Monday, October 24, 2016

Good night!

Okay, sweet dreams, everyone out there!

What I Thought

I thought you didn't wanna talk about this.

This is a sign that I'm right.

What?

With strangers, it's not a problem.

What?

I didn't say anything bad.

Something I Don't Believe In

If I have something good there has to be something so bad it's wrong.

Is Hollywood for us

Italian-American?

Hm..

My relationships keep being ruined.

Lily Rose Sweet Melody Depp

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She reminds me of Lily Rose Sweet Melody Depp.

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You mean..

..you can't do what she does?

Why isn't her hair still red?

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You can't make people..

..hate me.

Just because the world has been blessed

with a lovely girl does not mean it's the dream to hurt the rest of us.

What now?

There's no point.  This is just bad.  Anyone would think so.  I was being careful!  It seems I can't do anything right.  I left it at that, but something just keeps coming.

I thought I said

I didn't do anything bad nor did I intend it.

Picky?

Who would care if it weren't for this experiment?

No, I know I'm in trouble!

People don't care about my well-being.

It's not just a nice relationship.

What wasn't..

..presentable?

Maybe, I'm coming from somewhere else.  These people get away with things that if others saw wouldn't be doing.

These Outbursts

from my dad are not okay cuz they shake up the rest of the world when I'm in pain.

I need to appreciate my parents harder.

I have a dream..

..if I knew about children acting in musicals.. would I do it?

I think if I had a musical instrument I'd play it.

What about look at..

..when I think about something related it came up?

No one else cares.

I thought I was being nice.  I'm not always friendly, sometimes serious.

They are robotized.

If I say anything about someone, they find something related that's bad, like if it's about a cat they'll think of something negative about a cat.

Did they chose one person and have them represent everyone else, too?  If so, I might better understand the situation.

cuz

I'm righteous.

Mua ha ha!

I will not change for you in this way.

What!

I was being extra nice!  What evil did you all weave outta that?

What is this?

This isn't a big deal.

Are you trying to hurt me?

Agitated

What business does anyone have tricking me to think I'm so bad?  Judgment?

I think they "stopped, dropped, and rolled," and I don't know exactly why.

I realize..

..the English of late have secretly given us some nasty habits.

I just am not a bad person who averts satisfying discussion of important topics.  I don't skirt around things I don't have to and shouldn't.

A Nasty Situation

If other girls with young moms don't need a nasty situation, why should I put up with one?

Here's the Lowdown

I am not gay.  I can talk about whatever I want as long as it's right and done the right way.

I wish.. I wish.. I wish in vain

I should have had a kid when I was a preteen or in high school.  I don't want one now.  I want to be a kid, again.  Also, I tend to like people who are not related to me.

Sad

Late Boomers want me to give my flesh to children born around 1997 and 1998.

I am nice to them like you're supposed to be already!  I don't give my flesh.

So, why am I in the wrong in this regard?

What?

I just don't want to "stop, drop, and roll," if something like this comes up.

Destination Imperfection

If I mention someone who comes up in my life in a good way, the attention goes to them, like they're getting attention instead of me then because I was mean to them?  I wonder if it's like this because of an accident I made of if it's the way it is and something true to think about.

I didn't think I acted meanly towards them.  Maybe, it's just something sensitive.

This isn't really a nice way to be, when they come up to me every day and for this.

I know, tho!  I'm just in trouble and anyone can do whatever they want to me.

I don't do this to them!

It's too bad it has to be this way.  I wonder if this is a price to pay for something bigger and there is no real solution.

I'm not being "derogatory."

I just feel pressured if I do talk about them and when I'm talking about something that could be related.

Hm, tho.

I'm not really mean/unfair to anyone when I post.

I'm working on considering people want to be like me again.

"Do unto others as you would have others do unto you?"

My Anger

I can deal with people being mean to me online, strangers, celebrities..  However, if it has to do with Ellen DeGeneres said they could and should be mean and do whatever they want to me, it's not okay.  People have turned on me cuza her.  I guess, if I don't accept Ellen DeGeneres, people must be still fighting it or something for this to happen.  People who are closer to me do this more.  Maybe, they have more plans.  I think some people must really like her a lot to do this, or maybe some people just want things from me and see it as an opportunity.

Um, excuse me?

Why do people like people my age with big noses so much and are mean to everyone else?  It's not like I did anything.

Why don't people care about me?

I realize my life is about fixing myself concerning things like money and chores.

Otherwise, I mean, I am not set out to be bad.  I feel like I'm treated harshly.  Has everyone always been treated that way?

Going in Circles Here

I realize that I'm French and I go in circles and think anything can be seen in a positive way.

How did I end up in such a mess?  To be safe, we should just say no to me?

I think about everything I do, in a way.  I don't just say no for no reason.  I know why, and I agree with why.

Things That Don't Sit Well

(1)  I feel that people are trying to make my life miserable cuz I'm not born around 1997 and 1998 to Late Boom parents.

(2)  People are acting like me speaking to someone who is cool who is a Late Boomer is too much and matters.  They are stealing opportunities maybe I could have had.  Basically, it's that they think I cannot talk to prestigious, emotional older adults.  I used to be welcome to do that.  People doing this are just messing around and don't care and just wanna be bad and mean to me.  It doesn't matter.  Let's not wait until we discover every individual in the world 1st!  The word would stop going round.

(3) People present me with the lie they can ruin my relationship by me saying there's absolutely nothing wrong with them talking to people I like.  That's a different issue.

Question, anyone know?

Do you know exactly what all you want from me?

Something in Common

I noticed Bella Thorne and I are both form Florida and moved away.  I don't remember what, but some things were in common.  I know how she "makes it."  1st, you do something incredible that no one else can achieve.  After that, you take a break and take watcha really want!  She was in a TV show and she had to memorize soo much and with dances most episodes and isn't even an official dancer so must be something!  It was so much fun to watch.  I saw her in several movies in theaters after, and she had small main roles surrounded by other "stars."  I think she went back to work, but I don't know if she will be in theaters in a more main role or a show starring herself.

What's different I'm wondering is that I want to live in glory in a way that was painful again but more organized and such.  I wonder if she needed a break from the TV show before doing more things but after she graduated from high school.

I know the way to go.

You have to have white hair but be that mental case school drop out passive aggressive female.

You can count me out.

I see people are concerned about being treated nicely like a daughter, but there are such nice people older than me who people who could be my parents might be rather young to be all theirs.  So, I have 1 point there.

Hocus Pocus (1993)

Everyone loves this.  It has Bette Midler, too, who I also like in Gypsy (1993) with a lotta catchy/popular tunes.  Everyone else prefers the little girl in Hocus Pocus as far as why they like this film.  I find myself in the same boat.

Did you feel like a little princess when you were a little girl? because in this movie the little girl reminds me of people I know who are younger than me.

Fat People

Do you click and go? or are they a threat to your time/life?

The Theory of "One?"

People think when they see people like Tim Burton as an animator of stop motion that everyone should be the only one like that.

When they see people like Johnny Depp, they think they should be the only one all about him all the time.


I think these things are strange.  I honestly don't want my life to *all be in a box*.  I like a world full of more than a single point of a single thing.  This is one way of looking at how I function and like it.  What about things like you could be a classical artist?  That's something different.  It's not that you can't do arts and crafts.

Matilda (1996)

It reminds me of the A Little Princess (1995.)  Which one are you comfortable with?..

Highlight for Spoilers:

A Little Princess - a girl being reunited with her blood father after a war

Matilda - a girl at the end becomes adopted by her teacher and spends more time with her than she would with her blood parents

The actors are both sweet.  A Little Princess is 2 years older than me, and Matilda is a year younger than me.  The actresses are similar in many ways.  I wonder how old their mom is.  I guess people with older moms seem younger cuz they are babied more.  I wonder if that's wrong.  I wonder if they don't like it in that way.

I have an older dad considering my age.  I feel like he and others try to act like I'm infantile in stupid ways, to "take care" of me.  How cheap!  I also find myself in messes, like my room and how possessions and important things have developed.  It looks sorta cool, but I was hoping for it to be more artsy and complete.  I go out in the house, and it is not something I want to like it looking like a warehouse.  I want an escape.  Like, when I was like a toddler or little kid I didn't have anything to do or look forward to.  I mean, I had more time before I started school to learn to do chores, but then I wasn't given the opportunity.  Later, I was tired from life and not enough money for food and things.

Too Late?

It seems too late to get to know about the other countries in Europe and the rest of the world because they've all grown up and married.  You'd have had to have been smart and gone online and posted there around year 2000 or the late 1990s.  Maybe, you'd become accomplished plus famous somehow / as a celebrity of some sort.

I'm also relearning values, normal manners, etc., from the English takeover that made us all too close and carefree in bad ways.

Some Pointers/Ideas

(1) People and Their Relationships
     (A) Notice when people get along with those they like the most in certain ways because of complimentary personalities and personal preferences.
     (B) Do not push people into unpleasantness in relationships, but remember to also respect them in having relationships they really would like.

(2) Respect others who have built themselves up as somebody known to others.

Edit

The pan pizza at Papa John's is a limited time offer.

NO!

Limited Time Offer

When you get pizza..

what do you get if you get dessert?

Cinnamon, chocolate chip pie, or a full brownie?  I like the chocolate chip pie too much.  Maybe, I should get a brownie this time.  It has chocolate chips, too.

I just had some rice crispy treats.  I like the M&M ones better than coco treats.

I had like a couple last night and 3 this morning.  The M&M ones are gone!

Papa John's

They have pan pizza now.  I saw an ad on TV.  I'm getting one!

Back to Bed

Woke up to an ad for a blender and had a smoothie and back to bed!