is good at voices but not very childlike, you know?
I realized her dad’s from Pittsburgh and that people with ancestry there are stuck up. There are other bigger cities in Pennsylvania that are more European, and the Amish are more European, too. I mean, you might like Jackie Evancho better than the other Pennsylvanians. I guess being from the city, I connect with her, but I don’t know where her family all is from. I found Maggie Elizabeth Jones, age 10 born 2002, from We Bought a Zoo, is from Atlanta, and I don’t believe Dakota Fanning and Chloë Grace Moretz are from Atlanta, really. All I can say, is I was born in Fort Lauderdale. My mom isn’t from the U.S., and I was not raised by my dad. My mom doesn’t let my dad get too close ********. I think with my dad it was about how he looked. My mom is very attractive.. Chloë Grace Moretz’s mom definitely looks from Georgia. It seems more like comfortably proper than the New Orleans area. The thing with me is I never lived in Fort Lauderdale, but, because I lived in several cities in the area, when I was there, I can say I’m basically from there, just not from the city just because it was expensive or maybe something to do with the area. People from there look pretty worn but astute. It seems Miami might be astute, but I’m not sure. Maybe, Orlando is 2ndto Miami. Fort Lauderdale is like NY state. When I was there, it was more like Miami, and I heard of Miami, when I was a toddler or very young child. The thing is when my brother was born, I eventually looked more like a boy as he grew older. There was nothing to do. When I went to Georgia, it seemed like a place that preserved war history. I remember looking at Cabbage Patch Land as a kid, so I went there. I always lived in major hubs of Florida, except in Southeastern Florida we couldn’t afford to live in Fort Lauderdale, Miami, not Key West. You know, there used to be a bridge that went to Key West. Above Fort Lauderdale is where old people retire, West Palm Beach. Jacksonville is a really big city and is above the nation’s oldest continuing city. My mom wanted me to go to high school in the nation’s oldest continuing city, like we planned to go to the Catholic school in New Orleans. My mom even wanted me at an all girls and arts school. Other people were like leaving home. I think I had a good high school because it was the sports high school.. {3 I wonder if there are any people with heritage in Miami or Key West who are attractive. I’m not saying I’d get with them.. I think, I mean, it would be better to live in Miami than New York City, not that I need to go there but liked when the plane stopped there.. See, it’s 1 of the escapes, the escape, from the states, NY, Pennsylvania, NJ, and New England. Oh yea, and Dakota Fanning’s family is I think from somewhere in the Carolinas. I think it made them more white. Florida is considered kinda white, like the dream place, like Indonesia. In class, the teacher talked about Filipinos, which is a part of Asia.. I saw a boy I like dressed up in Burma, and a famous actress Kate Beckingsale is like ⅛ Burmese and from Britain. The Nepalese (sp?) in the area look more Asian. 3| So, a big thing was maybe in Pennsylvania that not people from the city are important. There are even the PA Dutch. I’m guessing that the Amish, not sure if PA Dutch, which seems more related to my country or rather farm family, are the most European. I did go there, more than once, but I didn’t get to do much. I guess maybe it didn’t have so much wildgrowth. So, my family are countryfolk. It’s just that they’re from up north. However, I think we have Jewish genes from the more German side. We are probably Native American indian, though. So, if we weren’t Jewish nor Native American, I’d probably come from a good family.. guess the Native American indian kinda counts me out, in my humble opinion. It just is a benefit, maybe the Jews aren’t Asian and they’re just like related to like the Egyptians. The Egyptians look Middle Eastern. I think I’ve seen other tribes in Northern Africa who look kinda like tribes in Turkey, like wild white people. Maybe, the Jews moved in the Middle Ages because of borrowing their religion? Oh, I noticed the southern Native Americans are more interesting but darker, like “not white.” I don’t know that people in Pennsylvania in public care that I’m Native American indian, and it’s not from a mom.. Even still, it seems to really matter, like if your dad thinks you’re white. Oh yes, and the people from Florida look white. So, I mean, maybe for some reason people in the South are European but not like in a white American way.
Bathroom Break
Think I'm White?
Why don't you just think I'm white? That means European. :/ Latino?
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Facebook Post
A special Behind the Scenes look at the making of "HERE WITH ME"http://www.facebook.com/TimBurton
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That's cute...
"Can I be included?" =}
So, when do I get to be a young adult? I want to be included with everyone else.
Designated Spokesperson
Why does Helena Bonham Carter feel she has to be a designated spokesperson? She's kinda dumb or that either or impossible might be the other term that I might I dubbed it. :/
TV
I'm looking at today's episode of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," and I thought that New Orleans was on the water!!! '80
What I Did
I had the whole frozen pizza, a cooked. 3I on water zucchini, a big hunk of beef I almost died on, ... I think that's it, and water.
I watched the episode of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." It was so cool to see Jillian Michaels and her 2 adopted kids. She has an older black boy and a baby white girl. I need to look into her more, have a DVD of her.
I have to record my homework, need to go to bed, need to wake up and iron my pants, get ready for school. I cut my bangs and want to straighten them, might need to cut them more if they don't bounce back.
I'm staying late after class to work on a group project, so I'llbe home around midnight, probably won't go out and get any food but maybe. Might be too tired, might go for a jog, will probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," hopefully do some singing soon.
I'm so winded, wondering about my break in the summer with Ballet I. Maybe will take Speech and the other CC Diction class with Ginny.
I watched the episode of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." It was so cool to see Jillian Michaels and her 2 adopted kids. She has an older black boy and a baby white girl. I need to look into her more, have a DVD of her.
I have to record my homework, need to go to bed, need to wake up and iron my pants, get ready for school. I cut my bangs and want to straighten them, might need to cut them more if they don't bounce back.
I'm staying late after class to work on a group project, so I'llbe home around midnight, probably won't go out and get any food but maybe. Might be too tired, might go for a jog, will probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," hopefully do some singing soon.
I'm so winded, wondering about my break in the summer with Ballet I. Maybe will take Speech and the other CC Diction class with Ginny.
Facebook Posts
http://www.facebook.com/ellentv
Cassandra Roy He is awfully funny, but you make me laugh much more!
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ME I wonder if he is German.
ME @Cassandra - Yes, he's not just hooked on Ellen DeGeneres.
Sandy Hall O'Hearn He is adorable. Miss seeing him!
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ME @Sandy - Cute. Love your dog. You, too, Karen. :)
@ Karen Ness
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ME Hi. :)
ME Yea.
ME Cute dog. U..U
@ Judith Zamrzla Gilbertson
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Jenny Schueneman I laughed soooo hard! My dogs got excited too!
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ME Expecting a performance?
ME I need to watch the full episode. She looked happy for her birthday but didn't stop to dwell on it.
Cassandra Roy He is awfully funny, but you make me laugh much more!
http://www.facebook.com/cassandrasroy
ME I wonder if he is German.
ME @Cassandra - Yes, he's not just hooked on Ellen DeGeneres.
Sandy Hall O'Hearn He is adorable. Miss seeing him!
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ME @Sandy - Cute. Love your dog. You, too, Karen. :)
@ Karen Ness
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ME Hi. :)
ME Yea.
ME Cute dog. U..U
@ Judith Zamrzla Gilbertson
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Jenny Schueneman I laughed soooo hard! My dogs got excited too!
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ME Expecting a performance?
ME I need to watch the full episode. She looked happy for her birthday but didn't stop to dwell on it.
What I'm Doing
I'm gonna watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and am gonna have a regular pizza, which doesn't look particularly appetizing, was gonna save and have pizza at the mall later but probably will well maybe will want a sammich at Barnes & Noble. I have to record my homework and do my journals, I guess. Wait, I did them, don't think they're due Tuesday but may print them out when I get there. Allowed to wear a costume, teacher said I could come in like as a sorta Vaudevillesque person. My new shirt came with beads, though, so I think I'm just wearing that.
Livin in Style 卐
So, my concern is the style I have from the birth year my dad was born, that people born before and after are better yet not as special. The other concern is his having Jewish last names around Germany, so guessing it's prevalent in German-Americans, maybe especially from the Pennsylvania area. He's also Native American, probably, which would pose as another issue. In Orlando, it's been hard unraveling the rest of the mystery. I just don't come compact from his side, I guess, but my mom is like that. So, for me, I have a mom like most people's dads and a dad like most people's moms, so it seems cool. However, I get the feeling no one and Ellen DeGeneres don't really "like" me, just find me accomplished, like I'm lucky or have a good last name and nice supplementary names and my mom. I always thought I was my mom to the world. I think my dad is a good person but not an attractive 1 but entertaining in a way that is beneficial and educational. I'm pretty much at a loss from who I was. I became a different stereotype, and now I'm kinda nothing. I used to be interesting and alive, and I wish to be young again. I just wasn't so juicy and bubbly. I was authentic because I was just ½ Chinese. I was sorta put behind a glass case of untold perfection. My dad was white, so everything was okay in the New Orleans area. I can't believe Ellen DeGeneres is not like this. Like, she is allergic to it. I know I am. I never thought being Native American indian helped me with the Chinese other than being not racist and to add another Asian culture. People thought my mom just was not that attractive and was a midget. She grew old after we were born. So, I guess that didn't work out too well. Then, people were interested in non-Americans + non-Latinos. Black people are very violent and for some reason seem American. I'm just guessing that there are other people who don't want to be American, like the Native Americans. Like, they can't seem non-American to just real Africans. They lost their culture. Anyone would have. No one cared about a British accent on the surface. It only got in the way of America. Any American accent was desired. People coveted my mom's grace and were envious of her strength. I just extracted the goods from my dad. However, now, I have racial problems from my mom that are desirable over other non-whites. However, my dad is not as sexy as my mom, so I'm not like as sexy as I thought I was. People encourage my dad to be sexy, and I'm not my dad. I had a good relationship, but then history happened. I had a hard time in junior high, Catholic, homework, wasted classtime, so much. Also, it was about me not having enough physical activity. I was afraid to do modern dance, and my mom only let me do ballet 1 day. She thought maybe I'd do something else, did cross country. It was a huge thing, dance team, but I found out having natural blonde hair is an asset. Maybe not white. I don't know anyone with a sexy dad, maybe my cousin. However, her mom encourages her to be mean to me. My cousin wants to be how she is. She is under the curse of our family. Please, let me out of this world, you only encourage the rest of them.
Infantile Projections
Why does my dad get mad at me in infantile states growing up with my mama, hurting me, forcing me out of functions, because of something I didn't know that isn't as good?
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Monday, January 28, 2013
My Mistakes, Only
So, any mistake just I make is such a big whooping deal?
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Artsy Dads
Ellen DeGeneres's job is to get mad at people being nice to me. Maybe, she's not as nice but has an artsy dad.
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Unhealthy Dads
Why should I accept my friends with unhealthy dads? I won't.
Also, I don't believe in reveling in shit.
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Also, I don't believe in reveling in shit.
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Online, at the Time
It's not fun not having Facebook, and no one is online. Oh, well. I mean 2 Facebooks. Can't check pages, I think. It's in Newsfeed.
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Humble Father's Kid
So, why do I have a tacky American dad? I'm a girl. If he doesn't change is his problem. He isn't always that way and probably is old and still quite racially insecure. Why didn't anyone treat me better? I just am not more like my dad's flaws than others.
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Less Experienced in Experimenting
The Brritish in Les Miserables are less experienced in experimenting with voice than me.
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Burton for Kids With Younger Dads
Think of the woorrlld cretded for girls and kids with younger dads.
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Saucy White Babies
So, why are babies encouraged to be saucy, stop acting like I'm not white enough because I am.
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Valentine's Sweethearts
Í haven't decided what candy to bring b4 Valentine's.
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On the Side of a Road
I'm sitting on the side of the sidewalk, ate on the sidewalk, under four dollar.
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TV
I watched “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” online, the clips.
She thinks my mom is a nigger, but that mean she’s a nigger because only a nigger would think my mom is a nigger. I didn’t dub her 1. She’s just being forward, and that’s bullshit to me. She’s flirting like white people from New Orleans. I always feel like … them.
Funny Things @ Class Last Week
A black guy was being moody so I moved and had to walk across the room. I heard a loud binder outside and checked it out and was like okay to this cool girl. It hurt the sensitive girl I was talking about. I forget what else was important. Oh yes, I was outside the room in the middle of Improv and just started laughing out of nowhere, several times spaced out.
Facebook Post
Exhausted from the stress, but relieved and so blessed that my ex and best friend, Ron is found. Still don't kno where he has been "released" to (out or to another hospital) but we're looking into it.
I have been working steadily throughout this ordeal. When I am going through horrific things, I am someone who can still deliver my personal best, because to give and give and give is my joy, AND it serves as a true oasis for me....I think a God-given oasis.
I have been working steadily throughout this ordeal. When I am going through horrific things, I am someone who can still deliver my personal best, because to give and give and give is my joy, AND it serves as a true oasis for me....I think a God-given oasis.
An Aura of Foreboding
At the Key West ghost tour, I already sensed the agony at the motel.
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Liking Kids
I wonder if my mom likes Nell Burton - nah because I'm not my brother.
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"What 80s baby?"
Ever think, when I was a little girl, this is the attractive, snazzy, healthy, "supple" way that I remember my life being.
Isn't that like the culmination time zone of all the technology and modern art clashing into surrealism and simplified logic?
Isn't that like the culmination time zone of all the technology and modern art clashing into surrealism and simplified logic?
Sanitation
It smells kinda like greasy in a soft yet somewhat striking way. I just put all the food trash in a bag. :} Yesterday, last night or tonight. I wanted to clean the bags from the floor. Maybe, I will after my shower-bath.
The Funny Things
So, Ellen DeGeneres would rather argue with an old friend for flirting me away and giving me time to soak her in..
IMDb
I posted 3 songs of me singing on IMDb:
"The Doctor Is In" from You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown
http://youtu.be/KFn0IkCpv5s
3:01-3:21
"Memory" from Cats by Andrew Lloyd Webber
http://youtu.be/1y3OZHC_uVY
"Another Suitcase Another Hall" from Evita by Andrew Lloyd Webber
http://youtu.be/liPAngSxE0g
"The Doctor Is In" from You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown
http://youtu.be/KFn0IkCpv5s
3:01-3:21
"Memory" from Cats by Andrew Lloyd Webber
http://youtu.be/1y3OZHC_uVY
"Another Suitcase Another Hall" from Evita by Andrew Lloyd Webber
http://youtu.be/liPAngSxE0g
Snoopy Tongue
When I make a tongue like my mom, why does it look like Snoopy the dog from "Peanuts?"
Shopping
I asked my dad to get me the pink dress and blazer, a nice Mardi Gras color like the nice, friendly, pleasurable colors on my blog :} tomorrow since the sale ends.
Neating & Tidying
If you already said I don't have to have traits of my dad that are displeasing, you can't suddenly say I need to have it in place otherwise.
Shopping
$53.99
Largest Sizes
XL Deb
L Pink Macy's
They sell blazers without buttons. I couldn't find any skater dresses that fit me much. They don't go up to XL. I keep having hot dogs and hamburgers because I'm not rich and can't eat out. I mean, I don't have good recipes to slave over. I'm just a plump girl, a few hot dogs..
Largest Sizes
XL Deb
L Pink Macy's
They sell blazers without buttons. I couldn't find any skater dresses that fit me much. They don't go up to XL. I keep having hot dogs and hamburgers because I'm not rich and can't eat out. I mean, I don't have good recipes to slave over. I'm just a plump girl, a few hot dogs..
How I Feel
I feel tight from working out. Hey, I thought it was just only like 12:30 A.M., and now it's 2:30 A.M. *yawn* I get to go shopping. I guess I'll look online for clothes. 30
Ate
Hunk of Beef
Medium-Small Peanut Butter Cookie
Big Piece of Vanilla Cake and Frosting With Some Frozen Melted Whipped Cream and Breyer's Vanilla Ice Cream
I brought the rest of my liverwurst into my room.
I was gonna have a ham, bakery bread, lettuce head, American cheese, and I think lite Italian dressing my dad got sandwich, instead of a frozen pizza. I want the pizza at Barnes & Noble sometime but really like the sandwiches and want to try more, also liked Panera Bread but want something cheaper next time since I didn't like this. I didn't like something I got at the mall with sauerkraut, a sandwich. I get sandwiches at school, too.
Medium-Small Peanut Butter Cookie
Big Piece of Vanilla Cake and Frosting With Some Frozen Melted Whipped Cream and Breyer's Vanilla Ice Cream
I brought the rest of my liverwurst into my room.
I was gonna have a ham, bakery bread, lettuce head, American cheese, and I think lite Italian dressing my dad got sandwich, instead of a frozen pizza. I want the pizza at Barnes & Noble sometime but really like the sandwiches and want to try more, also liked Panera Bread but want something cheaper next time since I didn't like this. I didn't like something I got at the mall with sauerkraut, a sandwich. I get sandwiches at school, too.
Facebook Post
photo
Nice picture. Mrs. Zwieg|Ohmen looks very happy and good, now. Mrs. Veneman|Chapman's granddaughter is so beautiful. That looks like a pleasant place to eat. I hope everything is going well. The baby is so cute. http://cab1986orlfl14.blogspot.com/2013/01/facebookpost20130128.html
Well, I'm working out now but not too much and thinking of doing Ballet I in the summer, otherwise wanted to take Organ and have been told I could. In the Fall, I plan to do Movement for the Actor and Diction from a teacher who has done voices at Disney World since the mid 80s. I'm taking Acting I, Improvisation, and maybe Voice for the Actor from her, now. She also teaches Speech and another kind of vocal diction class at another community college. It doesn't sound as fun but at least is something different, could not make it this semester. I think I'll be ½ her age as this semester ends. I just auditioned to be an actor and was told to take classes and decided to look for a teacher I liked in something to do in the community already I think. We are encouraged to come again for Acting I. Voice for the Actor has the packet but is only 2 credit hours. I was gonna do Weight Training or Tennis in the mornings but maybe next year will do Ballet II and then Ballet III|Intermediate, also is Pointe I & II maybe after. A girl said I could perform just ballet, as well. I would take Improvisation, again, I know, too. It is nice sitting through her classes, but I will probably have to do something else, find something else to do, here. There's always the performances for the colleges.
Nice picture. Mrs. Zwieg|Ohmen looks very happy and good, now. Mrs. Veneman|Chapman's granddaughter is so beautiful. That looks like a pleasant place to eat. I hope everything is going well. The baby is so cute. http://cab1986orlfl14.blogspot.com/2013/01/facebookpost20130128.html
Well, I'm working out now but not too much and thinking of doing Ballet I in the summer, otherwise wanted to take Organ and have been told I could. In the Fall, I plan to do Movement for the Actor and Diction from a teacher who has done voices at Disney World since the mid 80s. I'm taking Acting I, Improvisation, and maybe Voice for the Actor from her, now. She also teaches Speech and another kind of vocal diction class at another community college. It doesn't sound as fun but at least is something different, could not make it this semester. I think I'll be ½ her age as this semester ends. I just auditioned to be an actor and was told to take classes and decided to look for a teacher I liked in something to do in the community already I think. We are encouraged to come again for Acting I. Voice for the Actor has the packet but is only 2 credit hours. I was gonna do Weight Training or Tennis in the mornings but maybe next year will do Ballet II and then Ballet III|Intermediate, also is Pointe I & II maybe after. A girl said I could perform just ballet, as well. I would take Improvisation, again, I know, too. It is nice sitting through her classes, but I will probably have to do something else, find something else to do, here. There's always the performances for the colleges.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Problem
Why do I keep thinking of my dad's oldest younger sister in tacky ways, like just blogging it's coming up? I thought she was 1 to have made her statement. It seems like blogging people all attacked me for having fun because they're jealous and don't feel like it. The messages just keep coming. I don't care what you have to say every time I saw a curse word in my blog! ,80
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