"Times Change, People Don't"

Some people think I didn't care about popularity wishes in people.  People want to all count me out.  They pick people who have some thing in common and then only condone me on the category of that point.  I don't think it's right to be an animal about who gets to be touched.  I don't like how things are fabricated these days.  I have a disposition about where things are more affable.  It seems to have changed after the popularity of wishing you knew Tim Burton.  It's funny to see Helena Bonham Carter defend him but supposedly from 1 person, using that 1 person, and that 1 person is me, to get away with getting to be with and study him.  Yes, she does have 2 kids with him, 1 before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) and 1 after even Sweeney Todd (2007,) a boy and a girl.  I don't think because you live/d in California that you have to be piecey.  It must be something they've done.  It's about big guys who eat and go out and compliment pretty beach babes, feeding the kids and having a "real" life, whatever that means to them.

Morally compared to others Ellen thinks I'm trash (sometimes no.)

I didn't like the Oscars last year.  Think they won't be good anymore.  Ellen is consciencious like shy about thinking she's the prettiest one.  I was excited today taking a walk wanting to look to see if she Tweeted yet.  Like, the Oscars didn't seem as big.  It was just about Ellen being consciencious insofar as she has cute hair and looks.  She wasn't very open and "there" for you.  I am sad and wish she had more fun.  Maybe, it wasn't a good time.  :(  It seems something could have been made right, but I don't know what it is.  Why won't the Oscars be good?  It was all about the sarcasm of someone though nice.. Helena Bonham Carter and Tim Burton, who split up being friends conveniently now.  It was about the liking of their young daughter.  It's like that aspect of people, what they think of them, ate everything up, the way the craze over Charlie and the Chocolate Factory did the world.  You'd point fingers at people my age, but it's the younger ones that abused that opportunity.  It's the opportunity to not take it over like they're the only ones who deserve that kind of stuff, even if we do it in our own version!

What do you think about...

What do you think about not thinking of anything because of Nell Burton?

So, Y

Did everyone know I would call Nell Burton a nigger?

Pestery Child Celebs

Did you ever think of how pestery Nell Burton is, like with her mom?  She is significantly Jewish, and haha stuck up I mean it's not Chinese.  No, that doesn't mean you go schizo and think um well you didn't say something like I didn't mean that in some specific way.  Ugh.  I mean, I looked at Lily Rose, and I mean yea she looks good.  She just seems to have a normal family, not stuck up about being from the West yet not Pennsylvanian.  Her mom is nice.  It just means that Jewish people are mean and racist.  What, do you think Helena Bonham Carter things Europeans are not deep?  They want to be.  She probably knows.  She just hasn't like come to some conclusion..

Sassy

I don't know why you think I'm sassy with Ginny, but people are sassy about Tim Burton's successes, save his daughter.

Facebook Post

Ginny, I forget why, but I was concerned about you. I'm adn adult so can talk to you. I'm more mature than most adults and pretty energetic and smart. Maybe, I was just worried about you at Lakeside. I used to clip my nails, short, all off, every 2 days or so... I got out after a month, after just being at home for like 2 years or whatnot. So, you can see me on YouTube, I have my nails before were like more sorta specific. The only good thing now is they are harder and I've taken pills. I went in there, and the black people made them not as slanted and round. The world made them look like toenails "because of the baby Jew." I really don't care about the black bossy people in Orlando. They think you need to get it out, but no one else does. The only good thing about Orlando is for some reason it's a vacation spot. It's located in the most exciting place in the world. I've never lived in Central Florida growing up. I did live in Miramar. I didn't really have problems in other places, like Coral Springs. New Orleans probably has the best weather. I mean, I guess it's been thought of a lot, not really overrated..

Something Funny

Why does Nell Burton seem to be made of like something sorta outlined in like sticky white plastic filled with white fluffy stuff, like gauze or a diaper, because I heard that Tim Burton's parents are from Canada.  :o

My teacher Ginny's dad is from Pittsburgh, and her mom is from California, and she is from the San Fransisco area, Santa Clara.  :}  Also, some cities are considered better than country areas, officially, and others not.  The other sad fact is there's a big thing like of say northern Pennsylvania or the Amish if not, which came as a surprise.  See, people think below Pennsylvania is Southern.. ?  I guess Canada is European.  I'm not sure what the funny thing is.. ?  Tim Burton seems to have had good parents, but how do we know for sure?  There's a big thing about the Baby Boomers being a problem, but Tim Burton is a Late Boomer.  Late Bloomer is also a word.  Sometimes, people with older parents are Late Bloomers.  (That means they mature later..)

I don't see why California would be unfeeling and that Canada would be feeling.

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When the n word thing happened with Tim Burton's daughter, the Blackberry stopped going in style.  Photobucket has video ads when loading.  Twitter took down the option to see lots of pix at once, though in the past week you can flip through them.  I NEED A NEW CELL PHONE.

Everything She Does ) ) )

NIGGER  3[  Why is everything NELL BURTON does right?

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I wonder if my mom likes Nell Burton - nah because I'm not my brother.

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More Like That

What do you think of Tim Burton's daughter?  You just see that she thinks she's so important.  I mean, I like her, but it's like, um, well, okay, am I supposed to think you're better?  I've seen some really cute people, too bad she can't be more like that.

Thoughts

I think there's like a smudge or scratch in my glass I saw before.

So, I'm not gonna act like me getting uppity is a mistake "because I'm not white" BECAUSE I AM MORE WHITER THAN YOU.

Why is it really just okay if you say something bad if it's to flip off another idea?  LOOK I DON'T CARE.

Okay, I was in bed.  I need to make like a long scarf and attack a stuffed animal at the end.  Oh ...  So, I was in bed and trying to feel and had to connect myself to experiences and secret messages, and they were plentiful with stops, too.  I went to bed, and I must have had an okay sleep.  I woke up about 14 hours later (went to bed after I went home and changed and went to the bathroom of course) and my dad was home eating his lunch.  I felt bothered, maybe should not have.  I broke down because I couldn't feel like before, and it rather upsets me when bozos do this or whatever.  So, I looked really pretty
hen I woke up.  I took a picture and recorded myself singing a theater song before.  Anyway, so, I went to bed finally, a bit more easily and had a bad dream of a fat woman, supposedly Ginny Kopf, not realizing all the while she's much fatter, like my therapist, a small|part Italian I know from Miami, supposedly, rather plain.  (Sounds suspicious for Orlando.)  I don't know why, but I got a therapist after I started cursing on my blog, probably would get 1 anyway I just realized, which doesn't really tell me anything.  I mean, I still got 1, and the experience, while good, seemed to have a negative effect, though I still actually want to see her if I'm not too tired.  I mean, if my classes aren't dropped I can still sleep all day since weight training is cancelled.  Not sure if weight training at that time was a good idea, but it's in the morning.  I was gonna do homework all day but realized I'm sick.  I only have classes twice a week.  So, yea, I kept trying to literally ending up fantasizing that this fat woman with supposedly California heritage like with Helena Bonham Carter's dad being English affecting me while I was imagining that she wanted to carry me for some reason, in ways to be nice but never really "doing it."  It was sorta tacky.  Anyway, so I found my brother was home somehow eventually, sorta a dark scene like a TV and microwave, small, neat maybe Orlando-style house.  He was watching TV, maybe getting secret popcorn, maybe actually had video games rather than PC games.  So, I crept to a back porch, which I guess ... oh, there was a like ridge but no fence like "our old house" had.  I saw from before too a house with a dark blue wall and a TV and a kinda like Chinese-hyped up boy in it I couldn't see, probably thinking or like saying "you'll be sorry."  So, then I heard something about "feet" but just got the message, didn't hear anything.  I saw above me a spectre, a large white bird with maybe yellow tips and a yellow crest!  I wanted it to come and it came in sync.  I held it.  At college, I was the only 1 who picked up the chinchilla, and the leash choked it as I brought it to me.  "I choked the chinchilla."  So, like it's claws were a great stress and it's beak could also stressfully snap me.  Somehow, I guess it turned into a porch and I locked it out and didn't realize what it was but was like stapling a tent opening together so it wouldn't escape.  My mom got a little bird cage, it it was depressingly small and it about squeezed out.  We tried to pour it into the dog cage, but it seemed it would get out.  I think the lady came back, and then I felt stimulated like what California supposedly does and I supposedly don't.  So, I woke up looking like a nigger with a tight face but round eyes.  I blame my dad.  I said I was so upset.  Yesterday, I got upset when the weight class didn't start until February, thought my parents did it.  Guess it's a Valencia precaution but you know not really.  That's what bothers me.  So, I pretty much let out and felt ill toward my dad.  I was uppity with the people I spoke with.  I attacked a black, fat lady for lying to me.  I said okay to the dean for the rules she spouted but asked for proof.  Also, my mom didn't text me back about the classes, so I don't know what she did.  I forgot to tell her I'm not allowed to stay in the classes I don't pay for.  So, if I stay, I won't be in Voice for the Actor.  Also, I counted recently and came to the realization it'd be an issue that I'd be exactly ½ the teacher's age as the semester ends.  Didn't bother counting and don't know her birth year but that unless she graduated early it's 1958.  Also, I don't care what my dad thinks about his mom, that he has to punish me "for being a nigger" like thems.  There's nothing wrong with being assertive and mad when someone attacks you.  What if they didn't?  Well, er, then no one could be mad like them.  That's that.  And, no, I'm not a nigger to say that means I think that what I do in relation to my mom doesn't matter because other people think I don't matter and that I shouldn't think I do.  That's just bs of them saying maybe if something is harmful it's strict.  I said that before I think that means|= mental disease.  So, yes, the er dream was really bad and long.  I was relieved to wake up and find that it wasn't Ginny Kopf but in a way it seems like the people we've been with matter.  Oh, also, my dad called my mom a nigger but not literally because of the STUPID "baby jew" thing, what an idiot, what a worthless piece of shit.  He's just a stupid pos.  He's just going for "the most."  Why is he even talking to me?  He must be stupid.  I don't have to have anything to do with his fat kind of ***.  Hey, look, I got mad, again, and it's also something I just addressed.  It's not the best idea, but I don't believe curse words are bad.  SO GO TO HELL NIGGA.  ':0  I don't try to offend people, but some people are just offensive creatures.  That doesn't really need to pertain to "any solid thing" I just did because I'm not from California.  I just realized L.A. is tacky.  I don't like N.Y.C.  It's just niggers.  I just realized that people think that ... wait I got another insulting message about someone I care about.  YOU DON'T MATTER.  YOU'RE A MISTAKE.  I realized I know that people calculate the wrong things and assume I'm wrong.  I realized people think I don't matter, though I know in the end they think so.  They think that I'm just not good enough.  I think they're wrong, and I don't believe in pretending.  That idea had some punch but time to eat nigger.  Oh and I guess I just got mad about protecting someone.  Um, I was mad because it's not funny.  It seems everyone matters.  Don't worry, I still care.  About your logic.  But I don't like the negative idea!  WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM YOU NIGGER.  You're the 1 who thinks cursing is exciting.  I also realized that Nell Burton has to have the fantasies of Nell Burton, but I don't agree because Tim Burton said it and he doesn't have to and he's a nigger to me already.  :p  Because he's torturing his daughter.

Problem

HELP!  I THINK GINNY KOPF IS INVOLVED.  *BEEP*

I have a good relationship with my dad, but I don't wanna have *** with him.

My life turned into an experiment, but he wasn't involved, just a bystander.  I grew up not like being so ... well I was sensitive about being touchy with my parents.

I feel like I'm gonna explode!

The car that picks me up just drove past my house.  I saw my neighbor come, I think, and at 1st I thought he was black.  He thinks he is something.  So, the car like passed my house but stopped at a house ahead, for some reason.  I was across my house.  They're supposed to knock and I saw them knock on someone else's house.  I called them again, and they have me up as 2nd time "no sho'."  The car drove past in a gay "Central Florida" ir Orlando or area way.

I also figured if Tim Burton is gonna be a snot, like treat me like shit since the n word thing and not be fun anymore, that his daughter cannot = something.  WHAT *BEEP*  His daughter is her parents.  I am not my parents.  That's not how we grew up functioning.

Also, I got a reminder to do my homework when I came back in.  I thought of ******** people with my k*** in the heart.  I was thinking of snapping them off in a flubby way.

So, I woke my parents up, and my dad was all uppity.  My mom was gonna call for me, and my dad acted like I was a boy!  WHAT'S HIS PROBLEM!

STOP SUDDENLY THROWING IDEAS AT ME.  I'M NOT GONNA BE YOUR STUPID CHINESE ROBOT YOU NIGGER.

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Nell Burton @ her Tumblr, by moi BD

Dreams

It's hard to remember my 1st dream.  Oh, yes, I thought my old choir director, Mrs. Campo, was murdered.  It was my fault, somehow, I guess because I'm indian.  So, I found her, and she was carrying me quite a lot with my hurt ankle.  It was interesting how I connected.  Before, Ellen DeGeneres was carrying me with my hurt ankle and I was thinking about being rubbed.  There was another dream where I was trying to **********.  My dad's youngest sister and little girl cousin, the aunt told me to be more comfortable in the bathroom.  When I went in the bathtub, I looked from behind the curtains and the light was on and she had come in then left.  The next dream, I was on a long long walking bridge, strong, like a dream.  I remember there were 3 boys, 1 maybe his name started with a Z.  1 was Tim Burton's son.  I talked to him, and he was really nice and cute.  He was small with dark hair.  I was with several adults.  I know Helena Bonham Carter was there, and she was taller than me by several inches and more rotund and healthy.  I got up thinking I wanted to put how her round, chubby daughter squaked as she picked her up.  After awhile, I said she was the most European person here and went up to her and maybe or probably started to put my arm around her.  I guess she was putting her arm around me and stuff for a long time, with my hurt ankle, which isn't really hurt now, and in different ways.  For some reason, I was thinking of old movies like Singing in the Rain or An American in Paris, which I thought of seeing Mary Poppins yesterday.  Eventually, she picked me up because of my ankle, for a long time.  I made a strong connection with her dad being all English and then with the rest of her race being Spanish and Jewish.  I'm not sure what was most memorable.  I guess my hurt ankle and seeing her as most European.  I did see maybe an all English blonde with slick hair, and I guess for some reason it didn't matter to me.  ***  So, I guess you can imagine how it was.  I don't remember all the details.  I guess I felt kinda knocked out a bit but nothing really bad, like I went in and wasn't afraid to process things.  Before, I think I felt a bit worn and unable to experience.  This time, I was kinda not fully developed, still.  When I was looking to see if she was murdered, it was very depressing and something I had to accept.  I was worried that it had to do with me not stopping it and causing it.  It was sorta a dark, trashy, more sharp slum area, more orangey and like with slits of other things.  The bridge was big, like an old dream, and weighted down, quite a lot, though it didn't seem to affect me as much as it could, like I was dead in a way partly.  It was a thick bridge.  We were sitting on the side.  There were like maybe 3 wires and a window with cement on the outside.  It was very strong, like a building or street, very thick, seemed so stable but uh-oh not really invincible.  So, Helena Bonham Carter was wearing a dress, which was maybe was like brownish with certain colors like orange or blue or green.  So, Helena Bonham Carter was saying "David" because her dad is all English a few times.  Also, I went in the bathroom to lock the door.  I can't even close my garage door because of a chord in the way.  I guess with the choir director we were down in a low area that was kinda yellowy-orangey-maybe gray.  I had told someone about a Cathedral that seemed good but not the best, you know 1 of 3.

PROBLEM

So, my mom seemed to get mad at me for something that supposedly Ellen DeGeneres would agree with.  I figured the n word thing is why I don't trust her jokes.  See anyone happy around, lately?  No, there is no point.  Also, I already decided I don't want to be tacky in the 1950s.

I'm rather disturbed and overly taxed.  I thought of some violent things.  Not like realistic, which I have to not do..  I 1st got upset at Nell Burton because I also got a message from Ginny Kopf via my mom.  I'm disturbed she thinks she's so good just because she did the Disney voice since the mid-1980s.

I'm being flooded with insults, for some odd reason.  I'm tired of going through this person's BULLLSHIT.

I also got mad at Ellen DeGeneres for thinking she's something because it said that I wasn't good enough racially, which is BULLLSHIT.  She keeps thinking she's cooler, and she keeps thinking she's gooder.

Being Right and Saving Things for Later

Nell Burton is considered right because her dad is from L.A.  I don't know why his family is from Burbank, but all the broadcasting is there.  I guess she's saving it for later.

Help!

I was thinking of how annoyingly racist and stuck up Nell Burton is and felt that I might be my dad and thought of c**ting people's faces.  I keep thinking of that but got over it again.  Why is this happening like this?  Maybe, I'll go ahead and c** your face for you.  EMO BURTON FAN

Being Perfect

So, anything a Late Boom girl says is right.

What do you think of this girl who is probably all English: link.  It seems like it's best not to mix with other Europeans.  I know Órla Fallon's last name was Carron and is French from Normandy not the Anglo-Normans, which seem to be what pervade Ireland, though no one talks about it.  The Anglo-Normans are Norwegian and maybe other Nordic countries.  I know in the U.S., I met a French blonde married to someone with a German last name.  She was so smart but didn't seem to think so.  I had a drama teacher from New Orleans with a French last name.  My 1st drama teacher I found is from where Ellen DeGeneres is from.  I met 2 other people from New Orleans who might have some very white ancestry who I liked, though 1 is gay and looks sick now.

I'm curious, so Tim Burton made England popular, but Helena Bonham Carter seems to admit she grew up with her mom, whose mom is Jewish and whose dad is Spanish and Jewish.  It's just people who have all 1 European ethnicity have so much to offer.  You know Kate Bush?  She's ½ English ½ Irish.  She had really nice parents.  She seemed more interested in modern culture and could fit in in England but isn't like a hose of bossiness.  She isn't the same, now.  She got really big, and people would think "that's something Christina likes."

Well, Ellen DeGeneres's mom's last name is Jewish, so maybe Tim Burton wants his kids Jewish.  Maybe, he uses them as a tool.  Hey, aren't I used as a tool to not look that good because my dad is old and my mom isn't technically just "white?"  People think all my accomplishments are just me being spoiled.  Did you know I grew up thinking the opposite, like that I did things I was supposed to and everyone else came from lazy, racist families?