Friday, November 30, 2012

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I'm not mad at Ellen DeGeneres.  I'm mad sometimes about how Tim Burton thinks I don't have modern culture acquired maybe and at how he's pointedly racist towards my liking.  I'm mad about the hysterics and antics I feel reverberating from what just came up as a vision connected to as though Johnny Depp did something ... and then got the message someone else was constantly doing something.

Well, it seems I got some bad clicks in my room from Ellen DeGeneres.  I got some thoughts about her I didn't like, but I'm ignoring them.  I was kind of mad at her before, but I don't remember why, but I wasn't very mad...  Well, kinda like with Tim Burton.  I think I just was mad at the n word thing.  I think she moved on and decided people such as myself or just me is a nigger.

Help me!

So, can anyone help me?  I thought I was supposed to call someone the n word as an ice breaker, and everyone surrounded me like without me being able to address it somehow.

Not Being European

I'm getting the drift that people "don't want me to be European."  '3I

A Big Deal

Wow, is it such a big problem that I try to make myself feel and sometimes others make me feel.

Wow, I just lost it.

Well, it's out, and that was the point.  I just didn't know what to say.  I guess I'm just trying to say that I'm fed up with this and don't agree and want an answer.  I know this has all been a waste of my life and stuff, obviously, and I'm not here to talk about it.  :|

Letting Hatred Fly

Wow, Tim Burton sure lets hatred fly-y!

Thinking About Things

I don't appreciate how Ellen DeGeneres delves into things without thinking.  I think I'm in a lot of trouble.  I'm kinda feeling dainty or something.  It's hard, I can never relax anymore.

Where You Live as a Teen

Why does Tim Burton think only people who lived in L.A. and Florida as a teen are okay?  He keeps sending out insults.  He is uncivil.  I am just mad.

Shouldn't Have Kids Now 3I

Ellen DeGeneres shouldn't have kids because the world went stupid since Johnny Depp and Tim Burton.

Problem

I just realized no one cares I lost my female thing and are making a big fuss 24-7 about the n word thing since it happened 3 years ago.  Can you believe it?  I mean, don't you think it's senseless?

STOP

I'M GONNA *beep* YOU ALL IF YOU DON'T ALL SHUT UP ABOUT MY DAD!

I AM VERY TOUCHY ABOUT HIM!  I'M GONNA *beep* YOU ALL!

STOP

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I'm going to *beep* my doctor.

Also, if it was diagnosed to me in the experiment, I wonder what that would mean.  You shouldn't call the police on me.  I'm gonna *beep* the Orlando police.  They left me there.  They wouldn't listen!  ':0

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Oh, I'm so sorry, my oldest aunt has no children.

Oh, I'm so sorry, Ellen DeGeneres.

ANYONE ELSE OFFENDED!

Problem

You know, I need every moment.  It's really annoying when people take their time out to hurt me emotionally or psychiatrically or chemically.  I mean, I've been hearing other worldly noises.  Before, I kept feeling judged in private for the n word thing.  The summer came, and my brother was home.  Then, the clicks in my room began, for some reason, like how I saw ghosts when "Ghost Adventures" started.

Ellen DeGeneres is not from L.A., like my family is not from Florida.  3I

You know, like Tim Burton, I feel that he has a problem with people like me racially, even though I just like being white though I do appreciate other cultures.  I mean, like everything I think is wrong.  It's because of mistakes I made, but these mistakes weren't very big.  I didn't do anything big on purpose.  I'm being attacked for fun.  I get these thoughts because of thinking Tim Burton was posting to me calling me not white and then tricked me into the n word thing or the people in the experiment.

So, supposedly since I had a hard time remembering to write my cousin it's so bad.  I felt like I was made to not think about it, though, really, and that makes me more mad because people will just get mad at my mom for it.  Then, it's the thing where I ended up funning my dad.  Woah, that's a big deal to me.  Then, what, I gained weight and couldn't find myself all as a teenager living in the New Orleans area.  It hurts to gain weight and do it by losing sleep and not really eating a lot.  xp

I just realized I'm kinda made up lightly being from the Florida coast and not being robust until now when I got fat.  One thing irritates me physically and then I can't think.  I also realized I was made up kinda overly slick and then sorta built up more rumply and rough, like those Russian dolls.  Then, I moved to the New Orleans area but couldn't quit unwind.

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How I Became Fatter and FATTER

I ate sweets one day up north during a hurricane in college.  I was withdrawn after I got too sick to take a test.  I stayed at home, sharing a bedroom.  8>  I got so plump!  I even took ballet once or twice a week, for adults.  I went back to college and took 2 advanced ballet programs at the college, the minor and the prep after school at nights.  I didn't have time to go to the gym.  I got fat.  I went sometimes.  I was off my diet, for some reason, guess I got tired of it or just got off.  ^8^  Finally, I had to come home.  I gained more weight after the mental hospital on pizza.  I gained weight not exercising, as well as not leaving my room during the day, when my family was up and about.  Well, it was bad Pizza Pockets from Costco.  :p  I was jogging, but I wasn't eating healthily.  I wanted to before all this happened.  I was some.  I just got interrupted.
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Picky, Picky 3I

Ellen DeGeneres is really picky over nothing...

1|2 Dutch 1|2 French

So, do you know anyone who is really Dutch and French?

Here's 3 people who are mixed French and Dutch

This girl is From France, so I guess her dad is the French one:
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This girl's last name comes from France a long time ago possibly or something but is from other countries and she's a singer:
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This girl's last name seems to be hiddenly Dutch:
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That's interesting.  My dad's mom I don't know her ethnicities for sure, like if she has real French nor what her Dutch last names would be.  I find the French conceited.  Maybe, Dutch is for me.  ^--^

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So, I've added 2 new pictures to my blog.

sand cat!

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found in Africa & Asia

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I added a racial label for me.

Racist Fetish

Ellen DeGeneres has a problems with Asians wanting to be attractive in a European way.

STOP

Wow, people are really going crazy.  QUIT FUCKING UP THIS CUTE BOY.

Another Suggestion

Germans and English might not always be agreeable with the U.S.

Suggestive Thinking

Why should these suggestions happen?  I know they happened when I got mad at a racist boy and when I thought Tim Burton socks were calling me not white.  I know before I was being stimulated for doing poorly in school.

What a Royal Pain in the Be Hind

Did you ever think of the pains people go through to be suggestive?

Teachers Having Websites

Why do teachers have websites?

Fetishes

Ellen DeGeneres has a big fetish for copyright.  Tim Burton takes care of his business.

Providing a Photo ID

I posted about Johnny Depp and provided a photo, already was on Facebook and MySpace.

If we post like about Ellen DeGeneres, wouldn't you want a picture?  I've seen people post about her.

Safety Online

Why were we encouraged to put where we live?  I never wanted to meet anyone.

What about taking pictures in a setting that doesn't reflect what you see in the window nor in the pattern of the doors?

What about our names?  Who cares about our screenname?

Being Unsuccessful

So, what, people who are actually unsuccessful don't have a hard time with my dad?

The Mean People

I told you my dad shouldn't be involved in Ellen DeGeneres.  It's her fault if she's mad at what comes out of him.

I've already tried to explain that in Orlando people are really mean.  My dad seems to have transferred culturally since living in New Orleans.

What I Ate

Liver Worst (sp?)
... Waht else
Chocolate Lava Cake from Domino's
Ah yes, my last can of New England Clam Chowder from Over 3 Years Ago. With Triscuits, but not my favorite, Dill & Olive Oil, the new kind.  :)

Submission Denied

Why does my dad want me to "submit" to him just because I'm Chinese-Indonesian?

Ease

Growing up in the nation's oldest continuing city in some of my more formative years, I learned that when you did something wrong people find out of surprise from stress that people let up on you.  They don't attack your flesh!

Age of Having Children

Most major figures of my generation or class year have seemingly ... are the youngest.  However, they have dads who started a family younger than my dad.

You know, I try to think happy thoughts, and it seems as if I never yet thought someone with an older father who is younger seems older.

It was a big thing to learn from your sibling, a very big thing everyone knew about.  It was even talked about a lot, like maybe during school.

So, we know there are families where sometimes kids of different ages get the benefit.  I know sometimes a family of 2 is good, sometimes a family of 3.

So, kids of my generation were just driven forward like soldiers, but I actually take the time to think of what you'd desire.  It seems like it really hit that sexy women are born 1957-1961.  I know there are a lot of sexy women born like before 1955.

Sometimes, I wonder if my dad anticipated what my mom would do to me and how I was kept away from him as a baby.  I was born tan, but then I got much fatter and was all white.  Then, I got tan, for some reason, and not just a little tan..  I guess I was an entertaining, stimulating baby, full of hope for mankind.  "Mixed" babies are the best, 2 very different parents, not like the same in different ways, like really different sentiments in important matters concerning things like wealth and class.

Age of Having Children

So, a father born in 1956 or 1957 who had a kid in 1998 would be 40-42.  My dad was 35 when I was born.  My mom is Chinese-Indonesian.  She was considered old for having a kid.  Her mom was 17.  Her mom went to school until 5th grade and became a tailor.  I think she is a public nun, now, and retired.

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Race

I think Holland and France paired are the best thing.

Problem

I took Risperdal for about a year and lost my female thing for over a year.  Wait, I guess I took it longer.  I went to the mental hospital, and eventually my female thing was gone!  :0

I was calling my grandma and reading a Bible reading every night for nearly a year.  I kept feeling uncomfortable in my female part.  See, something happened, and it doesn't really make sense.

The sad thing about that is I came home from college, kicked out of Voice and Music Education, probably for not memorizing my piano song.  I had a hard time in school and gained weight after a diet.  My 1st diet was when I was almost 16.  I got bloated after being called to the counselor, I know, and losing the pressed time in serious, college prep classes.  My next diet was eating a lot of healthy food, like wraps with spinach and some sort of meat and cheese, smoothies, sometimes soynuts.  In college, I had a full bowl of salad without dressing usually and if dressing like lite Greek dressing.  I had a full meal and didn't always have dessert.  I don't know, but I had organic dessert in my dorm.  I had a lot of crackers, cheese, and mixed nuts in my dorm.  I had a wrap and smoothie for lunch usually each day.

I was healthier in college just from working out each day, each day at least jogging 1|2 hour.  I think for breakfast, I had organic bars or bread and organic peanut butter and maybe jelly with soymilk.  I brought water to school.  I needed it for Singing, too.

So, when I did come home, my female thing was very very thick but not painful as it had been in my past.  So, it felt really good and magical.  I had a really magical experience thinking my life became an experiment and then that it had been one all along.  Thing was I couldn't concentrate in private.  I thought I was being watched by people I knew and that other people in the town worked for them..

The funny thing was when I saw the poster for CatCF, I heaved in some surreal, heavy sorta way, with the thought passing I shouldn't go to college and should post online.  However, going to college is valuable.  It taught me so much.  My singing became more streamlined.  The 1st year is important and mostly in Music and as far as graduating on time and not being able to take anything else etc. and being the "hardest" major, Music Education.  I also did Ballet in college, but I wasn't allowed in the advanced class my 1st year.  I came back and did the Prep program, but all these really good star dancers left.  There was 1 primary 1.
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Just Ate

I just had 2 hot dogs and cut them up and put them in hamburger buns.

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Dream

Also, There were 2 little images of Ellen, like ads, running across the top and doing something special.  In the 2nd, I think she came on squatting.

Then, I came to the main page, and I watched her and it felt like she was saluting or greeting me.  It's a fuzzy memory.

Dreams

Since hitting my head, my dreams are much less vivid and harder to remember.  Also, a lot of air entered my throat and made my singing fuzzier.

Dream

So, I was with some people.  The big tall guy put his arm around me.  First I think I hugged the big, tall Spanish lady.  I got money to get snacks from a machine I was family with.  There were 2 places of machines.  So, the lady said I learned something bad from the man, or that the adopted kids of the family did, to put their arm around her.  There were like 3 or 4 adopted kids in the family lyint around.  Also, set up, was like an alarm in my house and it was July 4th, and there was a steeple on the top and there was a little cute jingle for about 3 seconds and a festival of lights played.  My friend had the same alarm, but I didn't post it on the internet in e-mail because no longer was I safe.  I think before I was holding the hand of the tall, Spanish lady.  Some other things happened.  The world was going through what made sense and what didn't and were sorry for me.  There were some more well-to-do kids playing on a floor of lights but not very fancy lights.  I passed by.